Emilia

 

Chapter Sixteen

Elham returned to London the next morning - after leaving the inn where he had met Emilia he had only gone as far as the next village and had taken a room for the night. Unable to sleep, Elham had spent most of the night planning his revenge on Chloe.

Once in London, he immediately began to set his plans in motion. It only took him a couple of visits to the right places to deprive Chloe of both employment and a place to live, but he was not going to stop there - Chloe, he felt, would have to leave London for good. It would not do to merely banish her into the country - Chloe would always find a way to return and plague him. Then Elham remembered a friend of his who still owed him a favour. He, Elham thought, was just the man to take this matter in hand, and luckily he was in England at that moment.


This was certainly not her best day, Chloe thought. At the theatre, she had been informed that she was not needed any longer. This did not bother her overly much - she had been toying with the idea of finding some other engagement for a while and had often said so. Only when she arrived at her home and found a letter from a solicitor, demanding she move out of her lodgings within three days, she began to sense that something was wrong. She was just in the process of writing a frantic note to Mr. Bosworth to ask for his assistance when a visitor was announced - Lord Elham. All at once, Chloe understood who was behind her troubles, and resolved to charm Elham into helping her. Now that his little fiancée was gone, he was free to renew his love-affair with her, and Chloe was not loath to give him that opportunity.

"Elham!" she exclaimed with one of her famous smiles. "You are the last person I expected to come here, but I must say I am happy to see you!"

"Whether you are really happy remains to be seen," Elham said coldly, evading the kiss she had wanted to place on his cheek. "Stop your comedy, Chloe."

"You are angry with me," Chloe said, pouting, and allowing a tear to trickle down her cheek. She had perfected the art of crying at the right moment and was rather proud of her achievement. But to her disappointment, it did not work this time.

"No, not angry," Elham said, unmoved. "Disgusted - that's the word. I knew you were a scheming bitch, Chloe, but I never thought you'd stoop so low. I won't ask you why you told my fiancée you were pregnant - your reason for doing so is pretty obvious to me. But you forgot one thing - I am a dangerous man to cross, and you will have to suffer the consequences."

Chloe laughed defiantly. "You can't make me afraid," she said. "What can you possibly do to harm me? Unless you want it known that your betrothed left you because of our affair there is nothing you can do, and I know you only too well to be certain you don't want it known."

"You may not be afraid yet," Elham said coolly. "But you certainly are ruined, and I am not finished with you. You have lost your employment and your home, and you'd better not count on Bosworth to get you out of this. Bosworth is tired of you and won't move a finger to assist you. I have heard he hasn't called on you very often lately, or has he?" Elham could not repress a malicious grin, and Chloe hated him for it.

"There are others," she said disdainfully. "I don't need Bosworth. I know three gentlemen at least who'll be happy to protect me."

"A homeless ex-actress who has overstepped the boundaries of what is permitted to women of her kind?" Elham asked with a laugh. "You can try, of course, but in the end you'll be happy to accept the alternative I can offer you."

"Never!" Chloe screamed. "Get out of here!"

Elham shrugged. "Very well. Tell me when you have changed your mind."

Chloe spent the following three days trying to find someone to help her out of her scrape, but strangely enough none of her fervent admirers seemed inclined to assist her. On the third day, a gang of disreputable-looking men were on her doorstep, telling her they had come to lend a hand with removing her furniture from the house.

"The new owner of the house wants you out of here by nightfall," one of them said. He did not need to inform Chloe who the new owner was. It seemed Elham had avoided no cost to get rid of her. She would not have credited him with so much determination as that. Realising that resistance was useless, she waited until Elham called on her again. By the time he arrived, the men had finished taking her furniture out of the house and only those bits she had rented along with the building remained.

"Are you happy now?" she demanded when he entered her drawing-room.

"Not yet," he said with a grin. "I take it no one has offered you any assistance?"

"As if you did not know that," she said angrily. "I suppose everyone is afraid of you."

"And right they are," Elham said. "But apart from that I'd say most people are on my side."

"So what are you planning to do?" she demanded.

"I am going to take you away from London," Elham said. "I cannot expect my wife to have you anywhere near her."

"She is going to marry you?" Chloe asked disbelievingly. She had not credited the chit with such devotion to her future husband that she'd overlook his loose morals.

"That, my dear Chloe, is none of your business." Elham said coldly. "Now, unless you want to end in the gutter - which is very likely to happen if you stay here - are you going to do as I tell you?"

"I don't have any choice," Chloe said bitterly.

"There is always a choice," Elham said. "What you haven't got is courage. It's easy to hurt a girl who never did you any harm, but quite difficult to face the consequences of your actions, isn't it? Have you finished your packing?"

"Where are you going to take me?" Chloe asked.

"You'll see," Elham said curtly. "Let's go."


It had been very easy, Elham thought as the carriage with Chloe and him was on its way to Chatham. The manager of the theatre had asked no questions - the theatre owed a great deal of money, and could not afford to decline an offer of a couple of thousand pounds in return for Miss Watson's dismissal.

The owner of Chloe's house had been ready to sell it to him - with the option of buying it back cheaply and winning a couple of thousand in the bargain. He had not had enough courage to get rid of his capricious lodger himself, so when Elham had offered to buy the property, evict Miss Watson and sell the house back to him once the task was accomplished, the plan had met with his immediate and wholehearted approval.

"Where are you taking me?" Chloe interrupted Elham's musings.

"Chatham," Elham said.

"I thought I wasn't allowed to stay anywhere near London," Chloe said.

"I did not say your voyage would end there," Elham said calmly.

"What?"

"Don't pretend you did not hear me," Elham said. "You will continue your journey from Chatham - alone."

"Where am I going then?" Chloe said. "Don't you think I have a right to know?"

"But that would spoil your surprise, wouldn't it? Let me just say you won't need your furs there."

"I beg your pardon?"

"Does the name Georgetown ring a bell? A charming place, I've been told, though the climate is rather warm and humid. But the best thing about it - in my point of view - is that there is an entire ocean between Georgetown and here. That outweighs the disadvantages of Georgetown by far -- it certainly does in my point of view."

"You bastard!" Chloe screamed. "You'll have me shipped to some odious place? Over my dead body!"

"I told you there was always a choice," Elham said with a grin. "But I will have to disappoint you - I won't harm you."

"Oh no," Chloe said caustically. "You rid me of my home and income, but you won't harm me."

"You forget one thing, Chloe. You brought this on yourself. Had you not told those filthy lies to Emilia, you'd still be in London enjoying the attentions of Bosworth and those three other fellows you were talking about. I wouldn't have cared. But you were a bit overconfident - and we all must pay for our mistakes."

"If I want to hear a sermon I'll go to church," Chloe snapped.

Elham laughed. "And how long exactly is it since you saw a church from the inside?"

"As if that was your business," Chloe said. "I want you to set me down at once."

Elham opened the carriage window and ordered the coachman to stop.

"Get out of the carriage then," he said. Chloe looked out of the window, regarding the bleak countryside around them.

"Here?" she asked incredulously.

"You said at once, didn't you?" Elham said. "I'm happy to oblige."

"But how am I going to get back to town?" Chloe asked.

"From the moment you have left my carriage, that won't be my concern," Elham said. "Nor will I care what becomes of you. You know you cannot show your face there, so you'd better consider your options. If you go to Georgetown, you'll find I've made arrangements for you. You won't live in luxury, but you will have everything you need. Back in London, you'll end up either in the gutter or in a brothel. No one will assist you, I've seen to that. Now, which is it to be? The streets of London or a cosy little house in Georgetown?"

"You swine," Chloe said in a furious whisper. "Why not kill me? You know I'll die in that horrid place!"

"You certainly will, for you'll never be able to afford the journey back," Elham laughed. "I do not believe for a moment that the event will take place at any time in the near future though. You are tough, Chloe. People like you live to see an old age. It's the good people that die young."

From that moment on, Chloe seemed to have resigned herself to her fate. She pointedly ignored Elham for the rest of their journey and watched the countryside while the carriage took them to Chatham. They arrived there after dark, and Elham immediately dispatched a messenger to request Elham's friend, Captain Lawrence, to join them at the posting-house. It had been a stroke of luck that Lawrence was in England at the moment and due to sail to Demerara so soon, Elham thought. Lawrence was a respectable, married man and unlikely to fall for Chloe's lures. That she would try to charm the captain or one of his officers into taking her back to England was only to be expected, but Elham knew her attempts would be destined to fail with Lawrence, who was so devoted to his wife that no other woman raised his interest any more than a piece of furniture did.

Upon his arrival, Captain Lawrence told Elham that he would start his voyage the next morning, and advised Miss Watson to board the ship that night.

"Am I supposed to travel without my maid?" Chloe demanded.

"I am afraid so," Elham said. "Your maid refused to accompany you."

"Ungrateful bitch," Chloe muttered.

"And there I thought you might be able to pass yourself off as a lady," Elham said with a grin.

"No lady travels without her maid," Chloe said. "Very well, I shall have to rough it. You may be certain I'll never forget the bad turn you've served me, Elham."

"Those feelings are entirely reciprocated," Elham merely said. "Good bye, Chloe."

Then he turned to Captain Lawrence and wished him a safe journey. "Take good care of yourself," he advised the captain with a sidelong glance at Chloe.

Captain Lawrence laughed. "I shall," he said.

Elham spent the night in Chatham and watched Captain Lawrence's ship go out of port the next morning. Chloe was nowhere on deck, as far as Elham could see, but she was unlikely to have escaped. Captain Lawrence would have sent him a message if anything of that sort had occurred.

With a sigh, Elham walked back to the posting-house, where his carriage was waiting to take him to London. Until now, his anger with Chloe had kept him going - he had thought of little else than his revenge. Now that Chloe was gone, Elham realised that his heart was still aching for Emilia. It would be some time before he could forget her, but he would have to make an effort. He was not going to beg her to come back. It had been Emilia who had ruined everything, so it was up to her to seek reconciliation. It did not look as if she had any intention to do so, however, and so he'd better get used to the idea of having to live his life without her. The sooner he came to terms with this, the better it was.


Two weeks after Emilia had left London, Tilda returned to Little Compton. Mr. Ingleton accompanied his fiancée and was invited to stay for a couple of days before going back to Town. Emilia found their first encounter rather awkward - she felt immensely guilty for the way she had treated Lord Elham, and knew that Mr. Ingleton had never liked her above half and would resent her behaviour. But contrary to Emilia's fears Mr. Ingleton did not allude to what had passed between her and his brother. He was reserved, but not unkind. Emilia supposed that Tilda had asked him not to touch the subject, and was thankful that he did not.

It was Tilda and not Mr. Ingleton who, after dinner, asked her how she was.

"Miserable," Emilia said with a sigh. "I have made a terrible mistake."

"You certainly have, I'm afraid," Tilda said. "Why didn't you tell me about that woman? You could have asked for my advice - I would have been happy to help."

"I just couldn't," Emilia said quietly. "I was -- I was devastated, and I only wanted to get away and be alone. Can you understand what I mean?"

Tilda shook her head. "I cannot," she said. "If anyone had told me such a story about Gerry, I would not have believed it without hearing his point of view. But then I often cannot understand your motives, so I am not going to judge you."

"How is Elham?" Emilia asked after a few minutes of silence.

"I do not know," Tilda said hesitantly. "I have not met him very often of late, and when I did we did not talk about you. He did not look well, however. I had the impression that he has grown thinner and ... He seemed less cheerful than he used to be." Tilda saw the tears in Emilia's eyes and stopped.

"Is he very unhappy?" Emilia asked quietly. Tilda did not answer.

"Tilda ... is he ... does he suffer much?" Emilia insisted. "I need to know. Tell me."

"What difference does it make to you?" Tilda asked. "The way I see it, you feel wretched enough as it is."

"Please, Tilda. What did he tell you?"

"You do not think Lord Elham would confide in me!" Tilda said.

"No, but he might confide in his brother, and being betrothed to you Mr. Ingleton might tell you a thing or two."

"And betray his brother's confidence? Certainly not," Tilda said indignantly. "No doubt Lord Elham confides in Gerry -- in fact, I know he does. But Gerry has never told me anything about the things he said. He might also keep it from me because I am your sister. He knows I am obliged to take your side, just as he is obliged to take Lord Elham's. The only thing I can tell you is that whenever I met Lord Elham he made an effort to appear unaffected -- and failed completely. One reason why I left London was because I was certain my continued presence in his grandmother's house reminded him of you, and added to his unhappiness. Gerry says it does not, but then Lord Elham is unlikely to tell my betrothed that the sight of me makes him miserable."

"I don't know what can have possessed me," Emilia said unhappily. "I've made a complete mess of things. Tilda, what can I do?"

"I have no idea," Tilda said. "But an apology would be a good start, don't you think?"

"Indeed it would," Emilia said. "I mean to apologise, only ... Tilda, do you think Lord Elham will come here so I can tell him how sorry I am?"

"To be honest, no, I do not think he will," Tilda said. "He did come after you, and you sent him away. Somehow I cannot see him fall at your feet, Emilia, not after the things that have passed between you."

"I am not going to fall at his either," Emilia said angrily. "I'll say I am sorry, but I shan't grovel before him."

"I do not think he wants you to," Tilda said pensively.

"Do you think I have still got a chance?" Emilia asked meekly.

"To be honest, I have no idea," Tilda said. "Really, I haven't. I cannot read Lord Elham's mind, and even if I could I'm afraid I wouldn't be any wiser. I believe he doesn't know what he will do if you apologise any more than you do."


Oliver Brentwood and Gerald Ingleton were discussing the same matter while they were sitting in the dining room with their glass of port.

"How is your brother?" Oliver asked, pouring his guest a glass of port.

"Miserable," Gerry merely said. "I have never seen him like this."

"He did look rather dejected when he left us that night," Oliver agreed. "My sister is a fool to let him go. I could tell he's uncommonly fond of her, and he seemed like a decent fellow to me."

"Despite the things Chloe Watson said about him?" Gerry asked bitterly.

"I did not know about the things Chloe Watson had said until after he'd left us," Oliver said, "and then my sister told me she should not have believed them in the first place."

"That realisation comes a bit late," Gerry said bitterly. "I admit Des was never a saint, and he never said he was. But he is basically decent. If he were not ... " Gerry broke off, not wishing to betray Emilia, even though in his opinion she would have deserved every bit of the troubles it would cause her.

"If he was not, he wouldn't have treated Emilia the way he did," Oliver finished his sentence. "You needn't mind your tongue around me, Ingleton. Emilia told me everything. -- She does care a great deal about your brother, by the way, no matter what your opinion may be."

"Then why did she treat him the way she did?" Gerry demanded. "I cannot believe she cares for Des -- I've seen what she's done to him. The man is pretty well done for."

Oliver shrugged. "I don't know why she treated him like this," he said. "Love makes fools of us all, I guess."

Despite himself, Gerry had to laugh. "What do you know about it?" he wanted to know. "Don't tell me you have ever been in love."

"I won't, because I never was," Oliver admitted and added, with a grin, "That's why I can be wise about it, I suppose."

Gerry laughed. "So, what are we going to do about those star-crossed lovers of ours?" he asked. "Des says he doesn't want to see your sister again, but he's lying. I know he expects her to take the next step though, and if she doesn't take it soon I'll have to put him out of his misery and shoot him."

"Seriously?" Oliver asked, taken aback.

"Well, not shoot him, but I need to do something about it," Gerry said. "Do you think there's any chance of Emilia going to London -- to see him?"

"None," Oliver said. "She says she doesn't want to see Elham ever again. She's about as truthful about it as Elham seems to be about not wishing to see her."

"There's nothing else for it then but for me and Tilda to get married sooner than we'd planned." Gerry said. "They cannot avoid each other at the wedding."

"And you are only going to do this for your brother's sake, I expect," Oliver said with a grin.

"I admit there are some selfish motives too," Gerry said. "But, in earnest, I think it would be a good opportunity for them to meet. Neither will lose face -- none of them came after the other; they are both here because Tilda and I want them to. And if they do not make the best of that opportunity, I'll wash my hands of them."

 

 

Chapter Seventeen

Although Tilda and Mr. Ingleton -- like Emilia and Lord Elham -- had agreed to wait with their wedding until Sir Harry Brentwood had returned to England, Mr. Ingleton did not find it very difficult to persuade her to marry sooner. Once he had explained his motives to Tilda, she too could not wait until they married, and decided their wedding should take place in a month.

"We cannot possibly prepare a decent wedding in less than a month," she argued when Mr. Ingleton said he preferred an even earlier date. "And my mother does not want me to have a shabby wedding. Besides, you know hasty marriages cause unwanted comment."

Being fully aware of that, and not wishing to throw a bad light on his fiancée, Mr. Ingleton complied and went back to London to start his own wedding preparations. He invited Tilda to come to London and bring her sister along with her, but when Tilda suggested to Emilia that they were to go to London to buy Tilda's bride-clothes, Emilia flatly refused to accompany her, especially when she heard that they were to stay with Lady Elham again.

"I don't think I can ever look in Lady Elham's face again," Emilia said by way of an explanation.

"You know you will have to, sooner or later," Tilda said mercilessly. "You cannot expect her to stay away from her grandson's nuptials."

"But I won't have to see her until then," Emilia insisted. "I am sorry, Tilda. I cannot come with you. Ask Mrs. Morton."

So it was Mrs. Morton who took Tilda to London, while Emilia stayed in Little Compton with her mother and brother. Lady Brentwood, who had watched Emilia with growing unease ever since she had returned home, finally decided to have a word with her on the evening after Tilda had left for London once more. She did not rest until Emilia had told her the entire truth, and although the thought that a daughter of hers could sink so low as to invent an engagement just to get rid of a suitor grieved her, she did not say much on that subject. There was no way to undo what had been done, and she was not one to dwell on past grievances. But she took Emilia severely to task for not confiding in her, as well as for causing Lady Elham a great deal of trouble and hurting Lord Elham.

"For he quite dotes on you," she said. "Everyone can see that, and he would have made you an excellent husband too."

"I know," Emilia said forlornly. "But I do not think he still wants to marry me. Not after all that has happened."

"I cannot say I blame him," Lady Brentwood said sharply. "Put yourself in his shoes for a moment. There is this girl who claims to be engaged to you -- and although you could not care less for what happens to her, you agree to help her out of her scrape and stand by that supposed engagement. You find yourself falling in love with her, and doing everything to please her -- only to find out that she thinks you are a ... a libertine of the worst kind. What would you do in his place, Emilia? Tell me that!"

"Mama, I know I have treated him badly," Emilia said. "If there was any way for me to make amends for it, I would do it, but I cannot think of one. Can you?"

"Unfortunately not," Lady Brentwood said. "There is only one person in the world who knows what you can do to make amends -- and that is Lord Elham himself. You will have to talk to him about it."

"I cannot possibly go to London to see him," Emilia protested. "And I cannot write to him either. How is he to know I am sincere if I only write to him? Anything can be written down on a piece of paper!"

"As to that, Emilia, you can talk to him at Matilda's wedding," Lady Brentwood said soothingly. "This gives you another three and a half weeks to think of what you are going to say to him. Think carefully."

Emilia did not believe it would take her much thinking to decide on what she was to say. It would take much more courage and resolve to actually say the things she wanted him to know. There was one more thing she was not sure about -- did he actually want to hear her apologies? Or would he just turn away from her and refuse to listen? She was not certain whether she could endure that humiliation, but she would have to risk it nevertheless.


Lord Elham was, at first, incredulous when his brother told him how soon his wedding was going to be.

"I thought you were going to wait until Sir Harry came back from India," he said, looking at his brother and wondering why Gerry was grinning so smugly.

"Oh, I had a word with Tilda and we decided we did not want to wait that long," Gerry said. "So, once Lady Brentwood had assured us that Sir Harry would certainly not mind if we married sooner, and Oliver Brentwood had told me he was to act for his father in business matters while he was away, we felt that there was nothing we had to wait for."

"Oliver Brentwood said he was to act in his father's place?"

"He is of age, Des. So why should he not take his father's place while he is abroad? After all, he is to take Sir Harry's place one day. This gives him some practice."

"Still he was in Oxford most of the time, not in Hampshire."

"One cannot expect him to neglect his studies just because his father is gone," Gerry said.

"I am wondering though -- he must take a rather lenient view on his sisters' reputation," Elham said. "He did not find it necessary to make inquiries when the announcement of Emilia's engagement to me was made."

"Ten to one Lady Brentwood had already told him about it," Gerry said. "So why should he inquire? Certainly he could trust his mother to take care of his sisters?"

"Well, probably. -- So you are going to be married in a month?"

"Less than that, by now," Gerry said. "It'll take me the better part of that month to get my house ready for Tilda, though she said she did not require many changes."

"That's because she hasn't seen your house," Elham said dryly.

"Come, Des, my house is not a ruin. Tilda will like it, I know. She'll enjoy renovating and refurnishing it. The only thing I will need to do is see to it that there are enough servants to do her bidding." Gerry laughed, and Elham could not help but think, enviously, that he had not seen his brother so happy ever before. At least one of them had gained happiness from his encounter with Emilia Brentwood, he thought gloomily.

"Matilda is going to come back to London next week," Gerry said. "She needs to buy her bride-clothes."

Elham's face lit up. "Is she going to take her sister with her?" he asked, hating himself for showing how much Emilia still meant to him. Like a puppy that had received nothing but kicks from its master and still kept running after him, he thought despondently.

"I don't know," Gerry said. "But I am certain Tilda will ask her to accompany her, so if Emilia does not come, it will not be Tilda's fault."

Elham spent the entire week until Matilda Brentwood returned to London imagining what his first meeting with Emilia would be like. He would not make things too easy for her, he decided, but not too difficult either. He would show her that he was willing to forgive her, if she really wanted him to. He'd be reserved at first, but would indicate that he was not averse to talking to her. Still, he would certainly try not to appear too eager. Emilia should not get the impression that, no matter what she did and how much she had hurt him, she could come back to him and everything would be fine again. She had to learn that there were things no one was allowed to do to him -- not even Emilia.

When Matilda arrived in London, not with Emilia but with Mrs. Morton accompanying her, Elham felt as if all his hopes had suddenly been dashed. Emilia had not come -- she did not want to see him. Her message was clear -- she would not seek him out, and would not admit that she had been at fault. Matilda told him that Emilia's refusal to come to London had not had anything to do with him, but he did not believe her. True, it would be awkward for Emilia to meet his grandmother again, but that could not be the real reason. He knew what the real reason was -- she did not want to see him.

This did not make him look forward to his brother's wedding with much enthusiasm. There was no way for him to avoid being there -- Gerry would never forgive him if he refused to attend his wedding, just because he had quarrelled with Gerry's future sister-in-law. It was simply not to be thought of, and besides Elham wanted to be with his brother when he married.

He'd get that ordeal done with somehow, Elham thought. It was only for one or two days after all, and once Gerry and his young wife had left the wedding reception, he could quit Little Compton as well. Perhaps, he thought, he should spend the summer with his friends -- he had been invited to several house-parties, so he would not lack amusement. On the other hand he had neglected his estate lately -- thanks to Emilia. Perhaps it would be better if he went there and tried to catch up with all that work he had left aside for her sake. Work might make him forget -- it was worth a try.


One of the first questions Emilia asked her sister when she came home to Little Compton with trunks full of exquisite clothes she had bought under Lady Elham's aegis, was whether she had met Lord Elham. Tilda's news -- that she had met Lord Elham and that he had seemed severely disappointed about Emilia not accompanying her -- made her hopeful. He had been disappointed not to see her -- this could only mean that he still wanted to see her. Not all was lost then. She therefore began to prepare for her sister's wedding in her own way, carefully planning what she was going to wear for which occasion, and wondering whether Lord Elham would like the bridesmaids' dress Tilda had chosen for her. She kept imagining the situation when she would ask for his forgiveness, and wondered how he would react.

Three days before the wedding ceremony, the Ladies Elham and Gilmorton arrived. The bridegroom travelled with his mother and grandmother, but Lord Elham was not with them. Emilia did not quite manage to hide her disappointment when she greeted the guests, and Lady Elham was sharp-witted enough to notice it. After dinner, she took Emilia aside and asked her what was wrong with her.

"Nothing," Emilia said, not wishing to admit how much she missed Lord Elham.

"My dear girl," Lady Elham said with a chuckle, "you can try to fool me, but you won't succeed. It irks you that Elham has not come with us, doesn't it?"

"Well ... I did expect to see him today," Emilia said quietly.

"And he did not oblige you," Lady Elham said dryly. "You will see him the day after tomorrow, my dear. He had some business he could not delay, so he stayed behind in London, but he has promised to be here in time for the wedding -- the night before, to be precise. Are you looking forward to seeing him?"

"I am," Emilia said.

"Do you miss him?"

"Very much."

"He misses you too," Lady Elham said. "He does not say so, but I've got eyes. If you are clever, Emilia, you will try to get him back, though I do not think he will offer you much resistance. He's been too miserable without you to miss out on a chance for reconciliation."

Emilia smiled faintly. "Thank you, Lady Elham. You are so good to me -- much kinder than I have ever deserved, in fact."

Lady Elham laughed. "I knew right from the beginning that something had to be wrong with that engagement of yours," she said. "But it amused me to see how Elham defended you, and by the time I had seen you I knew you were the right girl for him. He has not looked at any other female since he met you. Well, looked at them maybe, for men will never get rid of that habit, but he certainly did not go any further than that. -- I believe Elham is like his grandfather in many ways. My husband had quite a reputation for being a terrible rake -- truly, I sometimes think that had it not been for Elham's wealth my father would not have given his consent to our marriage. But still, in all those years that we were married -- more than fifty years, mind you -- he never gave me a reason for complaint. No matter how wild he was when he was young and single, from the moment we were married he became the kind of husband many women could only wish to marry. And his grandson, I am sure, will be just like that if you give him the chance."

"Well, I cannot propose marriage to him," Emilia said, smilingly.

"Why not?" Lady Elham asked. "You did not ask him whether he wanted to be engaged to you, did you."

Emilia blushed. "My behaviour has been inexcusable," she said. "I shall be lucky if he ever looks at me again, let alone speaks to me."

"Your behaviour was not really proper," Lady Elham agreed. "But I do not think this has done you much damage in his eyes. Those prim and proper society ladies bore him -- and their hypocrisy appalls him. There is something refreshingly different about you."

"But one day nothing about me will be new to him if we are married," Emilia said. "What then?"

"I cannot answer that question," Lady Elham said. "If you really care for him, you will take that risk. If not ..." Lady Elham shrugged, indicating that it was not really her business. Still she looked far from indifferent. "Do something about him," she finally said gruffly. "I can't have my grandson moping forever. It wears my spirits down."


Elham arrived in Little Compton in the late afternoon of the day before his brothers wedding ceremony. He had suggested taking a room in the local inn -- which, as he remembered, was comfortable enough to provide him with what he needed -- but neither Gerry nor Lady Brentwood had wanted to hear of it. He was to stay in the Manor House as her guest, Lady Brentwood insisted, and not wishing to insult her Elham had accepted the invitation. Secretly, he was planning to leave Little Compton only moments after his brother and sister-in-law had done so. He would not stay anywhere near Emilia for long if he could help it.

Dinner at the Manor House was an awkward affair. Lady Brentwood had seated him between herself and Emilia, and so he was obliged to converse politely with both. To his relief Lady Brentwood kept him occupied most of the time, and so he did not have to do more than direct the occasional courteous remark at Emilia. She looked lovely, he thought, just as he had remembered her, but she showed no inclination to talk to him any more than civility required. Before dinner was over, Elham began to count the minutes he would have to spend in Little Compton until he could leave without giving offence. He realised he had been looking forward to meeting Emilia -- but seeing her like this, like a mere acquaintance, was something he could not bear.


It was a hot summer evening, and by the time Emilia had left the dinner table she was feeling extremely hot and flustered. She excused herself and went outside, trying to get some fresh air and regain her composure. Despite the things his grandmother had said, Lord Elham had looked so forbidding that Emilia had not dared approach him. Now she despised herself for being so cowardly, for not asking Lord Elham for a private meeting the moment she had seen him. What if they did not get a chance to speak? What if he left before she had had a chance to tell him how sorry she was and how much she had missed him? She knew she would not have the courage to follow him -- or to write to him. Not after today's encounter when he had looked so cold and distant.

She walked past the dining-room window and looked inside, watching her brother and uncle handing around the decanter of port. Lord Elham was not with them, and Emilia wondered where he could be. Had he already joined the ladies in the drawing-room, hoping to meet her there? Should she go back inside?

Emilia decided to walk as far as the bowling-green and then back to the house. A short walk, she hoped, would calm her nerves. She would certainly need some nerve when she encountered Lord Elham.
Emilia did encounter him sooner than she had thought she would -- he was coming towards her from the bowling-green when she approached it.

"You are outside?" he asked her, giving her a wary look as if he wanted to indicate she had been following him.

"Yes, I had to go out of doors," she replied, trying to sound calm. "It is so oppressive in there ... I needed some fresh air."

"Well, I won't disturb you, Miss Emilia," he said and, with a curt nod, turned towards the house.

"Don't go, please," Emilia heard herself say before she could think of what she would do if he really stayed. Lord Elham stopped, but seemed to avoid looking at her.

"I know I have said terrible things to you, and I am fully aware that I have hurt you badly," Emilia said hurriedly, afraid that he would not hear her out. "You do not know how sorry I am for having said them, and how much I wish all this had never happened. But if you go away now I'll never again have the courage to speak to you, and I will never be able to tell you how much I have missed you and ... how much I care for you. I'll never be able to ask you to forgive me."

She broke off and stood there, watching him and waiting for his reply, but when he did not say a word she began to feel embarrassed. She had probably made a fool of herself for nothing - he did not love her any more, if he had ever loved her at all, and now he only wanted to be rid of her. She had thrown herself at him, and he was uncertain how to reject her without humiliating her too much. Emilia decided she would not put him through that trouble.

"Well," she said, trying to hold back her tears, "I'll leave you alone now ... I didn't want to make a scene ... I didn't want to make you feel obliged to ... anyway, this was what I wanted you to know, and now you do know. I think I had better get back inside the house or my mother will be worried."

She hastily turned around to walk away with as much dignity as she could muster, but did not get far.

"Where do you think you are going?" Elham asked her.

"Back to the house," Emilia said, swallowing a sob. "I told you my mother will be worried."

"You have the nerve to leave me standing here all by myself after all those things you said to me?" he asked.

"They did not seem to mean much to you," Emilia said quietly.

"Turn around and look at me, Emilia," he said.

Hesitantly, Emilia did as she had been told. When she looked up into his face, she saw his smile, and felt infinite relief.

"What you just said meant the world to me," he said, taking her into his arms. "I love you dearly, Emilia -- I still do, whatever your opinion on the subject may be."

"Then you have forgiven me?" Emilia asked, not able to believe her luck.

"I have," Elham said reassuringly. "But what about you? Do you still love me, or have Chloe's accusations made it impossible for you to even tolerate me?"

"No ... not even Miss Watson managed that," Emilia said quietly. "I thought so at first, but then I realised it was not so. I missed you terribly -- and by the time you left the inn the other night I knew I had made a terrible mistake. It won't ever happen again, I promise."

"I won't let it happen ever again," Elham said with a smile, pulling her closer and placing a kiss on her forehead. "So, are you going to marry me?"

Emilia laughed. "To the point, are we?"

"Certainly. I am not going to give you another chance to get rid of me," he said.

"Then I do not really have a choice," Emilia said laughingly. "But yes, I will marry you."

"When?"

"I am afraid we will have to wait until Tilda and your brother will return from their honeymoon," Emilia said. "After all the trouble they have taken to get us back together it is the least thing we can do."

"I will ask Gerry to cut his honeymoon short," Elham said with a grin.

"You will do no such thing!" Emilia exclaimed indignantly. "Besides, I do not think he would do it, not even for you."

"You are right, he would not," Elham said smilingly. "And I cannot blame him -- there are limits to the things one does for one's brother." He kissed Emilia, and for a while she completely forgot about her surroundings.

"Perhaps we had better go back to the house," Elham finally said, loosening his hold. "By now your mother will have noticed that we are both missing, and that will worry her. Besides I need to see my brother to ask him how long he means to be away."

As they walked back to the house holding each other's hand, Emilia felt perfectly content for the first time in weeks. Never again, she promised herself, would she let anything come between her and Elham.


By the time Emilia Brentwood got married to the Earl of Elham in the parish church of Little Compton, her father had returned from India and had given his wholehearted consent to their marriage.

Lord Elham's sister, Lady Minton, who had been confined shortly after Tilda and Gerry's marriage, had given birth to a son and was able to travel to Hampshire to attend her eldest brother's wedding. Mrs. Sulgrave and her husband came as well, although rumour had it that she, too, was in a delicate state -- a rumour neither of the Sulgraves denied.

It was also said that Sir George Harbury had fallen in love with a young heiress from Yorkshire and was expected to announce his engagement any moment. His quarrel with Lord Elham seemed at an end, at any rate -- he had even promised to honour Lord Elham with his presence at the wedding ceremony, a sure sign that he no longer held any grudge.

Mr. Brentwood and his daughters came to the wedding too, but Mrs. Brentwood had excused herself -- she was feeling a trifle out of sorts and did not think travelling would do her any good at the moment. Neither bride nor bridegroom believed her excuse, but they did not resent her staying away. On the contrary, they preferred things that way. Emilia had not forgotten the spiteful things her aunt had said about her, and was glad to see that Mrs. Brentwood had at least the decency to stay away.

Emilia was in her bedroom, getting dressed for the wedding ceremony when Lady Elham entered the room.

"Let me look at you, my dear," she said and, when Emilia had turned around to face her, smiled. "You are going to continue the family tradition," she said contentedly. "The Lady Elham has always been a beauty."

"Always?" Emilia asked with a shy smile.

"You can have a look at their portraits in our gallery if you find the time to do so," Lady Elham said with a chuckle. "Though I am afraid you will not find the time very soon. -- I have brought you something to wear at the wedding."

She gave Emilia a parcel and told her to open it. In the parcel there was a set of spectacular jewels -- more beautiful than any Emilia had seen.

"A family heirloom," Lady Elham explained. "Whenever an Earl of Elham marries, his bride wears these jewels. I got them from my mother-in-law, and you will pass them on to your son's bride one day."

"They are lovely," Emilia said quietly. "Are you quite sure you want to part with them, Lady Elham?" she asked, when she saw the tears in Lady Elham's eyes. It was the first time she had ever seen that formidable old lady lose her poise.

"Of course," Lady Elham said resolutely. "Do you think I haven't got enough trinkets as it is? I won't miss these -- it is just that they reminded me of my own wedding day. It will pass, I am sure. Now hurry up. You don't want to keep your bridegroom waiting, do you?"

Emilia laughed. "What do you think he is going to do?" she asked. "Start the ceremony without me?"

"No, but I wouldn't put it past him to come here and fetch you to the church in person," Lady Elham said. "I told you he is very much like his grandfather, and this is the thing he would have done."

Tilda helped Emilia put on the jewels Lady Elham had given her and, with a last glance into the mirror, Emilia pronounced herself satisfied with the picture she presented.

"Then let us go to church before the bridegroom gets impatient," she said with a smile. "I am ready when you are, Lady Elham."

 

 

The End

 

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