Gentlemen of Gloucestershire
By MichelleRW
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Posted on 2021-09-06
Chapter 1
Mrs. Catherine Tilney
née
Morland began her marriage to the Reverend Henry Tilney with every expectation of happiness. When a crisis emerges and her new family is put in danger, she must become the heroine she has been in training for all her life. A sequel to
Northanger Abbey
featuring dramatic scenarios, comic situations, witty banter, and hopefully wisdom gained through the evolving relationship of a young couple with plenty to learn about themselves and each other.
Mrs. Catherine Tilney
née
Morland began her marriage to the Reverend Henry Tilney with all the expectation of happiness a newly wedded heroine may hope for, after enduring both a lengthy engagement and objections from the gentleman's father. She gained a loving sister in HenryâÂÂs own Eleanor, whose marriage to the recently titled Viscount Vermond provided a good connection as well. Likewise, the Tilneys were the receivers of warm affection from the entire Morland clan: from Catherine's clergyman father and excellent mother down to young Master George and Miss Harriet, and the seven other children besides. To all this must be added the benefit of an independent living at Woodston Parsonage and the provision of some fortune through the groom's late mother, putting the happy couple in as much ease as two eager souls, united more by tenderness than complete practicality, could want.
But it would not be much to recount this next chapter in their lives if all were perfection, and there were a few blemishes which even their present bliss could not erase. One was the continued obstinacy displayed by the master of Northanger Abbey: General Tilney, though at last granting his consent to the match, had never been persuaded to rejoice in it. Rather, the disappointment of a violently disabused beliefâÂÂas his presumption of Catherine's expectations had beenâÂÂproved as mortifying as his children's perceived desertion, notwithstanding the triumph of his daughter's elevation. These resentments were nursed to such a degree that attendance at Fullerton Church was impossible, and indeed the majority of his words at the time were addressed to Mr. Allen, the principal landowner of that parish. This gentleman held far different opinions on matters both personal and pecuniary. Certainly
he
was present at his neighbour's day of felicity, with the warmest congratulations tendered to the family. Having done so, and paid for the breakfast besides, Mr. Allen discharged his last obligation by penning a civil reply to the absent Gloucestershireman. The brevity of this letter, and lack of further correspondence in the months to come, spoiled any lingering hope of an inheritance from that quarter. Consequently, as the general could no longer prevent his son's marriage, he chose instead to ignore it.
This arrangement was not altogether unwelcome. Having gained his matrimonial aim, and with his sister bestowed elsewhere, Henry felt few pangs at avoiding the notice of his father. Any travel he and his desired could now be affected through their brother the viscount, and all domestic comforts were easily attained in the village of Woodston. On the lady's side, though saddened to be the cause of any quarrel, Catherine could not quite pity one who had treated her so cruelly. She therefore united all her efforts in the pleasant task of becoming a good wife to a man ripe for pleasing, rather than the more trying occupation of discerning what sort of daughter would suit another.
However, one member of the family would prove to be a plague upon them both. The eldest son and heir, Captain Frederick Tilney, had not upon the rebellion of his younger brother sobered into a more obedient one. Never a prudent man in the best of circumstances, his forbearance was sorely tested when a series of errors at the War Office, and the resulting confusion in transfers and assignments, resulted in his leave being unintentionally extended till his regiment could return from their recent posting abroad. Still happily unmarried, he was unhappily forced by familial as well as financial duties to once again quarter for a time at Northanger Abbey. These circumstances, and the unwanted attention placed upon him by the absence of the other Tilney offspring, provoked a covetousness of his brother's independence rather than his state of joy. So came about the events which this prologue, at last ending, serves to introduce.
It was a Tuesday; the day of the week being important to understand in the chronicle which is to follow, let the reader take note. It was also the second week of September, a full ten days into a month already proving as tempestuous as the proceeding season had been mild and accommodating. Just the day before Henry and Catherine had run with their housekeeper, cook, and stable boy into the orchard to rescue the remaining apples from a sudden gale knocking the trees about, resulting in a numerous if premature harvest for the coming winter.
After so much careful nurturing, to see the first fruits of their union so indecorously delivered smote Catherine's heart. They were nothing like the firm, meaty variety that had graced the parsonage table back when she was a mere visitor. Having changed into something less dishevelled after their labours, Henry found her forlornly polishing and brooding over a diminutive sample.
"Do not fret," he said, taking one from her hand, "for these are perfect roasting apples: they are compact, and shall not come apart so easily. Their size is in exact proportion to their purpose."
"But they are not nearly as ripe as they could have been: see how green they look!"
"That is so." He shook his head, tutting. "How we are reduced: as our forebears were brought low by an apple, so we are made to see how little this fickle fruit may be depended on."
Here she could not help smiling, as she always did when her husband turned philosophical, and remembered that they might be good for jams and preserves. "I shall write my mother, who has many recipes, so we may still enjoy them."
"There! a solution is at hand, and how cleverly you have devised it." He smiled as well, always loving when he could tease his wife into a good humour (not so arduous a task that it must be repeated throughout the day), and led her away for a more pleasant evening of shared company.
The next day dawned fairer, prompting Henry to make his rounds about the parish before the barometer fell again.
"I have some things I should like delivered to the families, only they are not finished yet." Catherine's good intentions as a parson's wife were often impaired by distraction, but being kind-hearted she resolutely continued her pilgrim's progress of improvements. "And the garden should be looked at, or I would offer to accompany you. But please tell Mrs. Stanton I will attend her come Friday to help distribute the widows' relief."
"I bow to your domestic industry, and shall certainly offer your exemplary excuses." Henry then courted a kiss, no difficult feat, and so rewarded leapt with alacrity to the seat in his curricle. "As you are safely employed, I may travel so far as the mill, since Hayes was not at church on Sunday and I have heard unwell. If so I will likely be held up by a visit to Mr. Wilcox as well." Here his tone betrayed his anticipation at meeting with one of his chief, and most grumbling, laymen.
Catherine, with more charity toward the man's family than himself, desired to be remembered to them, wished her husband a good day, and promised a happy welcome upon his return. Such a valediction was in every way an encouragement to them both: for the lady to stiffen her resolve, and for the gentleman to subdue his raillery.
Unfortunately, despite a promising beginning, Catherine's plans soon went awry. First was the discovery that some of the greens had drowned. Then the stable boy begged leave to go with a cousin just run up from the village, the family's sheep having fled pens damaged by the same cause. He, and his aunt the cook if possible, were needed to gather them back.
As a clergymanâÂÂs wife Catherine always desired to accommodate the parish when possible, and needing little inducement to give up so discouraging a project as she had begun, generously released both servants. "And if I may be of assistance as well," she began to offer, but Mrs. Poole would not hear of it.
"For Mrs. Tilney to be seen shooing sheep! No, ma'am, we couldnâÂÂt ask it of you."
"But just yesterday we were all after the apples," Catherine reasoned, and in truth, heartily wished she could quit her chores for so noble a cause, having more of a talent for rambles than housekeeping. "Surely it must be to anyone's credit to offer aid at such a time."
But the good woman could not agree, and promised to see to the garden upon returning. So Catherine contented herself with praying for their success while waving to them.
After a tedious morning of indoor tasks, she and the housekeeper were interrupted in reviewing the accounts by a fine pair of rats. It took both their efforts and one of the dogs to flush their quarry. Unfortunately the Newfoundland, just grown out of his infancy, took it as a reward to gambol about the rooms, including the study; where not finding his master, he leapt into the man's chair with devilish innocence.
"Brutus: no!" Catherine hated chiding, for she was very fond of the dog, and had in fact pleaded for him to remain inside more than Henry was wont to allow. And how did the animal repay her kindness? By ignoring her and settling more firmly into the chair, leaves and twigs affixing to the upholstery in an unholy mess. "Out!" she cried, and taking up the broom, chased him to the door as thoroughly as the earlier pests.
By this time she was altogether discouraged, and not a little bedraggled by her misadventures. She could not bear to pour over ledgers and figures at the moment; looking at accounts would need to be postponed. "We shall pick back up later in the day," she announced to her housekeeper. "I have some work to do, and Mr. Tilney will not be back until later, so there is no need to start anything before cook returns." After they had removed the dirty chair for cleaning, Catherine retreated to the drawing room and took up her box, while also attempting to read from a book propped before her. It was, perhaps, not the most productive means of conducting her affairs. Nevertheless the activity and locationâÂÂfor it was her favourite in the whole houseâÂÂwere most soothing to her nerves. Soon she was pleasantly engaged in considering the plight of some other young heroine who had far worse villains than sheep, rodents, or dogs to contend with. So it was that Catherine did not hear the knock at the front door when it sounded, leading her to drop needle and thread alike when a visitor was suddenly announced.
"But who is here?" she asked, standing and reaching for her discarded cap in confusion, as they hardly ever received visitors at the start of the week.
Before the housekeeper could answer, a tallish figure stepped forward, his polished boots and stylish coat announcing him before he opened his mouth. "Why, Mrs. Tilney, 'tis your brother come calling." And Captain Tilney cut a jaunty bow in her direction, just as if they had been back in the Lower Rooms at Bath.
Posted on 2021-09-13
Chapter 2
"Oh!" Catherine was startled, perplexed, and not a little anxious by the sudden appearance of this prodigal in her home.
Choosing to ignore her discomfiture, the gentleman took her hand. "I have been remiss in not paying my addresses sooner. You must excuse my not having attended you properly." Here he bent as if to bestow his favour on her clasped fingers.
This action awakened every instinct Catherine possessed, so that she drew away before quite realizing what she was about, and only just managed to tug her skirts in a curtsey so as not to appear rude. "Thank you," she said, unsure what else might suffice, and then turned to her housekeeper. "Please send word to Mr. Tilney that his brother is here."
The poor woman was saved discovering how she was to do so by the captain's reply. "If Henry is out, as I see by his empty stable he must be, there is no need to interrupt his business. After all, we are family, are we not?"
"Yes, of course," Catherine answered by rote, and despite her earlier success with vermin, felt singularly unprepared for how to handle the current dilemma.
The housekeeper wisely offered to serve tea, which Catherine assented to at once with gratitude. Only when they were left alone did she consider how ill both her situation and person must appear to a guest of real consequence: she had not changed from her everyday dress since the morning's toil, and though beloved the parlour had only just begun to be fitted to her designs. There was not yet fresh wallpaper as had been discussed, nor matching curtains or new bookshelves. It was at least furnished with two comfortable chairs, a small table, and two full windows that let in the afternoon sun admirably.
Before she could resume her seat by one of these casements, Captain Tilney alighted on it with his feet up on the stool meant for Catherine'sâand ordered especially by her husband for that purpose. Protest formed on her lips but caution stilled them as she took the other chair. She tried and failed to think of a topic for conversation, when he began one directly addressing the very circumstances she had feared worthy of inspection.
"Cosy house for a parsonage," was his languid remark. "I grant Henry has a certain amount of taste."
"Thank you," she said again, and grieved her stupidity. âIt is certainly very comfortable. We have only begun, since spring, to make any amendments."
"Yes, spring in you did, very neatly." His words had an echo of his brother's with their wit, but were also cold and unfeeling, without any of the other's warmth or pleasantness. Instead there was steel in his tone and flint in his eyes, so that she was not sure whether to laugh or no.
"It is kind of you to pay a call. I am sorry Mr. Tilney could not receive you. He is visiting his parishioners.â It occurred to Catherine that repeatedly mentioning Henry's absence might be a way to encourage the captain's. He must of course mean to see his brother; she could not imagine what business he might have with
her
.
"How dutiful. A good thing that you are here, else I should have had no one to receive me."
The captain smiled, and while a hard expression it was also a handsome one, nature having endowed his appearance with all the advantages a young man of good birth and breeding should possess. Even so, Catherine was unmoved. She observed his features and his figure, but could not help comparing him at every turn to Henry, who though less imposing or comely was far better spoken and brighter looking withal. These thoughts prompted her to look out the glass behind her guest, though she knew it only offered a view of the orchard and meadow, and that no curricle would be seen even if it were to return far sooner than expected.
The tea things came in, giving her something to do, and she was able to hand over the captain's cup with some composure. "You must be staying at Northanger Abbey," she said, taking up her own saucer and spoon.
"For the time being. In truth I may not be there above the rest of the week."
"I trust you had a pleasant ride."
"Tolerable. It is a very dull country on the whole."
"But there are many splendid paths," Catherine defended her home, on firmer footing when it came to terrain she had wandered so often in recent months. "And I am sure you will find it so, as you continue your travels."
Not taking her hint, the captain settled more firmly in his chair. "As to that, I may not venture any farther. Tell me, does Henry leave you alone often?"
This question stopped Catherine's next thought, so that she nearly spilled the milk she had been about to pour. She uttered a quick denial and then, as she was a truthful person, admitted, "That is, not often, but sometimes. He must see to the parish." Rallying her wits, she added, "He will likely be out most of the day. I will be glad to tell him you have called and convey any message you care to give."
"I do not believe there is anything
you
need tell him. But to be left alone must be tiresome, given the lack of any decent entertainment or company."
"No indeed, there is so much to do every day, far more than at my parents' home, and it was not always quiet there either. And I am not alone, of course."
"Not now. How fortunate that I came by, when anyone might have stumbled upon your door otherwise. It is not wise to forsake a fair lady."
The compliment quite passed Catherine's notice, though a vainer woman might have revelled that a man who once thought her plain should now condescend to praise her. Instead, every moment he continued in the room increased her agitation, and she wished she could think of an excuse to send him away. But she had enough good breeding to shrink from such incivility to a member of the family, and recollecting how she herself had been so unceremoniously dismissed once, forbore to indulge her feelings. She persevered in her duties as hostess by asking:
"Will you be on leave long?"
It was an innocuous question, one she was proud to have worked out as it was not a common inquiry for her to make and which would hopefully show interest in her brother's affairs. But rather than animate any expressions of gratitude or pleasure, his features tightened into a cruel sneer. "Perhaps," he said slowly, with a bitterness that made her involuntarily shrink back. "But I do not wish to discuss it."
Nothing in the world would make Catherine broach the subject again, and without anything else to discuss she made some comment about the weather.
The captain suddenly stood and looked out the window. "It does begin to look fierce," he observed, and for the first time Catherine realized how much darker it had grown since they began speaking.
"You will want to return then," she said, rising herself. "I will call for your horse." It was the sort of thing she supposed ought to be said, though without the boy it would be up to her or the housekeeper to go to the stable with little knowledge between them of what should be done.
"Not at all, Mrs. Tilney, we have hardly begun our visit." He turned, all beneficence, without a hint of his earlier displeasure; and coming across the room, handed his cup over. "Something else to drink now, and more to eat: I rode a great deal today."
"That would be difficult, for my cook is away, and there is nothing ready made." Had Catherine been a very clever woman she might have used these facts to her advantage. But the admission shamed her, and not wishing any to think ill of Henry's household, she cast about to remedy the situation while straightening the tea things. "But there are fresh apples, and I believe we still have some Madeira given by the viscount."
"Excellent." He took her hands, preventing her from taking the tray up. "Call your woman and let us get to know each other better. I have heard such intriguing stories about you."
Catherine wished her housekeeper was gone too that she might refuse him, or that Henry was returned to say something droll and dispel the mood descending like the blackening clouds. She felt quite apprehensive of Captain Tilneyâs intentions, though if asked she could not charge him with any wrong conduct as yet; and as she could discover no just cause to resist, Catherine did as she was bade, heartily wishing the fruit had all been bad and the bottle already drunk instead of served so promptly.
She barely noticed when the captain set a glass in her hand and led her back to her seat. Rather than take his own, though, he brought the stool forward and perched in such a way that his boots splayed uncomfortably near.
"Please, will you not take the chair sir?" she asked, starting to rise, but found she could not escape with his legs so close, causing her to slip back down with a gasp.
The man expressed no concern at her discomposure; rather, he appeared calmer and more assured than ever, sipping his wine with appreciation. "I am quite at my ease here. We soldiers are not made for always lounging about like other men. It is all well and good for them; a parson, I suppose, has need of such support. But I have ridden thirty miles without rest to battle, and fought the whole day besides: give me a mount, and a pleasant view, and I am content." It did not seem possible for him to draw closer, and yet she sensed with alarm a pressure against one shoe.
"But surelyââ Words failed her as she sought for something to say, and she gestured instead, hoping to make herself understood by plain emotion if nothing else.
"Surely." Captain Tilney poured himself another draught yet somehow never strayed far from her. "This is an excellent vintage. And these apples." He picked one up to hold out to her. "Do they not look absolutely tempting?"
In truth it was one of the few full red ones, and Catherine was growing hungry. "Yes, thank you," she started to say and made to take it, when he lifted the fruit right to her lips, so that she nearly choked.
"Have a drink, it will settle you," he commanded, and she obliged if only to stop her coughing. "I am sorry you found this one so little to your liking. I wonder, is it rotten?" He examined the bruised skin, then bit into it, all the while staring up into her wondering face. "It tastes sweet. Would you not agree?"
He made to offer it up again, but better prepared she pulled back her head. "You may have it, I have had my fill."
"Have you?" The captain's smile was anything but kind: more a leer, the stench of drink on his hot breath increasing as he drew even closer. "Yes, you do not look well; I would hate for you to grow faint."
Though courted and wedded, Catherine was nevertheless so inexperienced in the ways of menâand even more desperate to avoid further attentionsâthat she immediately agreed to feeling very poorly. "I do not believe I should be good company any more," she said through pressed teeth.
"Then you must lie down." The captain took her own glass and downed it in one go. Catherine marvelled at his stamina: few of her acquaintance went past two at a revelry, and surely that was the fifth he had consumed. Abruptly he rose and brought her to stand as well, the sudden movement making her so unsteady she fell into his arms. When next he spoke it sounded as if his lips were upon her ear, "What a lucky man holds your heart."
Before she could react, she felt rather than saw him raise his head. "Would you not agree Henry?"
With a start Catherine parted from their embrace in time to see her bewildered husband walk into the room.
Posted on 2021-09-13
Chapter 3
Henry Tilney had enjoyed a far easier morning than his wife. He always loved driving and riding, and found joy in his parish calls. Most of his flock were of a very genial nature, and so the first visits of the day involved an agreeable exchange of pleasantries, condolences, and news. It was the ultimate goal of the miller, and the miller's disdainful neighbour, which he dreaded. As if in answer to his mood, the clouds looked more ominous the closer he approached his destination.
One aged soul warned the young parson he might wish to turn back, for recent showers had made the river rise, "and it shan't be long ere it floods."
This intermittent state of inundation had plagued the countryside since just before Henry returned from Oxford. It was tied up in a quarrel between his father's estate and another's land grant; he had endured countless lectures involving the vagaries of boundary lines, the calumny of surveyors, and the sanctity of property rights regarding a tributary which had been rerouted by such nefarious machinations as canals and sluice gates. Whatever purpose the latter innovations might have served had long been stymied by lawyers in and out of court, leaving some trenches fallow as the grave while others overflowed with reckless abandon. It fell to the less vaunted inhabitants of the country, as is often the case, to adjust their means of living when greater powers will not.
"I shall go a little farther," he declared, "but you may be right, it does look ill."
Receiving further encouragement for caution at his next stop, Henry felt fully justified in sending a message to the mill that he would call later in the week and directing his curricle for home, a decision proved all the more correct as the wind picked up. To comfort himself, he thought of his wife, and what a surprise he would give her by returning ahead of his intended schedule.
Upon approaching his own green gates, he saw she was not in the garden, and it was no difficult matter for him to determine on a more dramatic entrance. "For she shall like as not be in her little room, and if I come in at the rear I may take her unawares." Always fond of a joke, and fonder still of exciting her delight by his presence, he quickly unhitched and tethered the team in the yard; then crept up from the stable to the back of the house, past the kitchen, and into the hall toward the drawing room. With hat in hand he threw the door open, prepared to receive all the reward a young husband must expect upon such an entrance.
You may imagine how different were the emotions he experienced at discovering her in the arms of his profligate brother.
It is fortunate that though sometimes uncharitable, and quite willing to believe the worst of his fellow man, Henry was not a jealous lover: he had complete faith in his wife's goodness, affection, and honour. Moreover, were he in need of further assurance of Catherine's fidelity, her reaction should have answered, for the startled cry she uttered was not alarmed but relieved. Indeed, she flew to him at once, taking his arm, and nearly burrowing into his side.
Clearly, Catherine was glad of his presence, and just as clearly, whatever had occurred had served to frighten rather than arouse her sensibilities. This understanding did little to lessen his indignation, and only for her sake did he strive to govern his tone. "I did not realize you had a visitor. Frederick, how long have you been here?"
"The time has passed so pleasantly I cannot recall the hour. Do you, my dear?"
Feeling her shrink back at these words, Henry determined to remove Catherine as far from the source of her distress as possible. "Would you ensure the horses are looked to? I did not spare time to instruct Will before coming in."
"Oh! he is not here, neither he nor cook," she began, then stopped herself, "but I will see to it, Mrs. Forest will help me." So saying she left the room at once, before Henry could inquire further or offer to perform the office himself.
"Quite a nervous little thing," Frederick observed, turning Henry's mind back to the matter at hand. His brother raised a glass to his lips. "Very friendly though."
Ignoring this comment, Henry put his hat down and began to strip off his gloves. A setting of fruit drew his eye, as did the bottle of wine bestowed as a wedding present, one which he had been saving for an altogether different occasion. "I wonder to see you here at all: I had thought you were still in town."
"It pleased my father that we both attend the club's meeting, whenever it shall finally occur. I have been at Northanger this past fortnight. Dreadfully dull, even worse than usual."
Idleness and deprivation were never good for the Tilney men, a flaw Henry admitted to even in himself. Disappointment tempted him to become cross; his brother and father were often inconsolable when denied their pleasures, to the detriment of their retainers and relations. With the recent foul weather few might be willing to risk travel for a political gathering falling outside a general election. Henry could readily guess there had been no dinners and little sport, requiring they entertain themselves, which was an office neither man was suited to by temperament or inclination. "They have likely driven each other to distraction," he surmised, and doubted whether the captain had come to Woodston entirely sober.
"I am sorry for it," Henry answered truthfully, "though I could wish you did not bring your troubles here. We have enough of our own."
"Do you? From all description I had heard it was a little paradise. Have you a 'heaven in hell,' as the author writes?"
"And have you been reading Milton? I am glad to hear our father's library is being put to good use." Henry took up an apple, feeling the need for sustenance during this interview, but was surprised to see it already bitten into.
Frederick poured yet another glassfulâHenry gloomily calculated nothing should be left of it soonâand smiled. "Mrs. Tilney appeared not to like the taste of that one; for myself, I could find nothing wrong with it. Perhaps you may judge between us?"
It is to Henry's credit he did not obey his first impulse to chuck the apple at his brother, but refusing to be baited walked to toss it out a window instead. He noted the worsening conditions with some concern, then turned to meet the otherâs gaze. "I must always side with my wife in such affairs. She has excellent judgment, and a very good understanding. I have never known her to err when it came to a test regarding the knowledge of good and evil."
The barb was perhaps too rhetorical for Frederick's current state; it failed to land at all, and he shrugged rather than rail. "Spare me your sermons. I thought to know your lady better, as we have never been properly introduced."
It nearly rose to Henry's lips to question how his brother thought he
should
become acquainted with a person ignored for the better part of a year, but he mastered himself. The trick to managing Frederick had always been to avoid getting drawn into an argument and instead discover what was actually provoking him, which Henry suspected was the usual need. "I would have assumed you would sojourn somewhere offering more variety than our humble abode. Or were you unable to?"
Here he aimed better, for Frederick tossed his head and loftily proclaimed he had enough funds to see him through Judgment Day. This bravado likely covered his frustration at
not
being able to avoid dependence, curtailing any number of activities usually indulged. It no doubt explained why Woodston had suddenly become desirable: as Henryâs money was almost entirely outside their fatherâs control, any dealings between the brothers might avoid the same's scrutiny. Indeed, since taking the living, he had once or twice been persuaded to grant a small loan, although more out of a desire to preserve their sisterâs peace than his brotherâs. The sum had always been paid in a commensurate, if not timely, manner.
It was years since either had availed themselves of such an arrangement. Then again, it might have been as long since his brother had been forced to submit wholly to the general's discipline; and it was obvious the man was courting mischief. Since Henry felt bound by his marriage to refuse advancing any funds except for the most dire of needs, the subject would need to be approached delicately. To show evidence of irritation would only encourage an obstinacy entirely opposed to any amiable result.
With these thoughts in mind Henry took the chair usually occupied by his wife, folding one leg over the other. "Well, and how have you enjoyed your jaunt today? For myself I saw several fine specimen of bird. If you have time I will share the particulars, including the state of Mrs. Sowell's poultry."
It was exactly the sort of tone Henry had used to employ when redirecting attention away from their sister, although in times past his weapons might have included descriptions of muslin and lace or literary recommendations.
"Really?" Frederick's lip curled in a sneer.
"Yes. The eggs you see are speckled, though the hens are not, and there is some debate over whether someone has been switching them at night. You know the sort of nonsense boys get up to here in the country. Of course, as I advised the family, it is better to suspect the hens themselves may merely be taking turns, as it were, and wish to save themselves the trouble of laying all the time. We may need to start a rotation, and allow our fowl the same rest come Sabbath as their friends."
He might have been successful at driving Frederick to the point with sheer nonsense were other diversions close at hand, and had he kept strictly to his purpose. But Henry was enough of a Tilney that, while displaying remarkable temperance during this interview, he was fairly smarting for a chance to indulge his wit, pent up as it had been all day. Getting carried away in his story, he nearly forgot himself when describing the mysterious absence of the rooster, "who might be the chief perpetrator after all."
"Roosters usually are," his brother interrupted, recollecting Henry to his audience. "No cocks here, I suppose? Pity the poor chick left to her own devices: any stray bantam might turn her head."
Now it was Henry's turn to pale, an impulse he did not check in time as betrayed by his brother's satisfactory smirk. He was growing perilously close to losing his temper, and coolly inquired how much longer Frederick intended to stay. "I would start out now to make Northanger before evening."
"And abandon this lovely
tête-à -tête
? I would not dream of ending my first visit to your marriage bower so soon."
"But are you quite at your leisure? I am sure our father still keeps his meals on schedule. Why," here he took out his watch, exclaiming, "it is a quarter past three. I should not wish you to be late."
Frederick failed to acknowledge any concern, sending his volley back while taking up another apple. "He is touring the roads with his surveyor to determine repairs; I was warned they may be in conference over the affair well past the usual hour. There is no need for you to worry on that account."
Here was an unexpected impediment: if he could not use parental authority as his ally, Henry despaired of any civil lever to pry his brother loose. "Unfortunately both Mrs. Tilney and myself are also quite occupied, and so are not able to receive you at this time. Kindly say when you are next available, and we may plan for a more favourable opportunity."
It was as strong and plain a dismissal as he could marshal while remaining seated, and he was proud of how calmly he had managed to utter it.
Later, he would realize it was certainly his fault for not warning Catherine to maintain her escape after making it. Had he moved nearer the door instead of sitting by the window, he might have prevented her from entering the room even when she did return. But it was an insight best made with the benefit of reflection, which his present frame of mind did not allow. Thus he was too taken aback when a knock came to answer with appropriate speed, allowing Frederick to cross the room before Henry had gained his feet.
She at least did not tremble when escorted in, nor did her voice fail as she inquired "whether Captain Tilney would join them for dinner?"
Henry could not help resenting the offer; his better nature realized she only meant to please, but once again his wife's inexperience and obliging disposition played right into another's hands. Frederick bowed artfully, and only Henry's long experience detected the slight unsteadiness of his heels. "Splendid timing Mrs. Tilney, your husband had just expressed some doubt on the subject. How foolish of him to doubt your genius. I would be honoured to share anything you deign to serve."
Catherine was still looking at Henry for an answer. He nearly said exactly what he thought of her genius but one look at his brother's simpering air quelled the feeling, and instead he reluctantly forwarded the invitation. To storm or rant was to give Frederick what he wanted. However difficult, he must take Petruchio as his guide to kill with kindness. A good thing that Henry was fonder of comedies than tragedies, as Mercutio might have led them both to a very different resolution
Posted on 2021-09-19
Chapter 4
Henry had altogether forgotten the absence of the cook until reminded by Catherine, and failed to ascertain an explanation before she excused herself to assist their housekeeper. It was certainly good she had some employment, but he could not help resenting the cause: to be forced to continue conversation with his brother without more than a dozen words shared with his wife was
not
how Henry had anticipated the close of his day. "I trust our father continues in good health," he exerted himself to offer this civility, more out of duty than any real concern.
"As ever:
perfectly
good health. All except his memory, perhaps, but that has been faulty for years. The more forgotten of him as by him, the better." Frederick spoke with as little interest, if more asperity than the question should have inspired. Before the subject could be pursued further, he took up a book and examined it, asking with barely veiled contempt whether his brother was still as devoted to novels as before his marriage.
"Yes, we both enjoy reading. As you can see, there is little else to do. It is fairly routine for us to close every day with lengthy study." Here perhaps Henry was guilty of some deception, for a man reading a ladyâs favourite story as she rapturously listened, especially in the confines of the bedchamber, might not be described as study in the usual manner. But it was misdirection rather than an outright lie, and he enjoyed a clear conscience while adding, "It is mostly that sort of thing, as Mrs. Tilney is very fond of them. Do you wish a copy for yourself?"
"Not a jot. How insufferable you must find it all."
"Oh, we are very content with our private, plebeian little home."
Again, we must forgive Henry for not being altogether truthful with his guest, as there were many concerns in the parish that could make the parsonage anything but retiring. But again, it was at best a slight exaggeration, and indeed there are few who would protest taking humility too far.
As bottle and bowl alike were depleted, and the chill grew more pronounced, Henry recommended they repair to the more easily heated study. There he was further aggrieved to find his preferred chair missing. Instead he made do with a seat too low and short to accommodate his height, while Frederick lounged by the fire in perfect ease. This change in setting redirected the latter's speech, as he inquired whether Mrs. Tilney was altogether satisfied with her surroundings. "It is not every lady who will submit to a retired life away from society, with no assemblies or frippery. You can never satisfy a woman with books alone."
Admittedly still adjusting to marriage, Henry could have lectured his brother on the merits of reading as a means to enliven rather than dull a couple's appreciation for each other. Certainly his Catherine, fond as she was of heroics and mock dangers, thought nothing of whiling away the time with near any work so long as it contained some Gothic or comic sensibility. A husband who shared those pleasures might gain the privilege of many others besides. Instead he allowed himself the magnanimity of greater experience, revelled that he was privy to knowledge quite lost on his brother, and replied with feigned degradation, "But you are thinking of ladies from town. My wife is of country stock, and fitted by nature as well as inclination to these environs."
"A singular thing to find in Bath, of all places. Does she never desire to go back?"
"It has not been mentioned."
"You cannot both wish to waste your life here all the time."
"It is no hardship. Duty after all is its own reward, and the calling of our lives must justify any pains. Why, there is a pretty set of sermons with that theme. Do pick it up, and we may find some quotations on the subject."
It may be unsurprising his brother could not distinguish which book Henry gestured to, for while there were several such volumes most were little used and crammed along the bottom shelf long ago. This fact bore witness against his ever poaching another's words from the pulpit, and if perhaps his motives were not so noble, must at least offer a just reproof to any accusation of neglect. Frederick did not bother to search at all. "Is there nothing else to drink?"
"I am afraid not: unless you would like some of the passed over communion?"
"Bah!"
There was little to be said in answer to this exclamation, and so Henry did not attempt it. Instead he took up a newspaper, silently offering the other man part of it, and was rewarded for his generosity to pour over the dullest of headlines and even more tiresome parliamentary decisions. These subjects were enough to produce a lengthy quietude, until Frederick tossed his scant pages aside with an oath and took to pacing. "Fools! A wonder the war is not lost altogether and the Frogs encamped at Piccadilly."
Outbursts regarding the competence of military governance were too common at Northanger Abbey to discomfit Henry. Had his own reading material been more interesting he might have ignored this one altogether, and only looked up to gauge whether a quip or consolation would be more readily accepted. He was surprised to observe a great perturbation of spirits: Frederick was a capable soldier and Henry supposed as dutiful an officer as any, but usually displayed none of the general's fierce preoccupation with the honour of the service when on leave. Concerned in spite of himself, he asked after the latest news from the Continent.
"It is not worth discussing: all stuff and nonsense, every pretend expert nattering about tactics they are completely ignorant of. Small wonder when our own generals are as stupid."
These words caused Henry to stiffen instinctively, despite the closest individual retired from those ranks not being present to hear them. Complaints about the interference of Parliament and princes might be made freely in their ancestral home, and the navy was always fair game, but insults to serving officers was a taboo broken at one's peril. Before he could think of a way to turn the conversation, his brother broke off whatever tirade had been brewing and instead demanded with boyish petulance, "What can be taking them so long?"
"Our cook is not in," Henry answered in some distraction, and though he had wondered the same, was too caught up with his present musings to spare much thought on the subject. His chief concern now was to either temper Frederick's expectation of a table that must be far below his usual fare, or failing that to send him away ere he could vent his spleen on anyone else. "She has been hard at work in the garden; and with few luxuries in the village we may have naught but vegetables."
Here Henry erred into a complete untruth. Mrs. Poole would have been ashamed to hear the rector slander her work, as she was proud to keep the parsonage well provisioned, and there was always some game to be had. The proof of his falsehood was eventually shown when they were at last called in to eat, for there was good meaty stew, thick toast, and an apple custard with sauce ever so nicely arranged. It was quite a triumph for a young wifeânow appearing in one of her finer gownsâwho had little time or help to prepare, a feat which demanded Henry compliment her ingenuity even as he watched Frederick in wary anticipation.
Instead the man was all smiles at the sight, especially when he discovered glasses of sherry which Henry had quite forgotten. "What fine work, my dear sister, I congratulate you. To hear my brother talk there was nothing to serve, though his ignorance is not surprising. I am afraid he has always been too caught up in his own absurdities. How little marriage appears to have changed you Henry." Rather than take his own seat, Frederick gallantly lead Catherine to a setting. "But how well it becomes you, madam."
She said nothing, only looked forlornly down into her napkin, while Henry took his own chair and pointedly brought up his hands to pray. This occupation normally occupied very little time ahead of a meal with the Tilneys, parsonage or no. Nonetheless it was a ponderous affair that evening, one to make certain Oxford divinity masters proud, and was cut short not for Henry running out of words but his comprehension that Frederick had already begun eating. He surrendered an "Amen," and lifted his eyes to behold his wife staring at him in bewilderment and his brother already pouring another glass for himself. Henry girded his loins, took up his spoon, and endeavoured to enjoy the food she had worked so hard to serve.
Dinner was a noxious affair and mostly eaten by Frederick, who attacked the table with the ferocity of two soldiers. Henry abandoned what little he could salvage from the onslaught to Catherine who, though looking most wretchedly, appeared to have as little appetite as himself. There was none of that conversation as usually filled their dining room. The few words exchanged were devoid of either wit or grace; rather, Henry strove to shield Catherine from comment, a task made the more difficult as Frederick continued to direct nearly all his remarks in her direction. It was a constant stream of empty platitudes and sly conjectures perfectly designed for entertaining in town, but which ill suited the small parlour.
"And Henry never has cared for mutton, you know, though our father tried to ease him into it. No sheep for him, what?" Frederick actually whistled, a practice absolutely forbidden at said father's table. "Funny his attracting one himself. Or are you not a lamb at all?"
Catherine suddenly looked up with the first sign of animation displayed since the meal began. "Oh, the sheep! Henry, I forgot to tell you, Will and Mrs. Poole had to assist getting the sheep back in." Remembering their companion she blushed before continuing, "I am sure they meant to return by now, but I
had
given them leave to remain as long as they were needed. It may perhaps be very late before they finish searching and so I think it likely they will stay the night with family."
Such news was more than welcome, and Henry latched onto the subject with the alacrity of a drowning man. "So the pen has come down yet again? I am sorry to hear it. And will be sorry to hear of it again at the next parish meeting."
"Do you mean from Mr. Greenly?"
"Who else? I am sure he already has numerous improvements planned to dazzle myself and the clerk. Between his recommendations and Mr. Wilcox's complaints I expect to be wooed with zealous constancy well ahead of the date."
"I congratulate Mrs. Tilney for tolerating such rivals for her affections," Frederick interrupted, throwing a discordant note between them. "I hope she enjoys the same sport? Geese and ganders and all."
"I am sure I do not take your meaning," Catherine replied, a hint of her own indignation rising above her disquietude. "But perhaps we should not discuss business of which you are wholly ignorant."
Anyone else would have meant the words as a bold reproach; Henry still admired the set-down, artless and unintended as it was. "Yes, we should avoid delving too far into our own simple affairs," he said, laying as lofty tone upon the words as possible. "They are not deep enough for our guest to penetrate." He was gratified to observe a small part of his wife's natural amusement return; she looked almost ready to smile.
This expression changed to alarm as she murmured an exclamation, shifting her chair back so quickly Henry nearly leapt from his own to steady it. "What is the matter?"
She stared at Frederick rather than make a reply, who offered her the most exaggerated of bows. "Forgive my clumsiness. I am not used to so small a table." He raised his near empty glass in salute. "I hope I have not trod your slippers too hard."
Turning back to Catherine, Henry was just in time to see her wipe a few tears away before answering that her shoes were unharmed. He rightly surmised she would only give positive intelligence to any further inquiries and keep her pains private, out of misplaced appreciation for familial company. The sight of his wife beset, his brother gloating, and his dinner gone put Henry out of what little patience he had left, causing him to stand abruptly. "Captain Tilney, I would speak to you in the study." His tone brooked no argument.
Fredrick ignored him at first; but as Henry refused to give way and there was nothing left to consume without picking from the others' plates, he at last rose as well. "Of course, Mister Tilney," he returned formally, and bowed to their hostess as she likewise stood. "My thanks, fair Catherine, for sharing your abundant bounty with me."
"The study, sir," Henry repeated, and refused to move until Fredrick left the table. He did not trust himself even to spare a glance at Catherine before marching after, anger licking at his heels.
"Come to read me my prayers?" Frederick asked from an indolent sprawl.
"Come to explain matters." Henry stood before him, hands gripped behind his back, erect as a young seminarian before his superiors. "You may go where you wish and harass any other of your acquaintance, but you will not lay hands
or
boots on Mrs. Tilney again."
Frederick sported a foolish grin at this ultimatum. "Oh? Upset are we?"
"You might remember what happened when another of our family treated my wife without respect. Have a care, and remember that you are not only of less concern to me than our father, but are in my own house besides."
"Your house? I had thought it was the parishâs. Certainly with all those supplicants I had supposed there was little space for intimacy, your parishioners might not appreciate the distraction."
"Why not say what you are really about and have done with it?" Henry demanded, tired of losing a battle of wits to a man well beyond three sheets to the wind. "And do not claim it is to play the dandy in the parlour, for we both know your only interest in Mrs. Tilney is the degree to which you think it will vex me."
"Perhaps you are mistaken."
"If I am, I shall pay you the wager here and now, gladly, if you will only explain what drove you to seek relief here. Just how much have you lost, or what creditor are you hiding from?"
"None. I am free as a bird, free as your hens. No one has any claim on
me
." Frederick suddenly sprang up with ferocity, staring down at Henry with all the height of a cavalry charge. "I hide from no man."
"If you expect me to believe that, you are a greater fool than I take you for now." Henry was beyond quieting, beyond quelling, and well beyond caution. "But I shall not beg for the chance to pay your way. Keep your secrets. Only leave this house and take them with you."
"I will not be ordered by you!" Frederick's manner was no longer that of the foolish wag, and his drink appeared to have finally caught up with him as he stumbled forward. "You've no concept of command, noneâby god, no one in the whole country does. The best are gone, rammed and shot through the lines, honour bought and paid in blood."
It was as if Falstaff had suddenly launched into the Saint Crispin's Day speech instead of Prince Hal, a transition so unexpected that Henry's ire cooled somewhat in confusion. "And this is your complaint: that you are spared slaughter, and do not get the glory of adding to it?"
Even in liquor Frederick was able to strike an imposing figure, his boots striking forcefully against the floor as he spoke with violent agitation. "The devil take you!
and
the Duke of York, and his whole staff besides, they should all be hanged for that strategy, if it can be called such, I am sure they did not even ask whether it was sound." He came to rest by the mantelpiece, eyes lit as much by passion as the fire, and spoke with quiet fury: "
He
would not have tolerated it, were it his own command."
There was no need to question who had incited this degree of vehemence. Though the particulars were still a mystery, Henry guessed that father and son must have quarrelled over whatever had prevented the younger from joining in this latest action. It was a better excuse for his behaviour than mere avarice, if lacking in full justification. "Your concern does you credit, though I think writing to your men a better course of action than recreating the skirmish here."
Frederick appeared incensed by the suggestion rather than appeased; his answer was to turn smartly on his heels, knocking over a chair and sending newsprint flapping around the room and onto his own person. It was so comical a sight that Henryâmore given to mirth than wrathâfelt his senses returning, and not altogether keeping laughter out of his tone, offered his assistance.
Frederick pushed away and kicked the mess dangerously close to the fireplace, shouting a throaty oath. "Dân your sympathy. I'm off." He flung the door open, revealing a startled Catherine, then pushed past her, the gallant flirt vanished. Henry was alarmed to observe his unsteady gait, the more so as Catherine told him a gale had begun in earnest. "Frederick, perhaps you had best waitâ" he began, only to be cut off by the front door slamming.
"Is it safe?" Catherine inquired wonderingly.
"I fancy not," Henry answered, seizing his coat and running after his brother. He found him at the stable as the man struggled to get his own horse out. "Frederick, please, do not be a fool: tarry a while longer and see whether it shall worsen."
"I have ridden in worse," came the curt reply.
"But there is no need to risk it," Henry cajoled, as earnest in preventing his brother's departure as he had earlier encouraged it. Frederick at last mounted, stupidly blinking a moment, which allowed Henry to catch the harness. "Come back inside: we might discuss the war further, you could tell me of this engagement or whatever else you like."
He had meant this offer as bait for the hook, but the trout shook him off and laughed wildly at the lashing gusts. "Pah! Nothing of any concern. We'd eat this for breakfast in Portugal."
"But we are in England!" Henry reached again but was too late. Frederick had already bounded away, his very English horse obediently racing into the wind.
Posted on 2021-09-20
Chapter 5
Catherine had nearly protested when Henry ordered his brother out of the room. The quarrel about to erupt would be over her, and however powerless she had been to prevent the first such disruption in the Tilney family, it was surely her responsibility as a wife to prevent a second. But her husband never gave her opportunity even to throw a beseeching look, and his firm closure of the door forbade any thought of following. Whatever would happen was in the hands of Providence.
Fortunately Mrs. Forest chose to peek in at this time, asking if they were quite done with dinner. Catherine wished she might occupy herself as well in the kitchen, but since the housekeeper did her work so efficiently there was little to offer but the most heartfelt gratitude.
"You're very kind, ma'am," was the reply made, before gently recommending her mistress enjoy the rest of her evening elsewhere in the house.
It now fell to Catherine the dreadful burden of waiting for others to finish a business she could not observe or join. Men who have waited for their wife's labours to cease may sympathize with her plight. She briefly returned to the drawing room but could not bear to remain long. It would take another day with Henry at her side to banish the memories made there; and besides, her usual distractions held little appeal. What were books or needlework compared to the drama unfolding? She might have retired to bed, as many another would have done at this juncture, but she felt an obligation to wait for Henry. So she restlessly drifted about, beseeching heaven no harm came, but distractedly not ever finishing her prayers.
It was after yet another tour of the rooms that Catherine realized the sound she heard was the rough battering of the shutters, and she observed how dark the sky had grown with trepidation. No matter how angry her husband might be, he would need to invite his brother to spend the night, and then there would be no peace at all until well past the next morning.
She turned at once toward the study. Whatever awful news was to be shared, she would rather hear it now than continue to wait in dread. Just as she reached the door she heard a loud noise, as if the thunder yet to sound outside had instead begun within those walls, inspiring fear for Henry's safety. It was even more alarming to face Captain Tilney again, angry and wild, flinging open the door and racing out of the house with Henry just behind. Catherine nearly ran after them both, but recollecting herself, decided the best thing would be to tidy whatever mess had been made rather than contribute to still more outside.
She had just finished refolding the papers after setting the furniture aright, when Henry came back into the room. She froze, listening for the heavy bootfalls of the captain, but none came.
"He is gone. And God knows in what a state: I am not sure he even realizes where he is at present."
Catherine wished she could feel sorry for him; it was a sore trial for her to experience relief at another's misfortunes. "Why was he so aggrieved?" she asked as Henry sat near her, curiosity all alive now that the immediate danger was over.
Her husband shook his head. "Disappointment in his present circumstances, and an argument with my father, which I at first misunderstood. It is something to do with his regiment, or the war, subjects which may turn the wisest heads. Certainly it cannot be easy for him to adjust to living back at home for so long. But since I could not get him to admit to anything more, there is no need to trouble over it further. I am long past worrying about the peace of the entire Tilney regime."
"I am sorry to have been the cause of any offence," Catherine began, conscience requiring she attempt some amends, but Henry forestalled her:
"Whatever comes of his foolishness will fall entirely on his head, it has nothing to do with you. And you have my heartfelt thanks for seeing to the horses: there was little for me to amend in checking the stable just now." He paused, considering, then reached out a hand. "I would, however, like to know what transpired in my absence, if you feel up to discussing it."
Whatever store of strength Catherine had gathered was dissolved at this invitation, and she gratefully took it while launching into a recitation of her afternoon's trials with all the fervour of a penitent. Henry soothed as he could, listening with great attention, but could not help rising with an astonished exclamation as Catherine described how their brother had placed himself so indecorously at her feet. She rose as well, earnest in her declaration:
"I asked him to sit in the chair, truly I did Henry. I had no notion of his occupying so near a space as that, I could not get him to listen for the world."
"My dearest Catherine, I well believe nothing that happened is of
your
doing: your only mistake was not throwing him from the house at his first transgression. Do you mean to say he actually pushed you down?"
"Oh yes! that is, perhaps not pushed, I cannot quite say. I did fall, and it did seem as though it was due to his being ever so close, and then that awful apple pressed so that I could not bear it. I felt I should choke! And his having bit into it himself, and saying such things. I wished so heartily you had been present."
This latter statement elicited a laugh. "I fancy there are not many ladies in such a position who would say so: it is not often a mere Henry is desired above the worthy captain."
Catherine started at these words. "But whatever can you mean?"
Henry at once bowed his head. "I am sorry: I have upset you farther, and that is not my desire. There, there, Catherine, all is well, I am not offended. I could never doubt your heart or goodness, and so there is no need to prevaricate. You were placed in a terrible position; I am not so vain as to lack sympathy. My brother is far handsomer than I, there is no denying it, and however badly his manners offended, I well know how charming he can appear when he desires to."
There was just that little something in his voice that made Catherine feel he was not altogether serious. Still, she could not let so false a statement be uttered even in jest. "I cannot imagine anyone finding so odious a man charming: there was nothing but selfish disdain in his manner from the very start. I only entertained him for politeness' sake. And I have never once thought he cut a good figure, not since I have first known him, and certainly I could not see him sitting across from me without wishing it had been you instead."
Her words prompted a smile from her husband, and his tone was far lighter than it had been. "Oh? What was it that marred the picture: his statuesque profile, or fashionable vestment?"
Perhaps he meant only to tease her further, but Catherine had been married long enough to hear when wistfulness mixed with Henry's bravado, and so she walked straight into his arms, looking into his eyes with all her sincerity. "He is far too polished and removed, with features neither attractive nor kind. I had rather see your pleasing self a thousand times over than ever be in a room with him again."
Is there any young husband who could resist this sweet devotion? Could any wife restrain from matching action to word in proving it? Certainly the Tilneys were not immune to these impulses, and it was necessary for both to restrain from breathing a moment, to share those feelings as words are insufficient to express.
"My dearest Catherine," Henry said afterward, arms wrapped round her confidently. "Is it merely an inborn trait for you to be so accommodating, or is there a tonic that might be applied more liberally to cure the world of its sorrows?"
Resting her head on his shoulder (for it must be admitted, Catherine was a bit above the proper height to nestle her ear against his heart), she murmured that anyone with so worthy a husband would say the same.
"Well, let us not disagree, and thank Providence instead. Frederick had best be glad I was not here to see him behave so abominably: I might have been tempted to give him more than a tongue lashing." So saying he manoeuvred to take up her arm. "I can think of nothing else to occupy us this evening downstairs; shall we retire?"
"Oh, yes!" Catherine cried eagerly, and they preceded to the bed chamber without any appearance of fatigue at all. Nor was it long before they had removed any impediment toward the continuance of their shared felicity.
Catherine did spare one further thought for the beleaguered Captain Tilney, when Henry surveyed the tumult ere dropping the window curtain. "Do you think it will continue so very fierce his whole way back?" she asked, not liking to think of any creature in danger, even one she had happily consigned to everlasting banishment.
"It
is
dreadful looking; however, Frederick is made of strong stuff, and has roughed it in far worse climes. Like as not he stopped at the Ram Inn; undesirable, perhaps, but safe enough. I do shudder to think what our father's reaction will be when he comes dragging in of the morrow."
Catherine noted Henry did not appear troubled at the idea of his brother receiving the full wrath of the general, by which she took her leave not to consider it at all. "I hope they were able to get the sheep found," was her next concern as he lay next to her, "and that all are safely inside now."
"Yes," Henry answered, pulling her closer, "and I hope Will enjoyed his evening's leisure, for we shall have a time of it clearing the yard tomorrow."
"I am glad we already took all the fruit in: at least it will only be leaves and sticks." She reached over to snuff out the candle.
"And
I
am glad," Henry spoke into the darkness, "that we have no one and nothing else to trouble us tonight."
Here he put action to his words, and there was truly nothing else to be said aloud.
Posted on 2021-09-27
Chapter 6
All pleasures must have their end, if only temporarily, and Catherine found the morning dawned much earlier than either she or Henry could have preferred. Still, they knew their duty, and so got up and dressed with the knowledge of a full day's work ahead of them.
They were rewarded with breakfast from their cook: she and the boy had returned as early as possible, Mrs. Poole being the sort of woman who did not like to compound her sin of missing one meal by tardiness for another. She made her excuses for her absence in their time of need, and was granted not only forgiveness but compliments for her exertions. It was not in the lady's nature to be resentful, and the rector was all magnanimity when enjoying fresh buns and jam.
All too soon they had to leave their pleasant table. "We are fortunate it rained so little last night, but that state of affairs cannot last," Henry observed, eyeing the distant clouds. "So we had best get done what we can."
Some ladies might have objected to sharing Adam's lot of toiling among the thorns and thistles; or, as in the present case, shrubs and shallots. But Catherine was very glad to be outside after the previous dayâs business, and needed little inducement to leave off the mending for another time. Dismayed to see their grounds in so sad a state, she was not unhappy to stretch her limbs in putting everything to rights. In truth, she also enjoyed labouring alongside her husband; as he left off his coat, rolling up his shirtsleeves to keep the dirt off, Catherine found plenty to admire even in the grey dreariness of the day.
If such was the amusement received by Catherine, a still rather innocent young wife, I leave it for the reader to determine how much Henry's labours were lightened by seeing her in high spirits, the breeze teasing hair loose from her cap or occasionally whipping her old skirts about to reveal boot and calf. Let us then pity poor Will, who had just as much to do, and only the dogs to distract him by scattering what he piled up. By noon the sun was no brighter, and though they halted for a light repast
al fresco
, all were in agreement to continue however long the calm lasted.
"We are making progress," Catherine commented, smiling despite the situation, and scratching the Newfoundland's head as he finished off the remains of luncheon. "At least the garden is clear again, and Mrs. Poole has two rows taken in."
"Yes; in fact, we may wish toâ" but Henry's reply was cut short by excited barking which announced an approaching rider, soon identified as his brother's valet.
The man was as surprised to learn of his master's absence as they were by his presence. He meant, in fact, to arrive much sooner but, as he explained while the horse was looked to, had been stymied by the gale's debris. "He ought to have taken the main road after all, having been forced to cut back several times between the woods and rising water."
Henry asked in concern, "So the flooding has commenced?"
"Not as such, no, and the fortunately the old hunting trail was mostly clear, or I truly would have had to start over. But after heading south from that way's crossing there were several places washed out or mired, and I understand the mill is being closed up, being so much lower and already taking water. So said the innkeeper, and that the stage was late owing to a felled tree in its path."
"You must be hungry," Catherine said after this thrilling narration, touched in equal measure by sympathy and excitement. "I will see about getting you something for the journey back."
"Thank you, Mrs. Tilney, you are most kind." His deference made her momentarily question why this man (with manners more akin to a Du Pont than Morano) should be made to serve the other, even as she went to give instructions to her cook.
Henry met her in the hall and asked that she convene with him to the study in a state of high emotion. He did not trust himself to speak at first, only frowned over the writing desk while she struggled to contain the thousand questions on her tongue.
"It appears Frederick did
not
abide at the Ram last night: Darrow inquired there first, after waiting for over an hour before setting out from the abbey, and attests that his master has not been seen in either vicinity."
"Then he did not expect him to return later?" Catherine wondered.
"Now there is the best part of this little farce: it appears my brother's errand yesterday was not mere chance but authorized, as the survey of the roads was to include Woodston's. Frederick failed to mention he had already volunteered my services for this report, nor that he was supposed to deliver it today. His man begs me for some intelligence, after all but promising that this morning's delay must be due to our completing the work. It will not be the servant's fault, of course, though that will not stop blame from resting there if he returns empty-handed: I must send
something
."
"Certainly." Catherine felt she ought not to feel more resentment than concern at this news, and barely hid her sighs.
Henry had no such compunction. "I am sure Frederick is not hurt, just sulking, and well may he hide considering my father's wrath when neither paper nor author arrive in his office. A fine mess for me to explain in so hurried a fashion, and with the full expectation that I shall still complete the task! They none of them have any business trespassing further on our time."
"It is good for you to relieve the general's feelings, though, even if only in a cursory way."
"I am in a mood to express
my
feelings very plainly," he said as he took up his pen.
"If you feel it right and proper.â
"Nay, Catherine, you cannot encourage my temper with pleas to duty. Ah, I suppose I must be the good son once more, instead of the rebel."
"I am sure you are correct," she answered with just an echo of his own mockery, provoking him to smile and giving her a sense of accomplishment as she left him to his business.
Henry was not long about it, and having already ordered a fresh steed, offered some final directions along with his letter. "I realize it is further to go when riding, but take the south bridge: surely they will have cleared the way by now, and the main road will serve you better in a sudden downpour. The horse may be kept until I have leave to visit the abbey. Tell my father to expect me by the end of the week." With obliging thanks the rider took the proffered envelope and was soon off, the dogs giving chase until their quarry was well away.
"I hope he arrives safely," Catherine remarked, a gust of cool air causing her to gather her shawl tighter while watching the terriers dart back into the yard.
"
That
bridge is of modern stone, sturdy, and has withstood many an autumn flooding," Henry spoke distractedly, his attention fixed in the opposite direction, searching for what Catherine did not know. In some agitation he added, "But I do not think Frederick went that way."
"Do you think he has suffered some mishap?"
"I do not like to say so. He is a master horseman and full able to take care of himself." He gave one final glance, then left off his reverie. "Come, we still have much to do so long as the weather holds."
Their industry was not leavened with nearly as much joy now, and often Henry stopped, looking in the direction of the village as if to penetrate the distance. Catherine wished to ease his worry but knew not how except by what she was already doing. They did not talk much, and all the while the wind rose, even as the expected shower tarried ever later.
An hour had passed when Henry ceased working altogether. "The clouds are moving slower than before, and it looks like there may yet be more hours of daylight left."
Catherine nodded, though it did not appear as if he was seeking any confirmation. "If we work hard I am sure we may finish before then."
"Perhaps." Henry looked up, as if searching for direction, then back at her. "My dear, do you think you may do without me for the remainder of that time? I think I must see where Frederick has got to."
"Oh." Catherine had suspected her husband's better nature might tempt him to overlook his pique, and so could not be altogether surprised by the suggestion. "But surely your father will send someone else to look if that is needed, or indeed, has not the servant already done so?"
"They do not know Woodston as I do, and I believe Frederick may avoid anyone from the abbey regardless. I should at least canvass the byways for a more detailed communication to my father, which will aid the parish and may prevent further interruptions to our tranquillity."
Catherine could not argue with this logic. "Of course, if you think it the right thing to do, you must."
Henry's smile was thin. "Just when I wish you to discourage me from acting, you do the opposite. What a fickle wife. Will! I shall need my horse saddled."
She set her basket down and reached for his hands. "You will be careful Henry?"
"Of course, but I will avoid the worst of it. He must have gone by the village, and so people will have seen him. I will only search till half past four at the upmost: I do not wish to be caught in that brewing storm for anyone, let alone
him
."
Perhaps another, more artful creature might have practised on Henry's prejudices, and guided him along a primrose path of delays and planning till the venture was impossible to undertake. But it never occurred to Catherine to prevent him from doing what was just, much as it dismayed her. "You will take some provisions at least?"
"A little, but I should not wait long: I want to be back well before those clouds finish rolling in."
So they both acted quickly, she to once again beg victuals from the cook, he to dress for riding out. Within the quarter hour Henry was bidding her farewell. "You need not bother about the rest of the work in my absence, we can as well finish things later."
"Oh no, I am sure Will and I may get it done," Catherine stated firmly, much to the chagrin of a boy whose labours had increased threefold beyond their normal routine. "I would not wish you to worry about that above everything else. Then we may both have a rest tomorrow."
"A delightful thought," Henry said, tipping his hat, "to send me on my way. But make sure you get indoors if it begins to rain suddenly, no matter how much is left to do: I will find shelter and stay overnight with one of our neighbours if need be."
She promised to go in as soon as the elements made it necessary, and charged him to do the same. There was little else to do but watch and pray as he departed.
Posted on 2021-09-27
Chapter 7
As has been seen in the narrative thus far, Henry Tilney was not quite as scrupulously honest as his wife. The truth was that he had shielded her from the full extent of his concerns; if he still did not believe his brother in real distress, neither was he sanguine that other offences had not been attempted after their parting.
He knew the bold Captain Tilney could be foul-tempered and wanton when waking in a feather bed after a hard day of indulgence; a night spent on straw or leaves might provoke his brother past all temperance, causing him to vent his feelings on whatever member of the parish was unfortunate enough to discover him. Thus obligations both domestic and professional spurred him to act and, for the purpose of settling any misunderstandings that may have arisen, he drew from his cashbox before leaving.
There was also the possibility that Frederick was merely playing the prodigal again, and that Henry would find him comfortably settled somewhere with ale in hand and a girl upon his knee. If that were the case, Henry would gladly return home and better the parable's elder brother by surrendering the matter entirely to his father's hands.
There was still light enough for Henry to make out tracks, though he was unsure whether they were from Frederick's mount. So he stopped at some of the same houses as he had the day before, asking after a tall rider or a brown horse with silver equipage. Most of those he questioned had sensibly remained inside and could offer no answer. A few thought they had heard someone, but were unsure from what direction or indeed whether it might not have been some other creature; and did the parson know the sheep had got out yesterday? He thanked each for their pains, said he was glad the flock had been restored, and continued on his way.
Riding out to the fields brought few answers as there was almost no one to question, a majority of the labourers having been pulled off to remedy what the previous night had thrown in disarray. What few were left for the harvest had not seen or heard of anyone unknown to them. Doubling back to the church proved no one had disturbed those grounds; all was as it should be. He even checked back at the Ram Inn, on the off chance that Frederick had hidden himself earlier, but in vain: his inquiries only revealed that the post chaise had finally arrived.
Meanwhile the clouds loomed ever larger in the sky, and Henry nearly lost his hat in the strengthening wind. These facts, and the acute knowledge that he was missing yet more hours spent with his wife over Captain Tilney, gnawed at a resolve already weakened by his search's disappointment. "He is likely back at the abbey already, and laughing at me," was the thought that had occurred several times. He decided to visit the miller, in deference to his absence yesterday, but to go no farther. It stood on the very edge of Woodston, separated only by the river from the forest which compromised a good share of his father's property: surely if Frederick had meant to return home by this route, he must have passed it.
Upon his approach he found a flurry of activity surrounding the workhouse and storerooms on the rise just west of the mill, all under the watchful supervision of Mr. Wilcox who, on being greeted, respectfully asked his rector to step inside for their discussion.
"Why, Sam, I did not know you had taken to the stable." Henry smiled as he surrendered his horse to the miller's youngest son.
"Only recently, and that very ill, though I am sure he will be far more careful with the parson's animal than the others he has tended." Mr. Wilcox's tone and curt look sent the lad scurrying off, as much led as leading his much larger charge. "Do not worry Mr. Tilney, he knows he'll get another lick if anything should go amiss."
Despite this encouragement Henry watched till it was clear that horse and boy alike were safely occupied in a stall before following his host, who had launched into one of his habitual monologues regarding the state of things, a subject he never tired of bemoaning.
"Hayes is too lenient with his children by half, I have told him so several times since taking them in Friday last. Half wild they were, my poor wife has been sorely tried keeping the girls at spinning. And the boys: had they kept the wheel turned at an even pace instead of knocking at all hours asking after their sisters, I am sure twice as much cloth could have been ready for market. Or the littlest might have stayed with them and saved my groom the trouble of getting him in line: thank God
he
knows how to curb unruly spirits! But Tate like everyone else has been pulled off to store everything higher, fast as they can get it off the looms."
"We must not expect wisdom from babes," Henry temporized, concern for the miller's circumstances stilling his tongue from any of several choice retorts he could have made on the subject of curbing versus breaking spirits. "And have they been with you that long? It sounds a more serious case than I understood heretofore.â
"Serious! I
do
call it serious when a man malingers near a whole week in bed, and begs his neighbour keep his family over a trifling cold. But we as good Christians did our duty of course. Ah, there she is at last: mind that tray Prudence, do at least try to live up to your name."
The child, barely in her eighth year, looked liable to drop her carefully balanced load at being singled out thus. Henry said nothing at first, not wishing to excite further harshness by countermanding the reproof, but after receiving a cup paid her a compliment and two pennies as vails before asking, "How are your good father and mother, Miss Prudence? I was sorry not to see them on Sunday."
"Better, sir," was the shy reply he received.
"I am glad to hear it," Henry spoke quickly, before Wilcox could start in another round of complaints. "But we must continue lifting them in prayer: perhaps you would like to take this opportunity to offer up your own?"
"I hope she will do as you instruct though I must own their habits all quite slovenly, which comes of sparing the rod too often.â Wilcox barely let her reach the door before this comment, and Henry downed the tepid tea to swallow sentences which would only foment rather than moderate these coarse sentiments. A pointed inquiry into his hostâs own business turned the conversation to general malaise, and how much profit was to be lost with his industry shut up, albeit couched in concern over the parish's coffers and tithes.
When he began grumbling over the late mail and miserable streets, Henry was able to get in a few words of his own. "Actually, I have been charged with accounting for any repairs or improvements be made on that score: but with other concerns, it has yet to be done. I would appreciate any insight you could provide." It was as sore a test of Henry's forbearance not to laugh at the abrupt transition to self-satisfied obsequiousness, as the man's earlier quarrelsome temper had encouraged his guest to frown. "Well, I shall not keep your any longer from your work, and I should return to mine," Henry said after listening patiently for several interminable minutes to Wilcoxâs ideas. "Although I must ask, you did not see a rider pass by yesterday evening, perhaps very late?"
"No: and I have not heard of a highwayman in these parts; if there is one, it is to be hoped he has met the fate God intends for all his enemies, and saves honest people the trouble of hanging him later."
There was little Henry could say in answer that would not be a punishment to both honest souls present, and so he bid adieu with probably as much charity as the bearer received it.
At the stable he was pleased to find better company in the form of Mr. Hayes himself, just come up from the mill with his other sons, who he explained were putting away the last finished bolts. "The missus is well and helping Mrs. Wilcox, thank you for asking, I thought I'd just check here to see about Sam. I trust everything is right with you sir?"
"Excellent! I believe your boy has real talent, for my beast has never looked happier after a call at this residence," Henry said over loudly while offering a penny to the lad, who after a short nod from his father sprang with excited glee to take it. "And yourself? I do apologize for not coming sooner, I have only just learned of your conditionâs severity."
"Aye, it was touch an' go for a bit, you heard right. We were a mite worried for the children, but none else caught anything, God be praised, and it blew through fast enough. Would the rain might do similar."
"Perhaps you may enjoy a brief respite with the mill closed."
"Perhaps sir." Mr. Hayes sounded as disbelieving as Henry felt. Fortunately the man betrayed no lingering weakness as he helped his son close up the stall.
"I trust you will all tend safe till we meet again."
"Thank you sir, and your family too."
"Actually, I have been searching for my brother. Did you happen to see a rider go by in the past day?"
Henry had not really expected an answer, and was already mounting when Mr. Hayes surprised him by saying there may have been someone on horseback. "'Twere so fleeting I had not mentioned it to anyone, and whether it was any kin of yours I could not say. I was out testing the water's depth at the time. It was so dark, I do not think I would have noticed except for hearing the hooves. I shouted a warning, but who knows if it was heard? He was going very fast." The miller would have said
too fast
, but just checked himself, remembering the gentleman's relationship.
Henry's heart sank at the news, for he had envisioned himself going home now. "Which direction did he take?" he asked with some trepidation, and felt even worse as the man pointed toward a thicket due north of the swelling river.
"I believe it was that way, though of course, it were very hard to see, I might have been mistaken. I wondered where he could be going," was his candid remark, though the only answer was a barely elucidating "Nowhere good."
Even as Henry advanced uphill toward the copse he wondered whether he ought to retreat. No farm extended this far out of Woodston, for the land was rocky and uneven. He caught sight of not only limbs but full trunks down in places, and a lone rider would face perils even without a tempest to hinder him. For the first time Henry truly considered that Frederick might be in some peril.
"If so, it would be foolish to continue by himself." He
had
promised caution, and a company of men might serve an injured party far better than one. The closest source of aid must be where he had just left, which would require giving further explanation for his search; even were he to obscure specifics, like as not those very details would be guessed at or worse imagined to explain whatever predicament Frederick might be found in. Henry could certainly imagine any number of strong pronouncements from Wilcox on the subject of drunkards and debauchery, or complaints should Frederick be in no danger at all. He decided he must at least give a cursory search before alerting anyone else, delaying a decision while continuing deeper through the woods. Duty and desire, consciousness and conscience all vied for influence as he wrestled over what to do.
Suddenly he spied another horse and, urging his own forward, closed the distance as carefully as possible. It was no wonder the poor beast had been unable to continue further: its reins were wrapped around a large branch, and the saddle had slid down to drag along one side. Henry leapt down and attempted to free the head, finally resorting to his knife when he could not loose the stiffened tact. He tried to recall if it was the same breed his brother had ridden.
He received answer when upon straightening the saddle in place he recognized the captain's prize riding crop tangled in its straps.
Henry at once looked around for a prone figure but to no avail: it was very dark, and he had not thought to bring a lantern. Best to fetch help; but that would take precious minutes, and his brother might be very bad off indeed, without time to spare. Glancing down he could just make out tracks leading off into even thicker brush.
Leading both horses on foot, he followed the piecemeal trail through the gloom, gingerly crossing the precarious ground till forced to stop when he could no longer see trace of a print in any direction, and he called out. There was no answer.
Before he left, Henry decided to mark the place that it might be easier to find again. He chose two sturdy twigs which he staked and joined with a handkerchief as signal. Just then a bolt of lightning filled the sky, causing Henry to blink against the sudden illumination. The immediate answering thunder spooked the horses so that the leathers were jerked out of his hands, causing him to stumble forward as a torrent poured from the heavens. He ran after but was forced to stop when they faded from view: he could see neither animal, nor even more than a foot before him.
He held his arm out, attempting to walk in the direction he judged most likely to be the correct one. Another lightning strike lit and he could have wept at the sight of fresh markers in the dirt. He turned at once, feeling his way forward, and lengthening his stride when he finally cleared the trees. Catching no sight of village or field did not at first alarm him; he had ridden far, and may have left the woods at a different place than he had entered. Even were he close, it might take twice as long to traverse the same span half blind and on foot.
When said foot failed to find purchase beneath it Henry nearly toppled over, and just managed to leap back in time. Peering forward he was able to make out the grooves of a large pit, and recognized it as one of the fallow canals. "I must have come clear north of the forest entirely," was his realization, much farther afield from where he had imagined himself to be. He looked about for further landmarks, but all was grey and murky. If he kept the gorge to one side he knew he would eventually reach the river; from there he could best determine how to return to Woodston, or even head on to the abbey in the worst extremity. These thoughts did not cheer him, for either destination would involve a long hard march.
Henry walked slowly, ever aware of the possibility for mudslides and unsure exactly where along this course the river was diverted. Poor Catherine must already be inside by now, safe and warm and hopefully not too worried about her hapless husband. Henry could imagine her sitting by the fire, perhaps sorting through her workbox or reading a novel, and allowed himself to torment her spectre with occasional glances toward the door in search of him.
These pleasing thoughts were not enough to chase away his fears. Frederick could be anywhere, and though hearty, getting wet through would do him no good, not to mention any injuries he may have sustained. While he had chided Mrs. Tilney for her abundant imagination before, Henry was no less susceptible, and could readily envision many reasons a man would be unable to return once unseated from his horse.
His own state was little better: cold and damp, without even the provisions his wife had so thoughtfully arranged and which he had so stupidly left on his saddle. Whoever found it would have both one meal and funds to purchase many more: a shocking loss to accept culpability for, not counting the beast itself. As if to reinforce his folly, memory assaulted him, and he clearly heard his mother's father recount a blood-curdling tale of some long dead ancestor drowning after a drunken escapade on his own land. "And let that be a lesson for you, young Master Henry, 'ere you suffer the same!"
Why, he wondered, had Frederick not been made sleepless for nights on end with similar morality stuffed in his ear at a tender age? Was not the elder son supposed to be the more noble specimen of the line? And why had Henry ever thought he should come to his rescue in the first place, and alone at that? Grandfather Drummond would have boxed his ears over this foolishness. Henry pulled his greatcoat tighter, and prayed earnestly that Catherine was not suffering any pangs; he
had
told her he would seek shelter. Perhaps he would omit exactly how far he had to walk to seek said shelter when sending word.
These thoughts were interrupted by his slipping on a sodden patch of grass, causing him to land unceremoniously on the ground with laboured breath and a headache forming. Beyond the trace of the canal and an overgrown hedge the world was a dark filmy void. At least the thunder had abated, though Henry would have been glad of some light.
When he began to push himself up, Henry felt a small something under his hand: too small and polished for a stone and more perfectly round than a seed. He brought it closer to his face and was startled to recognize a button, the same that had caught the fireplace's light yesterday as Frederick strutted about the study. Henry scrambled to his feet and called his brother's name again, looking all about.
Hearing nothing but the wind he nonetheless crept to look over the edge of the shaft, straining to see. He could just make out the other side, and after some difficulty followed it down to where it flattened into a narrow ditch. It was on his second examination that something caught his eye: Henry turned back immediately and peering closer, thought he glimpsed a person.
"Frederick!" he cried in recognition but saw no sign of movement. Henry traced along the perimeter to just above where his brother lay sprawled under a thin canopy, formed by a mess of dirt and foliage torn from the nearest bush. "Frederick!"
If there was answer Henry did not see or hear it, though he could not be sure the man was even sensible to his cries. He judged it was not a steep climb, and tore off a stick large enough to support his weight. "I am coming!" he announced, hoping to rouse some response as he began his descent.
Despite not training to the same degree as a cavalier, Henry was by no means in poor form, and furthermore had traversed these grounds since his boyhood. Still, he was distracted by labour, fatigue, and dread; his gloves were wet through and his sodden coat pulled and upset his balance, forcing him to work even harder to keep his footing.
He might have succeeded even with all these difficulties had it not been for stepping on a loose rock, which slid out from under his foot and pulled a good chunk of the earth with it, dragging him along so that he plunged to the bottom in a heap, only just managing to roll into his shoulder. He instinctively reached for his handkerchief and a jarring spasm coursed through him, compounded by his remembering the linen was not in his pocket at all.
Whatever his own pains, he was quick to see that his brother looked worse: the usually pristine clothing torn and dank, hair falling in wild strands, and skin unnaturally pale. Henry was relieved to discover a heartbeat, but had no way of knowing how bad off the man truly was. They would need to get out and find better shelter than that provided by the wreckage scattered about. Small miracle the stallion had only been caught in the above bramble and not lamed, or perhaps a testament to the military discipline which Henry absently observed it displayed more than its master. But these morose pondering would get them nowhere: they must escape if Frederick were to receive the attention he most desperately needed.
Henry positioned the larger man over his shoulder and took up his walking stick. The dead weight caused him a moment's unsteadiness; looking up, he could just discern the seemingly distant hedge, though he knew it was not so far to the top. With determination he set rod and boot into the slope, his other hand clutching his load.
If it had been difficult to get himself down, it was doubly so to pull them both up. The mud shifted beneath his boots, and he could feel his brother's frame slipping from his grasp even as he tightened his hold. They were both too wet, the ground too soft. The staff helped but could do nothing for the person pulling him backward. Henry attempted shifting his position but felt one of Frederickâs arms pry free, which was enough to overbalance and throw them down once again.
The result of this fall was that though Henry felt too dazed to offer any exclamation, his brother awoke and offered several choice oaths of his own. Henry barely paid them mind, instead sitting up to shout the otherâs name.
"Henry?" The voice was hoarse but powerful.
"Glad to know you still have life," and smiling despite his bruises, he forced himself to stand. "Now, between the two of us, we are sure to get out." So saying he offered his hand.
"What the devilâ" but whatever else Frederick would have asked was lost in an outraged howl as Henry tried to hoist him up. Instead, Frederick yanked back, nearly pulling his brother down on top of him.
"Come now, I have taken enough mud in the face for you today," was Henry's preamble as he bent to start the process over, cut short by his brother's curses. Upon closer examination he discovered an odd angle in one leg, a bulging egg of skin revealed midway down the calf. Even his untutored eye could understand what that meant.
"It's broken!" Frederick exclaimed. "You idiot simpleton: you broke my leg!"
Posted on 2021-10-04
Chapter 8
When the first drops of rain fell, Catherine and Will rushed to pack everything away. They made it back into the parsonage as the worst of it fell, dripping but without any real harm.
"You must get dry this instant," Catherine charged her young helper, who agreed with all gratitude, while she went upstairs to change. By the time she came down the storm was in full force, thunder rumbling in the distance. Looking out the drawing room's window she could barely make out the trees bending in the wind. Her comfort was that the garden and yard were clear, though it saddened to think how little they would be able to enjoy their plantation if the weather continued despoiling their shrubbery.
The clock chimed four o'clock with no sign of Henry. "He's likely in the village," Mrs. Forest offered when Mrs. Tilney came to find her. "He did say he would wait it out there."
"Very true. But he may yet be on his way, so I would like to get something made up, and the fire stoked."
She hoped at any moment to hear the front door open. But the minutes ticked by without this expected homecoming, and Catherine could barely contain her worry as she checked on dinner once more. "Can we keep it warm a little longer?" she asked fretfully.
"I'm afraid it'll spoil," was the cook's opinion.
It was too awful to contemplate dining alone without her husband, and so she asked instead that they all eat together in the kitchen. "Only, Will, please go and look out the door again."
The boy, having just sat down, might have grumbled had Mrs. Poole not sent him a sharp look, causing him to leap up to obey. The two matrons did their best to comfort their young mistress, with assurances that Mr. Tilney knew what he was about, and was surely safe and dry inside someone's home.
"And I know he'll be glad to think of us all staying safe inside as well," Mrs. Forest opined when Will returned, having caught no sight of his master.
It was a simple meal, one Catherine might normally have enjoyed for its warmth and fellowship but for her concern for Henry. She knew everyone was likely correct, and that her husband was lodging with their friends, yet she was still anxious on his behalf. What if he had been too far out when the storm broke? What if he had not turned back in time? What if he was now exposed and forlorn, far from any succour?
Afterward Catherine braved her little room again with its windows futilely looking out upon the obscured landscape. She felt tired and heartsick, and wished she could have gone out also, absurd as the notion surely was. At last she scolded herself for indulging her fancies. It was ridiculous to sit thus, watching and waiting, as if Henry were as foolish a man as his brother to risk nature's onslaught. She determined to banish her overwrought thoughts and put herself to something productive, and went to find her long overdue mending.
The sound of a dog caused her to stop, and she wondered whether he was whining to be let in. Henry as a rule did not like his hunter to abide in the house proper. But Catherine decided the present circumstances must relax this prohibition and unlatched the door. She did not find Brutus on the steps; instead, he was raising a great fuss around a horse coming up the sweep. Without another thought and barely taking time to grab her pelisse, Catherine ran into the elements with a loud clamour.
It is fortunate Will was not so hasty in abandoning his chores in the loft, and brought out a lantern on being summoned. He found the rectorâs wife helping a very drenched Sam Hayes out of the saddle, and quickly led them into the stableâs comparative protection.
The little boy's features wavered between exhaustion and exhilaration as he attempted to explain. "It came back, and he said as I was to bring it here, so I did!" This comment did little to enlighten his audience, and after some gentle prompting he was able to inform them that Mr. Tilney had been to see Mr. Wilcox, had taken his horse into the woods, and that this same horse had been sighted pawing around the property some time later. "Mr. Tate was mad, on account of just getting his bottle out, an' here was more work to do, an' says I was to take the thing straight back where it belonged."
Catherine was not so preoccupied by her own concerns as to miss the flaw in this plan. "But why did you come with it so dark and bad out?"
This question, clearly unexpected, bewildered the child, who turned suddenly shy. "Then, you think, he did not mean now?"
It soon became clear Sam had not told a soul of his mission, under the impression he was in orders already, and that save one potentially inebriated groom none knew of his whereabouts. "Your poor mother will be so worried!" Catherine exclaimed, which made Sam shrink to the point of bowing, the better to hide his tears with the water still dripping from his head.
"It's Dagonet sure enough," Will spoke up, having missed most of this scene while examining the horse. "See that spot? And look, itâs Mr. Tilneyâs bag, with all his things." An older hand might have offered some wise reflection on not being deceived by appearances. Being young and as unnerved by the sight as the lady, Will only asked whether she wanted Sam to bed with him for the night.
"No," Catherine answered with such firmness that both lads stood up straighter. "You can drive the curricle, is that not true?" At Will's startled assent, she nodded. "Good. Get the horses watered, and then drive around to the kitchen door. Sam, come with me, we shall get you cleaned up and make ready in the house."
The bewildered servant was unsure what needed "getting ready," though based on the day's activities so far expected it meant nothing restful for him.
He was not wrong, for Catherine was determined on nothing less than setting out to deliver one wayward son back to his family, and if possible discover the whereabouts of two others. Both her housekeeper and cook tried to dissuade her of this resolution but to no avail: now that she had a purpose she was fixed on it. "I will have Will, and we will take the dog, and besides we must get Sam home before he is missed," and without waiting for more objections she ordered the boy given something hot to drink and directed a basket be prepared with food, wraps, candles, and anything else she could think of. Soon the curricle was loaded up, a thick blanket covering the supplies; and Will personally brought a little rope and hammer along, of a mind that if he had to be out he would like to have some tools as not, with these items being instilled as necessities from an early age whether they were needed for the particular task or no.
Garbed in her thickest coat and with an umbrella for further protection, Catherine confidently told her other servants they would abide in the closest dwelling of the parish after their errand was finished. Mrs. Forest looked of a mind to question the wisdom of this decision once more, but in the end only charged Will to look sharp and keep them all safe. He nodded his rather uncertain agreement while helping Catherine onto the seat, and she took the lantern from him as he lifted little Sam up to wedge between them. Brutus was in a frenzy of delight when bade to follow, barking and leaping about as they started forward.
The higher ground, though wet, was not too marshy as they made their way down the deserted Woodston lane. She had a moment of foreboding when passing the churchyard, but seeing the looks of fright on her companions spoke of courage she did not fully possess, and encouraged Will to drive on.
Sam, at least, caught some of her cheer the closer they came to their destination, even as the conditions worsened and Will struggled to keep the curricle steady. Catherine encouraged the little boy to speak, at first of anything, and then patiently leading him back to the discovery of the horse and anything else he could tell her of Henry's potential whereabouts. At the last bend in the path he was so bold as to lean over and point toward the distant woods. "I think it were that way it came from, ma'am; I heard Mr. Tilney and my father talk of someone riding in there."
For one moment Catherine considered turning in that direction, but she could not justify either taking Sam along or abandoning him, especially as he was the professed reason for the journey. So she buried her own feelings and forced herself to praise the boy as they brought him up to the perimeter of the Wilcox property, where the path had grown muddy enough it was all Will could do to bring the curricle to a halt rather than turn it onto the short drive.
"I can hop those puddles maâam, truly!" Sam assured her with all the carelessness of youth and looking none the worse for his adventure.
Catherine debated whether she ought not to accompany him, and finally decided on sharing a few cakes to salve her conscience and instructing him to go straight to his mother with as much sternness as she could muster. "And please apologize for me, and say I would come in if I could, and that I will visit her later," Catherine continued in a rush, mad to be gone, yet determined to perform her duties to the parish as well as she could under the circumstances.
Sam ran like a hare toward the nearest building, and Will asked with some hesitation if they ought not to follow his example. "These horses aren't used to pulling together," he confessed while struggling to turn them around.
"Just a bit further," Catherine urged with a sinking heart, not at all sure if it were the right thing to do anymore, but certain she could not bear to leave off the attempt. "Is there not some trail we could follow?"
Will was hard pressed to answer: his travels primarily consisted of the parsonage and his parents' cottage, and he found it difficult to envision much beyond. "I've an uncle who boards with the tenants somewhere nearby," he mused nervously, mindful that he had the parson's wife out in a hypothetical quagmire, and fearful of his punishment if he did not think of something quick. "Mama visits sometimes. I think she goes up by the field path, like they drive the carts through."
"Then we shall use it as well," Catherine spoke with all confidence, causing Will to wish he had heeded all the matrons in his life who advised him to mind his tongue. Soon they were repositioned and heading up the way carved by much larger wagon wheels, their lighter vehicle just skimming over the shallow ruts. The dog kept to their side, less playful and more alert, occasionally bounding after something only he could see before returning.
At last they came within sight of the forest, and Will was able to guide the team onto an even narrower trail. The rain at least was not as pelting under the canopy, but their limited light curtailed any speed beyond a crawl as they cast about for any sign of their quarry.
Brutus sniffed about, alert, than threw back his head and howled before leaping deeper into the thicket. "Oh, he must have found him, Will, we must go after him!" Catherine cried, a thousand scenes from her books filling her with awe and terror at the sight. Her driver was not unmoved, and did all he could to force the curricle into every open space possible, even putting the hood down to allow for a tighter fit through the brush. She held the lantern as high as possible, catching sight of the dog still dashing back and forth. The animal had been trained well and never got too far ahead, always letting them know his whereabouts.
After what felt like ages, Will was able to manoeuvrer the curricle through a break in the trees, only to bring it up short again in a sudden panic. "We can't go there! See ahead? That's part of the canal, we'll fall in!"
Brutus was frantic, whining and baying at turns, and the horses uneasily shifted their weight at his upset. Catherine searched for any sign that they were in the correct place. "Look, Will: do you see something?"
With trepidation the boy allowed the vehicle to advance, and as they came alongside the vague shape took form. Reaching over, Will was able to grab the reins, and Catherine held their lantern higher. As one they recognized the stallion's silver military harness. "It must be the captain's," Will allowed, and they both looked about in alarm.
"They have to be nearby: we shall have to search on foot." She did not even wait for Will to help her, but climbed down herself. While the boy tethered their growing herd, she carefully lit another lantern, shielding the precious flame with her umbrella. "Here, it will go faster if we each have one," and attempting to shelter them both, Catherine set off with her reluctant companion after the dog, with cries of "Mr. Tilney!" and "Henry!" as they swept their lights to and fro.
Abruptly there was a shout, unintelligible, but sounding more human than etheral. "Did you hear it?" Catherine asked, and they both stood still.
The report came again, louder, and distinctly forming the word "Here!" Such encouragement was all Catherine needed to race ahead, forgetting Will completely at the sound of her husband's voice, repeatedly wailing his name all the while. She stopped when she heard an answering "Catherine?" and peered round, then turned to the canal itself as the dog planted himself by its side and howled. She inched forward, holding the lantern high, and gasped at the sight below her.
"Oh! Henry, are you hurt?" she called, taking in his unusually dishevelled appearance. "And where is your greatcoat?"
"Covering Frederick, who needs it more at the moment. But are you alone?"
"No sir!" Will came bounding up, fearing chastisement more than falling. "We drove out with the curricle, and found the captain's horse."
Henry's looks spoke his displeasure, but he was interrupted voicing his exact thoughts by a sneeze. "We can discuss whether that was wise later, but I am glad to see you. We must get Frederick out, his leg is hurt."
"Because of you!" came a sharp retort, and Catherine moved her lantern to take in the huddled form of the captain laying nearby.
"Unfortunately our first attempt at escape resulted in injury, which Frederick received the brunt of; and while splinted, the leg needs more support than a branch and cravat may provide. I have tried to climb out since but the ground has no purchase, and I cannot get a footing."
Here Will proved his mettle by proudly announcing he had brought rope with him, and was rewarded by Henry clapping his hands. "Excellent! Bring the horses around: between them and a few good knots we should be out soon enough."
As the boy went to do his master's bidding, Catherine remained, still holding her lantern high. "You are sure you are unharmed? It looks a ways to fall."
"I am perfectly well," was the reply, a bit too quick even for Catherine's ready credulity. As if recognizing his mistake, Henry continued, "Nothing that may not be cured by a comfortable chair by the fire. I am only sorry
you
are forced to share our troubles."
Disclaiming any discomfort of her own, Catherine was prevented making further inquires by Willâs return. At Henry's instruction he wound the rope in among the collar and chains of the pair, then wrapped it about himself. "Be careful," Catherine warned as she watched Will climb down.
It felt terrible to be stranded at the top of such a ravine, with nothing to do but watch and wait, listening to the men go about their labours. The dog crawled beneath the floorboard to lounge, panting but happiest of their party, and she praised his good work with reciprocal gladness. Eventually Will came scurrying back over the edge. "Very good ma'am, hold the lamp steady," he said, and then began coaxing the horses to pull their new burdens up.
She could see the figure of the captain gradually rising in his makeshift litter, and hear even more clearly his oaths. Henry, holding tight to the rope, guided his brother's ascent from below. Once they were close enough she reached out, taking his hand, and soon they were all on level ground again. At their hail Will came running back, helping his master get the sodden and very angry captain hoisted up onto the curricleâs seat. "Thank you," Henry said, leaning on a wheel as he caught his breath. "We had best turn around to Woodston, though I've no firm idea of the distance at this point."
"Oh yes!" Catherine agreed, disturbed by how worn her husband looked now that she saw him closer. "You should both get inside at once. Henry, you must sit with your brother, and take cover. Will and I are small enough to both ride behind: my umbrella will do for us."
"Nonsense: the mud will turn all over you, who are already far too wet." Henry's protests would have carried more weight if he were not drenched and dirty himself, and interrupted by coughing. Catherine at once reached into their supplies and fetched him a draught of water, ignoring protests from the passenger disturbed by her efforts.
Trying to appease her husband, Catherine recommended he sit on the back with umbrella and blanket. "I may then ride and keep your brother safe, while Will leads the team."
Despite himself Henry looked of half a mind to agree, until the boy admitted he was not sure where they were or how to guide them away. "And what would they do with the captainâs horse? The rope was too thick to loop through his gear."
"I will ride it," Henry announced, standing straighter. "You should be able to stand in the curricle, and can follow. Keep your umbrella, dear, I am afraid you may be pushed to the side and will need the protection."
She protested, demanding he use it, but Henry only shook his head and took the other lantern. "We must not delay with arguments. Come, up inside, the sooner we start the sooner we may reach safety."
Catherine allowed herself to be helped up, but held her husband's hand with firm emphasis before he walked away. "And when we arrive, you will rest? For my sake?"
"Believe me, I need no prompting for that," Henry answered, but at her look he earnestly agreed.
Reassured, Catherine settled herself as best she could while Will took up the reins, and her brother angrily demanded they set off at once. His language grew only fouler as they were jostled forward. "Could you not bring anything stronger to drink?" was his demand, prompting Catherine to honestly reply that there had been no spirits left to pack. His curses made her blush but she determined to ignore him, and kept her eyes trained on the figure with the lantern ahead.
Posted on 2021-10-04
Chapter 9
Henry kept to a sluggish trot back through the trees. He had, in fact, thought it might be safer to go around the forest, but the driving rain and absence of even the faintest path forced him to reconsider. The horses were taxed and unused to pulling together, and with three to bear the slightest irregularity might upset them. Nor could he risk a wrong turn in the open with all landmarks veiled beyond the small glow of his lamp; safer to retrace their steps and make for the hunting trail as a guide out. Weakness of the flesh proved an ample distraction from the mind's anxiety: an awful heaviness settled in his throat and lungs, while his shoulder ached as he laboured to hold both the lantern and ragged straps so unluckily cut earlier.
What he saw when they found the trail made his heart sink further: the way back toward Woodston was blocked by a large overflowing mudhole, possibly dug out by the curricle's own passage. He tried to sound it out a few feet and was compelled to turn back. "A wonder you made it through at all," he professed with blunted feeling, refusing to consider the danger Catherine might easily have fallen to, and turning his mind instead to what should be done.
Unfortunately, he saw but one alternative. "I think we had better head for Northanger, as we can find the river easy enough, and thence get to higher ground on the other side. Any other way is likely to prove as perilous as this one, and besides there is a doctor near the abbey." He did not say what they should do if that way was barred as well, entrusting to Providence what he could not command as he passed by the curricle to head in the other direction. Eventually they came to the rushing water, and while it was very high he was beyond grateful to find it had not yet submerged the old wooden bridge; still, he determined to test the boards first, even commanding Brutus wait from dashing across. The high stirrup caught his foot on dismounting, and Henry fumbled to keep his balance as he landed with a jerk.
"I am well!" he called in answer to his wife's cry, putting as much cheer into his voice as possible, and absently speculating whether a thing could be made so if said often enough. He walked forward and back, then led the stallion, striving to discover if there was any give or crack that might cause difficulties. All seemed sound, but he insisted that Catherine cross first before Will drove the curricle over.
"What of
our
safety?" his brother demanded at this scheme, repeating again his bitter complaints over loss of his leg.
Henry caught himself from an equally acrimonious reply as he helped Catherine down from her seat. "Follow as you can," he instructed Will, then warily advanced, not relaxing his grip on her hand till they had safely reached the far side, scorn and distemper behind them.
As they waited, Henry attempted to shield her even as she raised the umbrella higher for him. "My dearest Catherine, I am so sorry," he began, but found he could not articulate all he was sorry for. It was too immense, and his brain too fogged to detail it.
"I wish no one had been harmed," was her eventual answer. "And that it were all safely over. But it is very like a book, is it not?"
He stared, and only managed to recognize her attempt at humour from her smiles. He tried to laugh but found himself coughing, and felt her arms reach to offer support.
"Oh, Henry, you must not ride any more, let Will take your place."
"No, we should not chance unbalancing everything with my added weight, and it is a good while before we come out to the road. Do not fear, I have taken this trail before and can easily manage it." He did not quite capture his earlier confidence, and turned away from his wife's piercing eyes, not wishing her to see how little he believed his own words. Henry was saved by the curricle's appearance and quickly helped her back up, but this time did not ignore the foul abuse this action gave rise to. "Remember there is a lady present," he admonished. "And that our father will want a full accounting of what has transpired."
The simple act of remounting made him dizzy, yet he spared not a moment before setting off. His fervent prayer was to make Northanger Abbey before true night fell, and as the shower tapered off he was better able to get his bearings. Yet his inner workings seemed to worsen even as his outward situation improved: coughs came upon his frame more regularly, racking spasms he could not contain, and it felt as if every bone and tendon ached, not helped by the military style of the saddle and his own lack of familiarity with it. He would never complain about a day spent visiting again; even his worst parish outing had nothing to compare with this hellish travail.
It felt like an interminable time before they finally cleared the last oak. He tried to estimate how far they had to go and failed miserably. It was as if the drive would never end, and he like Orpheus doomed to continually wander through a frigid misty underworld, his wife behind him, doubting whether they would reach safety or no. He did not realize they were at the abbey's gates until the horse began to shy at the impediment, and he startled from his stupor enough to get it back under control, the dog cavorting at its hoofs.
"Hello the house!" he raised his voice loud as possible. "Captain Tilney is wounded!"
This hue and cry brought forth several men, and soon enough they were under the archways and blessedly out of the dank gloom. Henry accepted help without embarrassment, past caring for his pride, instructing, "His leg is broken; Doctor Morton must be sent for," as Frederick was lifted down and taken inside, then when the boy leapt to aid his mistress from her perch, "My deepest thanks, Will, for your valuable service tonight."
"Of course sir, I'll see to things here, don't you worry."
"I am sure it is in the best of hands." Henry's attention next turned to Catherine's needs, and he ordered a bath prepared. "I believe my sister has left some of her wardrobe here; have them sent to the room Mrs. Tilney will use."
Catherine protested their separating. "You are more in need of care than me, and you promised you would rest when we arrived."
"And so I shall, you have my word," Henry assured her, stifling the sneeze that threatened to spoil his picture of competence. "But my father will want to know what has occurred, and it is best I make explanations rather than leave it to servants. You should get out of these wet things at once, before you catch cold."
"I am worried
you
are ill. Let me come with you, and then we may go up together."
But Henry would not hear of her facing the general under such circumstances. "I will be but a short time behind you: now, please go in, there is nothing you should be concerned for now except your own comfort."
Reluctantly she left, turning back to look at him a final time before following the attendant into the house. Henry at once stopped the nearest groom as he wiped the mud from his boots. "Have the coach made ready with the surest team. Mrs. Tilney will travel back to Woodston tonight."
It was a testament to how strong the Tilney command ruled in the household that no one questioned his stern order but made to obey at once. It had been Henry's private vow that his wife never be forced to spend another night in the house she had once been so odiously banished from, and after all her misadventures he meant to ensure she did not suffer any new grievances at the hands of his family.
"Sir," a voice penetrated his thoughts, causing him to face the butler. "Your father wishes to see you now."
"Of course." He surrendered his wet hat and greatcoat, then rubbed his temples with a proffered cloth in an elusive attempt to make himself presentable. He was grateful the dark prevented any mirrors from mocking his appearance when trudging up the familiar steps, across the long great hall, and into the confines of his father's private sitting room.
"Henry!" was the brusque greeting he received upon entry. "What do you mean upsetting the house like this so late, and in this weather?"
"It was not my intentionâ" and he would have taken a seat, but a sharp glance from the general staid him.
"You know better than to get dirt all over the furniture, or at least you did. No telling what your habits are like now."
The barely veiled comment against his marriage caused Henry to stand ramrod straight, determined not to give an inch to the man before him. "I
do
know sir, and I would never dream of testing your forbearance. That is why my wife will be returning to Woodston as soon as the coach is ready."
"Why is
she
here?" was the next inquiry. "Get to the point: I have no patience for that insipid tongue of your's tonight."
"No sir." So Henry launched into an abbreviated version of events to date. He was forced to omit much of Frederick's disreputable conduct out of sheer expediency, not wanting to get tangled in the minutia of the tale before reaching the heart of the matter.
"I took the liberty of sending for the physician," he summarized, feeling slightly light-headed and wishing the glowing coals had been stoked back up. "Frederick does not appear in need of treatment beyond the leg, but I cannot be sure."
"He is a campaigner, he will live," the general answered with military stocisim. "Dân stupid way to extend his furlough; a good lesson for him. You will be spending the night of course."
"Yes sir, but about Mrs. Tilneyâ"
"You shall both stay here. No need to add to the day's folly: I will not risk any more horseflesh." He rang and gave instructions for his son and daughter to be settled "out of the way."
Henry wanted to object, but felt his throat close up and therefore only dropped a short bow when dismissed. On following the footman upstairs, he asked to first see where Catherine had been settled, and was led to a small guest chamber. "Henry!" she exclaimed, almost falling into his arms, but he stopped her.
"I am too filthy for such an embrace, I merely wanted to see that you were taken care of."
"Oh, yes, but Henry you must get warm, you look ever so chilled."
"I feel it, but I can get cleaned up easily enough, and I wish to speak to you first. My father has decreed we stay the nightâ"
"Good!"
"âbut I have ordered the coach made ready regardless. There is no need to inconvenience us both: you might be home before midnight."
Catherine looked near to tears at the suggestion. "Henry, no, I could not leave you! Please, will you at least sit?"
"I would spoil the chair," he demurred, even as he longed to lay down and never get back up. "And I would not have you stay here a second longer than necessity requires; Will may accompany you, if you had rather not go alone. I will remain long enough to learn what is to become of Frederick, discuss whatever business my father requires, and likely arrive back in Woodston by midmorning tomorrow."
But Catherine broke into true sobs at this proposed schedule, begging him to let her stay, pleading not to be sent off, and beseeching they remain together. It was more than he could stand after everything else.
"As it seems I am outnumbered in this case I will not argue the point. But we leave first thing in the morning. Now, they may still have questions for me, and I would not have your sleep disturbed by interruptions. I shall be close by, though, pray be easy on that count." She at last agreed, and Henry assured her they would go down to breakfast together before departing. Only when his wife surrendered to the maid's attention did Henry depart, and was vaguely bemused to be shown to his old quarters farther along the gallery. Inside he found a fire, hot plate, and fresh ewer of water awaiting him like ministering angels. He ran to the inviting flames in relief, kicking at his boots and stripping his coat off, feeling as if he could have danced upon the hearth. The light meal was soon devoured, as he was overcome with a ferocious hunger; and was on the verge of ringing for more, when a coughing fit rent his frame with such violence he fell onto the bed. Still unwashed he crawled in, pulling every blanket on top, desperate to get warm, unable to fathom doing more that night.
Morpheus did not take him so soon, and he tossed and turned fitfully, dull aches threading through every fibre of his being. Worse, his chills were eventually replaced with a burning sensation, such that he could not bear the heat of the room. Stumbling about, he managed to coax the window open, desperate to quench the fire coursing through him. Coughs kept him half awake, even as exhaustion claimed him, and he only sank into oblivion when the rain stopped past one.
Posted on 2021-10-11
Chapter 10
When Catherine woke the next morning she rushed to the window and looked out. Dawn lit the sky, and for once it appeared warm and fair, without an ominous cloud to be seen. The sight was a balm for her nerves, sorely taxed by frightful dreams, but she refused to let such ideas run away with her as they had before her marriage.
"There is nothing to fear," she reminded herself. Nothing could touch them here, nor could anyone separate her from Henry now that he was her husband. Her fancies were just that, and not to be indulged. And in his ancestral home Henry would have been provided the best of care. Why, he had probably slept sounder than she!
Determined to do nothing that would hinder their departure, Catherine began her toilette alone, taking extra care with her hair. If she must face the general again she would present herself neat and smart, demonstrating what a proper wife she had become.
Afterward she paced the room, wishing she had something to read, but nervous of ringing to ask for anything, unsure of how far her father-in-law's generosity extended for this brief visit. Finally she sat in the chair by the window. Henry would find her fresh and ready, and right where she ought to be.
She did not realize she had dozed off until roused by a maid, who upon being asked about Mr. Tilney told how the gentleman was being examined by the recently arrived doctor. "They say his leg looks something awful!"
Catherine coloured at the reference. "No, I did not mean the Captain, I meant Mr. Henry Tilney, my husband. He is to take me down. I am sure he will not be long."
The young girl apologized for her mistake before curtsying and leaving the room. Catherine turned toward the window again and could see clearly for miles, the sun showing the storm's wreckage. She hoped no one else from Woodston had come to harm, and spared a thought for what her housekeeper and cook must be thinking. She began to pace again, wondering whether she ought to send a message ahead, but decided there was no cause, they would leave soon enough. But where was Henry?
When a half hour had passed she decided to seek him out. Opening the door, she spied a few souls hastening down the hall, but shrank from bidding any to aid her; if the servants were occupied with their master's orders she certainly did not wish to interrupt them. Yet she did not know which apartment was her husband's, and she was uncertain about which if any might be verboten. Doubt caught at her. Perhaps Henry had gone down already, and was expecting her to follow; or he might have been called to attend his father, or decided to confer with some other person. He would then surely wish her to wait for him. There had no actual
promise
they should breakfast together, but he had said they would and she was sure he meant it. What could be the delay?
She retreated back into her sanctum and pondered anew what should be her course. It was a terrible dilemma for a heroine to face, without any clear sign of what the right action was. "If only we were already home!"
The chiming of the clock stirred her to action. She would not stay in this room all day: it was silly to fret when there was no cause, and she knew the house well enough to dispense with a guide. Catherine boldly went into the hallway and walked toward the stair.
She was halfway down before encountering a footman. A softly worded inquiry revealed that the doctor, who had been summoned before first light, was still busy with his patient, and the household all very occupied in looking after the captain's needs. "Are the other gentlemen already at table?" she asked, to which she received a negative: the general was out walking, and no one else had gone into the parlour that the man was aware of.
Catherine then begged direction to the stable, thinking to find her husband readying for their departure. No one there had seen him, though Will proudly announced that everything was in readiness for their departure. "But you are sure he has not been out?" Catherine asked, beginning to worry again.
"No ma'am. Is he not in the house?"
"Yes, he must be. We will send word when it is time." Catherine turned back inside, thinking. It would not do to wander the house at random; perhaps her husband was preoccupied with weighty matters. "And if he were to send for me, and I not to be found, that would do no one any good."
She decided to step into the breakfast parlour after all. It was the logical place for her to be, and one her husband would need come to eventually. There could be no objection in her presence. She would be seen, her whereabouts would be known, and she was really feeling quite hungry. So it was that Catherine satisfied both her scruples and her appetite with the same decision, and was not altogether sorry to enjoy a solitary repast, as it prevented her needing to hear disagreeable conversation or feign further concern over her brother's injuries.
When she had finished Catherine felt much better, and was able to content herself that her husband
must
be doing business with his father. He was a dutiful son, on the whole, and might feel partly responsible for what had happened. She did not blame him for this abandonment, and instead ascribed all responsibility to the more likely party. As they were at the general's leisure she decided to return to her room and wait the men out rather than go in search of them. But Catherine was not fitted for idleness, at least when she had nothing to read, and so rang for paper and pen that she might write letters.
"I suppose the family are very occupied?" Catherine asked as the girl started to leave.
"The general was still out walking, and the doctor only waited his return to set out." She had not seen Mr. Henry Tilney; she knew for certain her master had walked out alone. It was very exceptionable to have his routine upset, he would not change it for anything, and no one expected him back soon.
Catherine marvelled that even a person she already believed to be uncaring could be so unsympathetic. "But has Mr. Tilney, that is Mr. Henry Tilney, really not been seen at all?" she asked.
The girl could not say, she had been kept busy with other concerns, but she could show the lady to his quarters if it pleased her. Catherine assented to this plan, and felt only a little foolish when led to the very one she knew had been his while still a bachelor. Still, she told herself, it was better to ask for guidance than furtively whisper at each like an errant child, especially as the maid's own firm knock brought no reply.
"He's likely still abed, ma'am," was her knowing advice, and as this knowledge came from serving the elder brother for the past fortnight it is not surprising she should offer such a theory.
But Catherine could not agree. Her husband and she were both of a morning disposition: if not overly early, then at least once the sun had risen. Even accounting for yesterday's tribulations she could not believe he would choose to lay in slumber half the day in the abbey, not after his strong words about leaving promptly. He would
want
to be waken, she was sure, and so turned the knob to enter.
Once inside she felt a sudden coolness despite the weak fire, which sputtered in its attempts to properly warm the space. She soon discovered the culprit to be a window blown open and went to shut it, discovering as she did where rain had been let in the night before. Puzzled and concerned, she turned to the bed, and found Henry sprawled in a tangle of dirty sheets and tossed blankets. Startled by his lifeless appearance, she reached a hand down to his brow and gasped at how hot it felt, and sought to rouse him without success.
Calling the maid back, Catherine asked her to fetch the doctor. "He is quite ill: get fresh water and some cloths, and something for him to drink." She forgot any compunction against trespassing on the house's regime in alarm for her husband, and barely noticed as the girl hurried away. She tried to pull the coverlet back over Henry but he refused it, albeit unroused by Catherine's entreaties.
Without knowing what else to do, she decided to get him more comfortably settled, and heedless of her borrowed clothes propped up the pillows, straightened the sheets, and manoeuvred him into a better position of rest. There was an unnatural flush on his cheeks, and she could not tell whether they were dampened by sweat or rain. In desperation she pulled out a handkerchief and began cleaning his features, again pleading with him to wake.
He opened his eyes a little, but they were glassy and unseeing, so that Catherine had to take his hand when he started to toss about. "Henry, it is me, I am here," she spoke in clear, even tones. "Please, will you not say something?"
"Catherine?" and for the first time he appeared to wake, his voice low and dreadful, then broke into coughs that forced him to turn on his side with their severity.
She could not have stood the scene a moment more and was never more thankful for an intrusion as when the door opened, bringing the maid back with the man she assumed to be the doctor. He identified himself as the same and apologized for not coming sooner. "He had not realize there were two patients: was young Henry injured in yesterday's misadventure as well?"
"No." Henry struggled to sit up. "I have none to treat, you must see Frederick."
Catherine would not let this bald falsehood stand. "But you are not well!" and turning to the physician, "He was out all yesterday in the damp air searching for his brother, and suffered a terrible fall trying to rescue him. He then rode the full way here and saw to everything; I am sure he has a fever."
"It is just the fire made overhot."
Before Catherine could commit further denials of her husband's veracity the doctor himself intervened. "I am afraid I must agree with Mrs. Tilney: there is very little fire, and you look as if you have some bruises. Now, hand me your wrist, I will need to take your pulse."
Henry looked recalcitrant but obeyed, and Catherine anxiously watched as the man's countenance sunk. "Thready and weak," he murmured, then seeing how ardently he was watched, recommended that Mrs. Tilney might like to wait for the examination to be finished in more pleasant surroundings.
"No!" Catherine cried just as Henry agreed, and she sat on the bedside with firm determination. "I will not interfere, only do not send me away. I must know how he is. Please, though, might he have something? Henry, are you not thirsty?" Coughs interrupted whatever he might have said, causing Catherine to not wait for anyone's permission but serve him herself, taking the glass from the surprised maid and helping her husband to drink.
"As to that," the doctor replied, "I will not force you to leave, of course. Ah, a cold compress should indeed help, did you think of that Mrs. Tilney?" At her assent he readily allowed her to apply them liberally on her husband's dazed person. His estimation of the young lady rose as she gave full and complete intelligence to his questions, never once shrieking or breaking into hysterics, all the more impressive when considering her share in what had transpired.
He examined his patient thoroughly, probing along his side, and at one point commanded Henry raise his arms. Catherine was alarmed at how difficult this simple order proved, and when she tried to assist he could not help an exclamation of pain. The doctor did not look surprised. "As I feared, you seem to have suffered several sprains, which will take a good time to heal properly."
This news distressed Catherine greatly, causing Henry to attempt to rise again despite the effort. "I am sure a bit of rest at home will set me to rights." His voice still held a grey timber, and Catherine noted how bright his eyes were, how fitful his movements, so unlike him that she insisted he lay back down.
"I must agree with Mrs. Tilney: you are in no condition to travel at this time. Apart from your injuries, which are not unserious, I fear you may have contracted a case of pneumonia, which will delay your healing if not treated. I think a bath and clean things should be the first order of business, after which we can start a regime of diet, letting, and rest."
"Just how long do you expect me to stay?"
"I am sure you cannot expect to get up before three days at least, not until we have got this fever under control."
"I will write to Mr. Jones and let him know to prepare for Sunday," Catherine immediately offered, "and the parsonage, that they may not expect us."
Again Henry looked ready to demur but could not keep his posture as he began coughing again, and it took both the doctor's and Catherine's combined efforts to prevent his collapsing. The maid was sent to get fresh linens and a bath drawn. It was none too soon when more servants arrived to receive the doctor's instructions, for Henry had once again subsided into delirium. It frightened Catherine to see her usually strong husband so traduced; and commending Henry to their ministrations, she retreated to afford them space to work, wishing she had something to do besides walk the gallery and pray for restoration.
She had made two full circuits of the passage, each turn like the poetic compass obliquely run back to where she had begun, and was on the point of a third when a man approached: General Tilney demanded the presence of his son downstairs. This summons, though intimidating, seemed an answer to her petitions as it afforded her some means of assisting the physician, if only by preventing an interruption. Resolved to do everything in her power to see her husband made well, she announced that she would attend in his place, and followed after the servant with tremulous steps.
Posted on 2021-10-11
Chapter 11
Since her marriage Catherine had only seen General Tilney twice; in both instances she had been with her husband and their relations, and not required to speak at all. This time marked her first return to Northanger Abbey since being summarily dismissed from it during her courtship, and she felt all the old horror rise in her as she entered the parlour, scene of so much joy and pain mixed in her memory.
The general himself stood as impressive as she remembered, and she barely had time to drop into a curtsy before he demanded to know why his son had not obeyed. Catherine rose and explained in a low voice that he was unwell and could not attend. "But I have come and may answer any questions. I have been telling the doctorâ"
He interrupted before she could go into details. "The doctor? That explains
his
delay, I expected Morton to present a full report upon my return. Henry has no pretext for stalling: I spoke to him last night, and he was fit as ever." He ordered the presence of both gentlemen post haste. "And show this person out."
"No!" Catherine exclaimed, and running to the door stood in front of it, baring the way. "Henry is very ill and must not be moved. I will not hear of it."
Her abrupt movement stopped the man, who looked back to his master in indecision. Catherine followed his glance and recognized that she had only thought the general looked angry before; fury now wreathed his features to the point that she flinched, a thousand horrid descriptions from different novels coming to mind and none fully encompassing the weight of such a look.
"
You
have no right to give orders; this is not your home, and however you are allowed to run wild over in another parish, such behaviour will not be tolerated here. Now stand aside: I will see to things myself." So saying he marched forward.
But Catherine would not budge, instead standing as straight and tall as she could, clutching her borrowed skirts but otherwise betraying no sign of her distress. Not even did she step back when he came right on top of her, barely stopping before he trod upon her feet. She realized how foolish she had been to shrink and fall back before the captain: the present scenario was worse, much worse, for she knew what the general was capable of and believed in that moment he might actually push her aside. Still she would not move, nor look away, though her heart raced within her.
They stood staring no more than a few inches apart. "You dare defy me? You are not fit to wear those clothes, not even to claim a viscountess's charity, and certainly possess no right to prevent a father seeing his son no matter how stupid and delinquent his conduct."
This insult prompted a gasp of disbelief. "Henry has done nothing wrong!"
"But he has. The proof is before me."
Tears threatened to spill, and she blinked to hold them back. "If you must find fault then you may blame me, though I had no intention to trespass: I never claimed to belong to this house or deserve it."
The man before her smiled, and it was terrible to behold. "There is a small mercy, and the only reason you carry our name: you were too unimportant to argue over. It is by
my
forbearance that you ever gained admittance to this family, but I will not suffer any more of your machinations. Henry is more fool than I thought if he thinks to hide behind a woman rather than face me. Do not think I am ignorant of what has occurred: the thinnest of excuses offered for a job given him weeks ago, then he claims a calvary officer could not control his horse? I can see through these feints well enough, and a word with Frederick confirmed exactly who is responsible for his condition. Now, you will either move aside or be moved; I will not be gainsaid further."
Catherine knew her powers to resist were few, and in despair replied, "But you are mistaken! Henry is not to blame for the captain's injuries: rather
he
is made wretched for rescuing his brother. How can you be so monstrously deceived?"
"You dare accuse Frederick of lying!"
"Yes!" Fury giving her boldness, she was barely aware of herself as she stepped forward nearly into the general's arms, so that
he
retreated a step. "I do not know what has been said but it cannot be true. Henry only wished to do what was right: he was hurt trying to get them both out of the pit the captain had fallen into, then gave up his coat and even preserved his horse! How can you be so cruel as to doubt him? Do you not realize how good he is, who might shun his brother for acting so wickedly and offering insult in every way, and yet risked his life to save?"
She had begun to shout and now was required to stop for breath. The general no longer towered over her, but instead appeared too astounded to respond, though still in a fury. Embarrassed at the scene she had caused, she nevertheless held her head high.
"As Mr. Tilney's wife I have a duty to him, which I owe above any other party. I will not intrude any further than where he will recover, and promise to return these clothes as soon as mine are ready, but I must insist that he not be moved until the doctor gives leave. I am sorry to be the cause of any further trouble." She then turned and nearly ran into the hall, not waiting for any further recriminations, and hurried back up the stairs before anyone else could detain her.
What courage remained momentarily faltered at seeing no one in Henry's chamber, and abandoned her wholly on someone calling her name. She was doubly relieved when the maid from earlier explained the gentleman had been moved to a room freshly made up for him, and on gaining it Catherine appreciated all that had been done: Henry lay on clean linens in a new nightshirt, with a compress and snug blanket completing the ensemble. He looked more peaceful though still wane and drawn, his eyes shut in repose.
"Where did the doctor go?" she asked, and was informed that he had gone to write further instructions for Mr. Tilney's care.
Catherine nodded, and took a chair to place beside the bed. "Please may I ask if he will see me again before he leaves? And discover if my clothes have been washed from yesterday? I should like to return the ones I was given."
The girl vouched she would find out, then quietly left the room. Catherine took hold of Henry's hand, still hot, and attempted to gain control of herself again. She marvelled she had spoke as she did, and prayed her recklessness would not sink them into even greater disapprobation. "I am sorry to have made him angrier, but not for defending Henry!" was her thought, and when she considered the slander spoken could barely regret her conduct.
When the physician returned Catherine asked that she might know everything needed to ensure her husband's recovery. "I do not plan to leave his side again, and I wish to make sure I understand what is required."
Her words were a surprise to the man, who assured her there were plenty in the house who might see to Mr. Tilney's needs. "But I will go over matters, that you may oversee his care," he added gently, and admitted to having administrated a tonic to induce the state of rest she now observed, detailed the foods he had prescribed, and most importantly that everything be done to keep his fever down. "I sent for a surgeon, as a good bleeding would likely cure all; alas, I fear the nearest is detained with work in the next town over, and it may be several days before he receives my letter. I have therefore written to the apothecary for the procurement of some doses to ease his sleep, which will be difficult if his cough remains strong. He should keep to his bed, and avoid excess talking or any exertions which will aggravate his lungs. I will be back in two days but may be summoned earlier if needed."
Catherine thanked him for his kindness. "I will make sure we follow your guidance; is there anything else I may do for him?"
"You are already doing much by staying with him. Many a patient of mine has been aided by the tender presence of family. You may wish to occupy yourself otherwise when he is asleep, but it will likely cheer him to have conversation or reading when he is able to enjoy it. Only take care he is not taxed unduly."
"Yes, of course," and she thanked him again so sincerely that the doctor felt obliged to give a little bow before taking his leave.
It was but a short time later that the maid brought her requested garments. Catherine lost no time in resuming her simpler, less fine attire, and begged the other be returned that instant. "I will not be staying in the room I had last night, but I would like the paper and pen I requested, that I might send some letters home."
These items were quickly brought her, and Catherine was soon at work writing notes to all the parties she could think of: the parsonage, the curate, even her sister the viscountess, who she was sure would wish to know all. It soothed her nerves to be able to lay out things so plainly, to people she knew to be sympathetic and kind.
When she had done she considered ringing for someone to take them down, but stilled her hand on considering matters: would the general allow her correspondence? And Henry looked so calm: what if another conversation, whispered or even at the door, were to wake him? She would not disturb his sleep for anything. Instead, she quietly slipped out, avoiding any and all persons who might be on guard against her movements, and stole down to the stable herself.
She found Will pacing in front of where the horses stood contentedly eating from their troughs, the dog at his feet. "Mrs. Tilney! Where is the rector?"
"On his sickbed," she answered, pressing her parcel into the startled boy's hand. "I have written explaining all, and need you to deliver these to the parsonage. Mrs. Forest will know how to address them. We are to stay here until Mr. Tilney is better. You should take the curricle back: you know the way, on the main road?"
He assured her he did and promised to discharge his duties faithfully; and wishing his master a speedy recovery, prepared to set off.
Catherine did not wait to see him leave but hurried back in, concerned someone might prevent her from returning to Henry's side if she dawdled. She had almost reached the stair when she considered how long it might be to wait, and how the doctor
had
recommended reading. Turning her steps, she stopped a passing girl in the hall, and asked after the other inhabitants of the abbey. After receiving assurances that the general and physician were still in conference in the formerâs private rooms, Catherine felt brave enough to trace her way to the library, furtively searching the shelves for anything which might be of interest; then crept back up with her treasure in hand.
She only breathed easier once in Henry's still somnolent presence. She decided to change the compress, as it no longer seemed cool, then after these ministrations sat and watched. His breathing sounded laboured, and his eyes occasionally flickered with activity, but otherwise he kept quite still.
Satisfying herself there was nothing further to be done, Catherine took up a volume of sonnets and lost herself in poetry.
Posted on 2021-10-18
Chapter 12
Had Henry merely dozed the next few days, unconscious and without knowledge of the world, Catherine might have been quite bored. She was not fitted for languor by nature or inclination, and was always happiest when she and her husband could find reason to enjoy the open air. An uninterrupted state of idleness, with only Shakespeare and Pope for company, might have sorely tried her troth to serve in sickness. She later reflected how wicked and ungrateful the heart of woman was: had she been spared any real affliction, she might have been provoked to frustration, or worse still, even been tempted to resent her husband for imprisoning her, albeit unwillingly.
For the truth is that while the long morning continued unabated with little in the way of distraction, the afternoon more than compensated for this respite. Henry's sleep grew fretful as the hours passed, his coughing returning in fits and starts, and though Catherine kept a steady regime of cool cloths upon him, his fever raged on. By the time the clock chimed three it could not rightly be presumed that Henry was resting at all. To Catherine's mind it seemed he barely breathed without also violently expelling that same air, with sounds that wrenched her heart as much as his own frame.
She had attempted to ask if he wanted something to eat, for he must be hungry, but it was all she could do to get him to drink the cup she pressed to his lips. He did not appear to understand her even when turning in her direction, the lucidity of the morning lost in whatever delirious state he inhabited, his voice low and unintelligible.
Another wife might have lamented the fate that made her nursemaid to her husband's ills. Catherine, though, was not such a person; as she had experience in treating sick brothers and sisters at home, she did not think it beneath her dignity to do the same for Henry. Indeed, she managed to spare a prayer of thanks that she was so close by, for however awful the experience was, ignorance would be worse still. At least she had the satisfaction of knowing he was relying on
her
. She revelled every time she was able to get more water in him, and grieved when she must clean up the mess made when he was unable to keep it down. She could not spare a thought for her own suffering while his continued.
This pattern lasted well into evening. Catherine did not think to ask a tray be prepared for herself, not even when the maid brought the doctor's prescribed plate of gruel and thin wine for the sick man. It did not look very appetizing to her, and she privately wondered if it was really a good thing for Henry. "Please, is there anything else cool he might have?" she asked.
But the girl was at a loss to answer, and only said she would look about as she replaced the chamber ware and supply of cloths. All too soon she took the dirty articles for cleaning. Catherine had no notion of directing she return after a certain time, or even to command that special things be sent for. She merely turned all her attentions back to her poor husband.
After some doing she managed to coax him into a sitting position. "You must eat something Henry," she said, taking up the bowl and spoon. It was not easy, as he barely seemed aware of what she was doing, but Catherine had not fed two sisters and a brother from infancy for nothing. She cajoled and guided, and was satisfied to see at least some of the bowl emptied before another fit interrupted their progress.
The drink at least helped, laced as it was with the medicinal drops, and Henry at last subsided into another nervous sleep. Catherine felt tired herself when he ceased tossing, and longed to lay beside him with arms wrapped protectively around, as he was wont to do after a trying day. Instead she dozed as she could, keeping a hand lightly pressed to his so that the slightest movement would alert her to his needs. It was only when she tried to read again that Catherine noticed how very dark it had become, and close upon that realization was another: that she had stupidly forgot to ask for a fresh candle.
That night was a long ordeal: brief snatches of rest followed by uncountable bouts of care. Sometimes she could only reach out to hold him still, and it seemed her murmurs did occasionally soothe his restlessness. All the while she reminded him of her presence, promised she would not leave him, and prayed he would recover enough of his senses to realize it. For pressed close she occasionally heard him call for his sister and once for someone else; she did not recognize the appellation but thought it might have been his mother, though dead for so many years. "And how awful if he should fancy himself all alone, with no one to care for him."
It did not surprise her that the name of Henry's father never passed his lips.
Morning brought the maid with fresh supplies. The girl was shocked to discover the lady in the same position as she had been in yesterday, mussed and beleaguered. "Are you unwell too, ma'am?"
Catherine shook her head, but could not keep a sigh from escaping. "I am very hungry," she admitted. "But I do not require much; only, is there some fruit I might have?"
The girl said she would return with something; it was of the same tone as yesterday's promise, so that Catherine did not bother hoping for relief and turned instead to the task of once again getting sustenance in her husband.
He seemed more coherent, if still weak, and readily accepted her spoonfuls. Catherine could not tell if he actually felt cooler or if it was merely a trick of her mind, but decided to press water to him regardless and was happy to see him drink it without mishap. His coughs were farther apart, and he slipped back into sleep without nearly as much resistance. Almost she could be persuaded of his recovery.
She had just begun to tidy up from this light repast when the maid returned with the housekeeper, who asked that Mrs. Tilney step outside for a discussion. Catherine reluctantly did so lest any whisper interrupt her husband's hard-won rest, and found herself solicited to leave her haven permanently. "Surely the young lady wished to change, and get some rest herself in another room: it was for them to make sure the master was fed."
Catherine was so out of sorts she nearly asked if that were the case, where they had been all this time. But she contented herself to reply that she was happy where she was.
The maid looked of a mind to disagree but the housekeeper ordered her to set about the morningâs cleaning, and waited until they were alone to speak again. "You are very good to attend your husband. But I am sure he would not want you to grow ill caring for him. Will you not repair to the neighbouring room? I promise to remain here, and you will be able to hear if there is any change."
"I am grateful for your concern but I have vowed to keep to this chamber, and I must keep my word. I only asked for a little something to eat, but if that is not allowed I will not trouble about it."
This speech, delivered without martyrdom or coyness, astonished the other woman so that she could not find any further arguments, and when the maid came out with her burdens the lady was able to make her escape back into the room unmolested. It did not occur to Catherine to find a champion among the household, or to use her position in any way that did not directly tie back to regaining Henry's health. Rather foolishly, although based on hard experience, she did not think there were many in the abbey of warm feelings, and certainly could not believe one among them would resist whatever miserly plot the general might design for his second son.
After another hour had ticked by the housekeeper returned, this time asking if the lady would please accept the food she brought. Amazed and dull with fatigue, Catherine readily accepted, and fell onto the meal with more vigour than her earlier words might have foretold. This absorption meant she barely noticed the other's work until finished, when glancing up she saw a small cot setup in the corner of the room. Seeing her looks, the older woman smiled. "The lady looked much better after a meal, would she be willing to lay down a bit?"
There was a suggestion in Catherine's mind that she ought not to violate the spirit of her promise to keep by Henry's bedside, conscious as she was of his murmurs and worried it betrayed a turmoil of the mind as well as the flesh. But her constitution, though hearty, was unused to this fatiguing work, and she decided it could not signify to be separated from him by a few feet. "And he is sleeping soundly enough, he may be more comfortable if I do not hover over him," was her lucky recollection. She thanked and dismissed the housekeeper, and though dubious of her ability to sleep when her nerves were so keyed, fell into a repose nearly as soon as she had lain down.
When she awoke it was midafternoon, and after assuring herself Henry looked no worse (even if he also appeared no better), was glad of the refreshment her nap provided. Though as the day appeared as fine as the one before, she was disappointed not to indulge in a walk about the grounds.
The housekeeper checked on her by and by, and Catherine felt encouraged to ask for candles and more writing materials. "And, would it be possible, when Mr. Tilney's tray was brought, for it to have a bit of honey added? She was sure the doctor could not object, and it might aid him in receiving his nourishment better." All was provided without question, to Catherine's great relief.
Unable to consider what else to do, she settled on more letters, and found herself penning one to her husband, an activity not practised since the period when her engagement had been a private affair, known only to their families. In doing so she found release for her emotions, unable to be voiced to the slumbering form before her, and found that like many such activities, time apart had not diminished its attraction nor distinction.
When the trays were brought Catherine ate her breakfast quickly, wishing to preserve what rest her husband still enjoyed as long as possible. She was sure his colour was much better, and though still warm his flesh was not as fiery as it had been. These encouraging signs lightened her spirits as much as her earlier rest, and she wished she could avoid waking him altogether. But she would not risk his recovery by foolish inattention to the doctor's instructions: Henry's strength must be kept up.
He startled at her touch and call with a motion more alert than any in the past day, and she felt she had never been happier than when he looked directly at her with a question of "Catherine?"
Posted on 2021-10-18
Chapter 13
When Henry Tilney awoke in a strange bed, with little awareness of how he had come to be there nor knowledge of where he was, his only comfort was to find his wife close at hand. Why she should appear sitting nearby rather than reclining with him was a pretty puzzle, as was the reason for their arriving at this unknown location. But Henry found it curiously difficult to express these concerns, and was forced by both the dryness of his tongue and disordered nature of his thoughts to compress all inquires into the one simple utterance of her name.
The joy with which he was answered, the raptures spoken in his own namesake, were almost shocking to him, and he nearly laughed at how eagerly she took his hand. He meant to observe that any man must be glad at such a welcome, with perhaps a sly allusion, but again his wits failed him, while his throat betrayed his intentions by turning his mirth into a heaving cough.
"You must not speak, you are not well. But I have some things that you must eat. Will you have it now?"
Recovering himself enough to turn back to her warm gaze, Henry was able to take in more of his surroundings, including a tray and the cookery contained on it. He knew that design, and upon further observation, realized he knew the fireplace and curtains beyond them. They all belonged to Northanger Abbey.
With that revelation the veil slid from his memory, and he nearly groaned in recalling how and why they came to be there. "It must be very late," he said, trying to trace back exactly what had last occurred. "Have you been here all this time?"
"Yes, but I have been very well treated by the servants; now, please, will you have some breakfast?"
Henry attempted to rise but felt strangely weak, only managing to prop himself against the pillows so carefully arranged for him. An unfamiliar lassitude hung on his limbs, accompanied by a dull ache that strengthened its hold with his movements. At a third entreaty he realized Catherine was still asking him about the food.
"Of course," he replied unthinking, and reached for the bowl she held.
Or at least he meant to. He was alarmed to feel so little vigour in his limbs, and when he at last managed to stretch out his hand found he could not grip either spoon or bowl without a palsy, so that she gently took them back before he could spill anything. Dropping his arms in frustration, he panted, tired beyond what he could understand.
"Do not fret Henry, I will feed you again."
"Again?" was what he wanted to ask, but he could only manage a croaked assent as his wife tenderly brought the spoon up, helping him gulp down a strangely sweet concoction that soothed his throat, even as it did nothing for his palette.
He insisted on trying to drink without assistance, and held the glass by sheer force of will only to surrender it back after a few sips when his strength could not bear out. Why he should shiver when the room was so warm was beyond his ken, and dark suspicions haunted him as Catherine put the tray down and brought a handkerchief out to wipe his face. Men who were young and hale did not lose all their strength after one day's hard labour, nor from any slight malady. Fear smote him but he shoved it down in annoyance. He must be rational. Reaching for any sense of normalcy, he realized he had no concept of what time it was.
"Thank you," he managed to speak at last, as she finished her ministrations, "but my dear, surely you should return home now? Will is full able to take the main road."
"I sent him back already. Are you too warm? Or do you wish to be covered?"
"Butâ" Henry had many protests wound in that one word, and found he had accepted a blanket and cool cloth before he could order his thoughts properly again. "You cannot wish to stay here."
"I wish to be with you. Now, as you are awake, I will be glad to read aloud if you like. It is not our usual material but I have found some things I think you will enjoy."
Henry shook his head, desperate to make sense of the situation. "But the hour grows late: and I did say we would leave today. And were you not planning to help Mrs. Stanton?"
He was proud to have remembered as much, so unreliable had his mind felt during this interview, and could not understand the concern coming from her gaze. "But Henry, that is not possible any more."
"Certainly: it looks as if there is plenty of daylight left."
"I mean that she will have already made other arrangements, or perhaps has circulated the alms already, considering the needs brought on by this latest storm; with her son's shop closed early tomorrow there will be no shortage of assistance if she still requires it. And besides, I am not leaving you, so there is no need to discuss it further. Please, you must rest your voice."
While not clever, Henry's wife was not in general deficient of understanding, and he begged to know why she thought the family would change their routine this week.
"But Henry, you know they spend Saturday afternoon getting all their own concerns of the week finished, for they always attend both church services," she reminded him anxiously, her tone suggesting he ought to know these things.
Irritably, he demanded to know why she sought to push the week forward by a day, which caused her eyes to widen in concern. "But Henry, it is Friday evening now."
Anyone else he would suspect of deception or cunning. It was certainly the sort of trick his brother or schoolfellows might have practised. But his wife was fidelity itself, honest above all else: if she told him the sun was to rise at night and the moon watch over the day, he would be forced to consider the probability of a new cosmic order. As it was, the news that he had lost over twenty four hours in his recollections was no less shattering to his composure. He begged her tell him more, and though she looked uncertain explained how he had fallen into a fever, with orders not to stir or exert himself until after the doctor had examined him again. "You have been very, very ill," was her solemn conclusion.
This information was not as complete as Henry could wish. "But what had occurred in the household? Had the doctor spoken of Frederick? And what had his father said at their remaining longer?" This last question was chief in his thoughts. He could not imagine the man was pleased to continue sheltering them unprepared, and he feared Catherine may have been forced to endure cold empty speeches or veiled threats during the hours passed.
"I do not know, no one has informed me. I have barely spoken to any besides the housekeeper, and did not think to ask about your brother. But I will find out, if that will ease your mind: you must be very worried about him."
Fraternal affection was not chief in Henry's concerns; indeed, provided the other man was in no real danger, he could happily wish him as much misery as Henry himself felt at present. "But did the general not say anything about it?" Knowing how Frederick's accounting of his own conduct could differ mightily from any observer's, he was sure some comment had been made to Catherine, whose distress must be acute and for whom alone his anxiety was felt.
"Only that he blamed you for his situation, but I did not allow such a falsehood to stand."
"I cannot imagine my father was happy with this refutation."
"No."
Henry waited for any further discussion of rage or bitterness endured, but Catherine only reached down and picked up a volume. "Now, what would you like to hear? I have been going through some very lovely sonnets, and marked those I thought to share. I have never before appreciated how pretty they really are, though I know you have told me so in the past. I believe I am coming to appreciate poetry as much as flowers."
She had already opened the pages before he could stop her. "I would rather hear exactly what was said to you."
"It very little signifies. I must confess I expressed myself very warmly, I am a little ashamed of it."
Coming from his most forgiving wife, this admission sounded to Henry as if there had been a great deal that signified. She frowned, obviously troubled by her conduct, and he reached out a hand to soothe her, frowning himself when he could barely manage to do more than let it hang limply onto the book she had opened.
Rather than laughing at his inability, Catherine took the hand in her own, as if he had actually achieved the feat himself. "Do not think I am upset. If we had not discussed things at the start I might have felt obligated to join him for dinner or at different times of the day; as it was, by his own order I have been able to remain by your side undisturbed. It is just like your sermon on Providence mending our mistakes for our benefit."
He wished he could remember exactly which sermon she was referring to, for he was hard pressed to determine how anything that involved his father once again causing his wife discomfort could be considered a providential act. His cheeks grew hot with a heat that had nothing to do with fever. "But do you mean you have been in this room, with me, the whole time? Without anyone to serve you at all?"
"Please do not grow upset Henry, you will make yourself worse. Here, will you not have some more water?"
A shake of the head was all he could manage, and even that action doubled the pain in his neck and shoulders. Catherine sat watching him with anxious eyes, and he saw her hair hanging loose and untended on her shoulders, in the same garments she had worn yesterdayâor rather, as Catherine claimed, the day before,âand surrounded by a small nest built from the detritus of her activity while he lay in idle slumber. It was a picture from a story book, and would have made him laugh in other circumstances, did he not feel so very furious at the author of it.
"I am sorry to have made you angry."
"
You
have done nothing wrong." He managed to vent his feelings at last, gasping to express himself while still possessing the wit to do so. "It is entirely the fault of others. And I will not sit by and see it done." So saying, he reached down to push himself up, envisioning a return to that awful study to proclaim exactly what he should have the other night.
But he was stopped from testing the limits of his strength by Catherine's own strong arms, and was amazed when she stood above him, no longer nervous, but outrage escaping her visage. "Henry Tilney! You will not stir one step from that bed!"
"Catherineâ"
"Do not say you are well, or unharmed, or any of the other lies you have uttered."
He could not recall her ever accusing him of an untruth before, even when he had been guilty of misleading her. Nor had she ever turned such ire on
him
.
"I am sorry to call it so, sorrier too when you are so weak and cannot defend yourself, but you did lie. You claimed not to be ill, and to need no aid, when all the time you were sinking deeper into a fever. And after you agreed to rest when we arrived, you did not! Whatever your father has said or done is nothing to
that
: you do not know the terror I have known; by not admitting your pains, I have entertained the worst premonitions of your health. Henry, I thought you might be dying!"
Such a tirade had never fallen from her lips to his ears, not aimed at him, and he felt the righteousness of his wrath dissolve at the accusation. His own fears returned, and he wished he could rise and assure both of them they were unfounded. Henry would not have blamed her for leaving at that moment, such was her obvious distress, and yet she instead closed the gap, sitting beside him on the bed and taking his hands in hers. "You must promise me now, truly, that you will do everything the doctor advises to get better. I know you only want to give me comfort, and that is what will bring me the greatest joy, if I know you are improving. Please Henry, will you give me your word?"
It never failed to impress him how sincerely she could believe in his virtue, even with the full acknowledgement of his own foolish behaviour. "Yes," he agreed. "And I am so very sorry to have made you suffer."
She kissed his hands, and smiled so lovingly it bid fair to outshine the sun's own glory. "I can endure anything so long as we are together. And you are so much better already: I know you will be much improved by the time the doctor sees you again. Thank you."
As a gentleman Henry felt he ought not to let her express gratitude for improvement he might not be able to achieve; as a clergyman he wondered whether it was altogether right to allow such unbridled optimism. But as a man, and one desiring more than ever to give his wife whatever relief was possible, Henry would not gainsay her for the world. Let us not judge too harshly, for how many could offer any rebuke to the kindness expressed? And were he in his better senses, might not a Henry Tilney appreciate the duties owed charity freely given?
For the present, he resigned himself to receive the grace of a Catherine Tilney without question, as ever fully dependent on her goodness when his own well ran dry. He accepted her offer of reading, and thereafter was rewarded for his submission with tender words of regard as penned by our greatest poets, spoken by one of the few who might truly mean the words therein.
Posted on 2021-10-25
Chapter 14
It was a much happier evening for Catherine and Henry both, though the lady might have been more grateful for the change in circumstance than the gentleman. She was able to appreciate every conscious action, every look and gesture, with the knowledge of just how much progress had been made. For his part, Henry was glad not to feel a complete invalid, as he was at least sensible to the world around him rather than buried beneath drugged or fevered dreams.
Yet this very alertness only made him more sensible of the infirmity still keeping him bound to his sickbed. He could not quite order his thoughts to his liking, and was ashamed when his wife needed to repeat herself before he understand what was asked of him. For a man who prided himself on always having a ready reply to any situation, this imbecility was galling. Still there were other miseries to distract him from injured pride. As he remained awake the soreness of his shoulder and back increased; the slightest movements aggravated his limbs, and even when Catherine helped him adjust his position he could not keep a gasp from escaping his lips. Then there were his coughs, which crept back upon him as daylight waned. At first he tried to stifle them, but eventually was unable, helpless to do more than accept Catherine's assistance as he fought to breathe.
Through these trials she never wavered, never even appeared tired. Somehow she was always able to anticipate his needs: he had only to look and she was fetching him a drink, or distracting him with reading or a recounting of her last letter from her family. "How miserable she must become," was the suggestion which occurred to him when he felt at his lowest. And yet since her outburst she had been nothing but comforting, a cheerful sprite keeping him company through the valley of the shadow of death.
Morbidity and depression were not natural to Henry's disposition; he believed in laughing at trouble instead of worrying over it, and enjoyed satire better than tragedy. However it would be either a very brazen or foolish man not to consider his own mortality at such a point. Once or twice in the night Henry wondered if perhaps his wife had practised on him, hiding the full extent of his injuries out of pity. Even when he sunk to such maudlin reflections, though, Henry was unable to fully believe them: what logic he was able to marshal counselled against it, and where rationality failed, his reliance on Catherine's honest nature furnished the argument. She would never knowingly deceive him, of that he was certain: so long as she believed he would improve, he must at least make the attempt.
These happy thoughts allowed him to finally fall asleep of his own accord, so that he awoke with full knowledge of his surroundings. It was such a relief to feel in command of his senses again that Henry smiled despite his discomfort.
Seeing how well he looked Catherine called the maid early, taking time to whisper most mysteriously before turning back to her husband.
"Are you taking advantage of my state to gain mastery of the home?" Henry asked, voice still weak but his wit back in full force. "Perhaps you are in league with a foul servant who has nursed a grudge against that young fool Henry for years, and who you have met while I dozed to assure that the time is nigh for your combined revenge."
He was pleased to find her still susceptible to his drollery, bringing first a startled glance and then a welcome touch of colour to her wan features, even as she warned against fatiguing his voice lest his coughing start again. It was a proper warning, for Henry did not wish a repetition of those torments, and so made do with an arch look to communicate the remainder of his feelings. When the tray returned it was the gentleman who was surprised, for beyond the expected medicinal gruel and drink was a dish of marmalade. Catherine smiled at his amazement as she took up her own bowl. "I do not think the doctor will begrudge you a little variation in diet; we have often had such treats when ill back at my father's home, and the honey you had yesterday appears to have done you good."
"O true apothecary thy drugs are sweet, as is thy visage. Thus with a kiss I live."
"I do not believe that is quite how the the line is written," was his wife's only reply, and she studiously ignored any hint to provide further signs of her favour than by helping him consume that which she had already procured.
When the maid returned it was to announce the much referenced man of medicine had sent word ahead, and was expected to make his foreshadowed entrance later that day. Henry was no less glad of this development than Catherine, and both looked to receive encouragement by his favourable report. In high spirits Henry could barely restrain testing his newfound joy for life, and when Catherine made to take up reading again, begged a play they might share instead of more verse. "But I do not think you should read any of it," was her concern as she looked through the volume, "for the doctor did say not to exert yourself."
"It cannot harm me to try a minor role. I believe it would in fact do me good, as exercise." At his wife's dubious glance, he retreated from further hyperbole, and bowed to her judgment in the matter. "I will only listen if you think it wise."
"Perhaps, if not a very large part," she admitted after consideration, "and you must let me know if you find yourself tiring."
He readily agreed, and when they had settled on
Twelfth Night
, next campaigned to read not only the sea captain, but all of the servants, messengers, and even the priest too. "For none of them appear often."
You or I might have gratified the earnest pleas of a stricken man dearly loved. It was fortunate for Henry that Catherine, as an oldest girl in a large family, had endured such needling before and was not so easily swayed. She refused to let him exert himself with so many different characters, saying he must be content with one, "and it may not be the Duke Orsino or Malvolio or Sir Toby," and at his saucy look, she quickly added to her list of prohibitions Viola and Olivia as well.
Therefore he had to content himself with Sebastian, a mere brother to the heroine and second rate lover, appearing late in the story and with few scenes or speeches to distinguish himself. Fortunately, he realized as the play progressed, there was plenty of room for embellishment. So it was that when rescued from the clutches of the sea, he rolled his eyes with exaggerated languor and attempted to make waves on his blanket with a wriggle of his toes.
Despite her stern preamble Catherine could not help laughing, encouraging Henry to race ahead in his mind to plan further amusement. When offered money by his rescuer, he threaded his fingers through hers, tickling them, as he promised to be her "purse-bearer," and managed a trumpeting call on agreeing to meet again at "the Elephant." It was difficult for Olivia to appear worried on her next entrance when she was so merrily distracted and murmuring "You must stop Henry" between lines.
The duel was a strain upon his genius but he had a lengthy interval to consider his course of attack, so that by the time they reached the fourth act Henry had gradually worked their joined hands to his lips. "Why, there's for thee, and there, and there," and the lady's heart would need be stone not to enjoy the felicitous means by which this Sebastian issued his challenge on each tender "there." Catherine was so entranced she forgot the fight altogether and turned the page early, denying Henry the opportunity to declare her a dream.
His disappointment did not last long, for he was able to indulge in a full soliloquy some scenes later. He began in mockery, bringing her to smiles again with raised brows and loud sniffs on the state of his sanity. But he did not let up his grip on her hand as she delivered Olivia's declaration of love, and gesturing for her to bring the book closer, got her exactly next to him as he declared he would "go with you; and, having sworn truth, ever will be true," gazing at her with as much ardour as a man on his sickbed could do.
Catherine was well and truly snared, and when she glanced at the next lines Henry managed to bring her head to rest beside his on the pillow, so she murmured nearly into his ear, "Then lead the way, good father; and heavens so shine, That they may fairly note this act of mine!"
She made to get up and turn the page, but Henry would not release his hold. "You have forgot a bit," he said, and when she began to read the last piece over, interrupted with: "It is a direction, not a word. For Sebastian and Olivia have just gone in to be married."
"Yet it only says
Exeunt
, I am sure I did not miss anything else."
"Ah, but my dearest Catherine, we must interpret what the text implies, for what new husband and wife would say their vows without also exchanging tokens of their affection?"
"They do not mention anything about rings; is that not in a different play?"
It was so blessedly normal for her to misunderstand him, to wish for him to explain, that Henry nearly prolonged her confusion out of sheer pleasure. But mindful that no joke should live beyond its time, he instead revealed his intentions. "Sebastian has no other token of his love but himself. Will Olivia deny him that which he so desires to give, when he has promised to be ruled by her?"
A mere look of encouragement was all Henry needed to bend forward, illustrating by deed rather than further argument what he meant, and neither Olivia nor Catherine could complain their husband was half-hearted in his adoration. It must be admitted the play suffered a little in its resolution, as Catherine struggled to regain any sense of the story. She dropped nearly the rest of the act in favour of hearing Sebastian once again speak his vows of betrothal, and somehow it was Henry who delivered Duke Orsino's final speech to a rapt Viola, and offer more proofs that music was not the only source of love.
With the conclusion of the play, however, the object of his affection closed the book, and rising, declared that he should now rest before the doctor arrived. "As you are feeling so much better, I will take the time to finish this letter to your sister."
Henry was sorely tempted to make some remark about her playing his sister, and whether Viola was as exact in her commands as Olivia, but only asked that she ensure the recipient know how very well he obeyed his mistress's orders, "for I have sworn ever to be true."
Catherine said he had spoken enough, and facing the window to catch the light on her paper, refused to do more than sneak looks in checking that he truly meant to honour her wishes. Which he did, in a far happier state of mind than he could have imagined that morning, and despite his high spirits, found himself drawn into a light repose ere long.
Posted on 2021-10-25
Chapter 15
The doctor's visit, so long anticipated, was not as satisfactory as might have been hoped. He was very complimentary of Henry's progress, pleased beyond measure to see the patient so improved, but looked grave on finding his pulse remained unsteady. A test of Henry's limbs confirmed they were still tender, and while the fever had dampened, it was clear his coughs stubbornly refused to abate.
"Mr. Tilney must not travel before the end of next week," was the pronouncement made after this examination, and no protests from his patient would be entertained. "We cannot risk your health, newly gained and fragile; and besides, a carriage ride even on the best of roads would be very difficult to endure in your present condition." Another sevenday would make all the difference, and he promised to return before then to monitor and check Henry's progress. It was allowed that light activity might be risked now that the worst had passed, with the recommendation of walking the length of a hall and back. Nothing too strenuous should be attempted at first, but only the barest means of restoring Mr. Tilney's strength. If he continued improving and suffered no setbacks, they might consider moving further about the house or even outside. "But steady and slow were the watchwords to obey: incremental improvement was to be sought more than rapid change. Any return of the ague must be treated directly, and then all activity suspended."
Catherine listened attentively, asking what questions she could think of to assure herself she understood what was required. "What did the the doctor think of his victuals? Could Mr. Tilney attempt anything more filling?"
Fruit was approved, and the doctor commended Catherine's judgment in providing her husband with cool supplements to his regime. "Nothing better for tempting a person to better health, and nourishing besides." Bread, butter, thin soup or vegetables were also on the menu, but beef or heavy fare should be avoided, and beyond the little wine already prescribed, spirits were taboo as well. He hoped the latter injunction would be no great hardship, for while it might provide some relief, too heavy drinking would be deleterious toward an honest measure of Mr. Tilney's health and tempt him to deeds beyond his actual abilities.
Henry promised to faithfully honour every stricture, and with so little complaint the doctor looked noticeably relieved. "I could wish all my patients were as obedient," he added.
"Is my brother causing difficulty?" was Henry's knowing response.
There the physician would not tell tales, only commenting that he understood active men like the captain must be unused to confinement. "It is no great surprise he should resent captivity, after all, and the loss of his leg, however temporary, must be a blow to a man kept from taking up his duty."
Catherine wondered if perhaps more irony was meant by the latter sentence than might be implied; it had never seemed to her that the captain was overly impressed with the need to perform any duty, whether to family or society. But she reproached this uncharitable thought. The man was to be pitied regardless of his behaviour, and however little his occupation might have engrossed him heretofore, any relief from current circumstances must be welcome. Perhaps it would be the start of a reformation of his character and if so, Catherine must be careful not to be unjust, regardless of his former sins.
"But is his injury still very bad?" she asked, determined to act the part of a concerned sister in the hope it might truly be so.
"I am happy to say it was a clean break and will mend well, and the quick attentions he received will be instrumental in hastening his return to health. I understand I must bow to you, ma'am, for aiding his rescue."
Catherine coloured and denied any great responsibility, pointing toward her husband as the true hero in the story. But said husband was not so ungallant as to accept praise where he felt it undeserved. "For it was Mrs. Tilney who knew to look for us when I had wandered afield, and her actions saved both our lives." He looked as if he might say more, but Catherine was so obviously embarrassed, he instead changed the subject, saying he was glad to hear his brother was in no mortal danger.
"In fact, he is in better shape than yourself," was the next admission, "for his fever abated almost in the same hour it appeared. He seems to have been spared the worst effects of the recent tumult, and has been so well situated that were it not for the actual injury itself, I would be glad to release him upon Monday."
What a trial this news was for Catherine! How much easier it was to pity the captain, and nurture better feelings toward him, when she could imagine the poor man afflicted like her husband. It hardly seemed fair that the principal author of their present misery should escape almost unscathed, and the temptation was great to refuse expressing any happiness at the news. She could not lie; she could not rejoice whole-heartedly, but did manage to acknowledge at last that "It was good God had been so merciful." Good indeed, she decided, that it was up to her Heavenly Father to determine such matters, and not so jealous a spirit as her own. There must be general agreement to so virtuous a declaration, and the doctor took his leave, hoped all would continue well, etc.
Catherine, who had followed him to the door, closed it with a deep heaviness of heart. She had dared hope, with Henry so improved, they might escape this terrible place. Now that she knew the reality it was difficult to confine herself to the smallness of a sickroom for the length of time described, separated from the comforts of the home she and Henry had built together since their marriage; in her anguish, even the mending pile was missed. She felt herself grieved and repented her ingratitude at the same moment, and struggled to keep her feelings from showing as she took up her place by the bed once more. It would not do for Henry's spirits to be further dampened by her weakness. Searching for any distraction, she picked up her letter again. "I have some space left here: do you have anything else for Eleanor before I send it off?" And she took up her pen, staring down at the paper to marshal her unruly feelings.
"Yes: tell her that our brother is a knave and a coxcomb who does not deserve the mercies he has been shown, and who in all likelihood will be unmoved either toward deep reflection or better feelings by this experience. You may further add that doctors are horrid men with no sympathy for their charges, and that kind-hearted ladies who have their heads turned by callow young men at assemblies are to be pitied above all others. Indeed, I think we should start a new epistle, and you may advise as a Christian matron to your unmarried sisters how best to avoid being unnaturally yoked to their less charitable brethren, instead devoting themselves to a life of quiet reflection and thoughtful study. Perhaps you might advise them on further reading materials for guidance: I think you are very fond of Mr. Mackenzie's works, did not your mother send you his most recent publication?"
At this last Catherine could not help starting up in protest: she was sure she had never claimed to prefer those works, even if her mother
had
procured her a copy, and she was about to argue the point further when she realized in chagrin that Henry had been only in jest, as she should have realized had her attention not been directed elsewhere.
"There, that is much better, I am sure I could not hope to survive the next week if I was always to be looking at the top of your head."
"I do not believe your sister would say you deserved to survive after that speech."
"Eleanor would say worse if you wrote any of what I just said, and would furthermore scold me for practising on your credulity at such a time. It was perhaps ill done: have I upset you, my dear Catherine?"
"No, not at all." For despite herself, Catherine felt her spirits lifted and could now smile at his impudence. "I know you were not serious, and only meant to make light of our troubles. I confess you did take me by surprise, for it sounded as if you were quite angry at your brother to begin with."
"Perhaps I am. The more I consider it the more I do not know how
you
are not, as the most grieved of the whole party." Here his tone changed, and eyeing her with real concern, asked "Would you not be more comfortable at Woodston? You see I am far from shaking off my mortal coil, and it will be very dull for you to remain bound to an invalid barely allowed to traverse the gallery beyond. You have already far exceeded any obligation required by your marriage vows."
It was a very pleasing suggestion, and had the curricle been within easy reach Catherine was not sure she could have resisted. But in recollecting the journey would require dependence on the general's generosity, and knowing how worried she would be without the means of assuring herself of Henry's improvementâfor she did not trust that anyone would think to send word to her if his health declined,âit was refused. "I hope you do not think I am so wayward as to need only the commands of duty to serve you."
"There are many superlatives to describe such a wife;
wayward
, being left off the list, must be supplanted by a better adjective. Perhaps we might substitute
steadfast
or
indomitable
? No? Will you accept
magnanimous
then? With five syllables it must be admitted to bearing some pretensions of approach, even if it is not truly nice enough to capture the person we seek to admire."
Catherine could not help laughing now, even as she had felt near to tears but five minutes earlier. "How can you always be so teasing Henry?" she asked, the puzzlement of her entire relationship with this man never fully understood.
He smiled as well at his success, and taking her hand in his with only the barest sign of discomfort, answered, "I hope I may always be able for so worthy an object. The day I cannot beguile fair Catherine out of her troubles will be a dark one indeed. I am not so ungrateful a ruffian as to take my responsibilities as husband lightly, you see."
"No, not lightly at all; but will you not add anything to the letter?"
"And prove I partake of my fraternal duties no less ardently than those of the marital variety? I suppose I must, if I hope to redeem myself in either your or Eleanor's eyes. It is certainly provoking to have so amiable a wife; how is a man to nurture resentment or give way to his temper with such an example before him?"
Catherine smiled but held her pen ready, and after Henry had dictated some lines assuring their sister of his improvement and giving his love, she declared he was as virtuous as he had made her out to be.
"I do not know if I deserve the compliment, but I will take it all the same, for the pleasure I choose to believe it gives you of my accepting. A truly virtuous husband would not accept either idle words or the sacrifice you offer to make this coming week; I am as out of patience with my own conduct as Frederick's when I think of it again."
"Then do not choose to think about it so much," was Catherine's artless advice, to which Henry smiled sincerely.
"A very good idea: let us avoid any talk of troublesome persons further, and content ourselves only with the pleasing notion of how pained Eleanor will be when she reads your first letter, followed so close at hand by the happy tidings we are now sending, that it will be as if the disturbance never occurred at all."
Banishing one relation from her mind, bound as he was to his bed and unlikely to cause further incident, proved easy enough to accomplish. But as Catherine completed her correspondence, with further instructions to the parsonage and parish regarding their continued stay at Northanger Abbey, the master of the estate weighed heavily upon her thoughts. It was out of the question for Henry to stir from the house on the morrow. But whether it was correct for her also to remain at home of a Sunday was doubtful. She could no longer claim he required her constant presence, and was not able to pretend that her reluctance to attend services was out of concern for him alone. Rather, if she were to obey the strictures of the commandments, and what is more, the expectations placed on a parson's wife, she must put herself in the general's presence once again. And not just for one interview; to do as she knew she ought, she must accompany him in his carriage, sit with him in the pew, and might even be expected to dine with him upon their return. This action could lead to even further penance, for by observing one meal with him she might rightly be seen as under obligation to share all as a daughter would.
How she wanted Eleanor at this moment, who had Henry's judgment but also the sympathy of a woman's position. If only she might receive an answer to her letter immediately and counsel from one with more experience than her own, unbiased by the present circumstances. Yet instant communication was not possible. Catherine must depend on her own understanding, and while she chatted with Henry the dilemma of how she should act was never far from her thoughts.
Posted on 2021-11-01
Chapter 16
The work of Catherine's pen was not the only correspondence to be shared, for scarcely had she sealed the envelopes then a maid brought letters fresh from Woodston, along with packages that were revealed to contain all the comforts the faithful Mrs. Forest could conceivably arrange: changes of clothes, favourite books, even Catherine's netting-box were all provided, along with calm assurances that the parsonage was well in hand and would be ready and waiting for their safe return, whenever that should be.
Also included was a short reply from the curate promising to lift them daily in prayer, as well as lead the entire parish to do likewise come Sunday. He was not eloquent, it must be admitted, but what he lacked in rhetoric was more than compensated for by a decent, dependable nature, so that his words were accepted with all the tenderness they were meant to employ.
"I am happy Jones has such an easy text to deliver on short notice: the second letter of John is straightforward enough, and is so brief he cannot help but finish on time." With this assessment Henry was content to trust the entire matter into the other's hands.
"Now, Catherine, you must take another room," was the next subject her husband broached. "You cannot be stuck within these walls for another week together, and you will become ill yourself without proper rest."
Here Catherine had no powers of resistance; she accepted the truth of his words not only from her own feelings but the idea that however much Henry appreciated her devotion, he might wish for some privacy during the remainder of his convalescence. As to her concern over the general's sensibilities, she had fairly well made up her mind that she must attempt some conference with the man that evening, unpleasant as the interview might prove, if only to satisfy the common forms. One could not remain in even so large a house as Northanger Abbey without acknowledging the host for an entire week.
Perhaps she should share her plan with Henry; he might instruct her on the best approach, and was likely to have many opinions on the nature of duties owed. But despite his cheerfulness, Catherine suspected her husband was more weary than he let on, and as the hours passed it became harder for him to disguise his yawns. Rather than expose him to further agitation, therefore, she decided to take all the responsibility of kinship upon herself. "And after all, it was I who spoke so rashly, and that at least must be made amends, if nothing else."
The housekeeper was very pleased to hear the young lady would retire to the adjoining room, which she had already prepared with the foresight of an experienced retainer, and Catherine allowed herself to be led away with a parting injunction that she be sent for if Henry should need anything. The servants lost no time in setting her to rights: her things were brought in, clothes laid out, all with steady assurances made that Mr. Tilney would be looked after with prompt regularity.
"Thank you; please, could you inform General Tilney that I am able to join him for dinner, if he is amendable?" For Catherine had always found it easier to do the right thing quickly rather than delay, and having made her decision was impatient to see its completion. If the housekeeper felt surprise at the request she hid it well as she engaged to deliver the news personally, leaving the more incredulous-looking maid a strict command to prepare Mrs. Tilney for the evening meal.
Whatever were Catherine's fears about the impending encounter, she was at least given the restoratives of a fresh bath and skilful hands to arrange her hair, which had become quite unruly from the previous days' neglect. Henry might have rejoiced to see her so relaxed under the influence of these kind attentions, and Catherine herself recognized that for all its faults, Northanger Abbey provided some benefits as well.
By the time the clock chimed again she felt ready to meet her father-in-law, her best available attire donned, skin cleaned, and excuses rehearsed. Only she had not been given permission to join him, and as the minutes ticked by could not help worrying that all her preparations had been in vain. Would the general keep her at bay in resentment? Was he even now planning how to take his revenge on her? What had occupied him the past few days, with his sons both abed and an arrant daughter defying him? Catherine's mind raced with suppositions, explanations, and conjectures, so that it was a relief when the summons finally came.
She went downstairs with growing trepidation, but held to the justice of her cause. It was only right she face whatever cross words the general presented. She would not let them discompose her: Henry was past danger, nothing could rob her of that peace, and if the price of his continuing so was the accommodation of their host's resentment, at least he had more right to those feelings than previously, for they would be aimed at the proper cause of her own rebellious conduct and not any imagined fault of her husband's.
The great hall was as grand as she remembered it, though not nearly as haunting or imposing as when she first walked its floor. Standing before the dining parlour was General Tilney. It was perhaps the light of the candles or the measure by which illness had transformed Henry's features, but for the first time she perceived some resemblance between their persons, so disparate in their respective dispositions as to almost deny it. The elder Tilney was looking at his watch, unaware of her presence at first, and with such a look as she had sometimes seen her husband use when concerned about an appointment. "But what could the general possibly be nervous about?" was the question that struck her just before he turned, and all likeness fled as he assumed a stern
hauteur
.
"Dinner is ready," he said without preamble, and while not offering his arm gave way for her to enter first, with all the formal correctness of a supper party.
It was a quiet affair at first, for Catherine was not sure how to start the conversation and the general seemed determined against it. Once or twice she attempted to compliment the surroundings or the food, but a fierce glance from her companion stilled her tongue. How marked a change from their earliest interactions, in the days when she had first been introduced as Miss Morland! She now recognized he had courted her, with far more obvious determination than his son then evinced. Their situations were now reversed: it was Henry, with greater sincerity and compassion, who sought her good graces, while the general lagged in the commonest courtesies. At least, she comforted herself, he did not appear angry at her.
They had just finished the soup when the general spoke at last. "I understand from Morton that Henry will be dependent on Northanger Abbey for another week." She was not sure if any reply was required, so only nodded her head in assent. "I did not think the case so serious. I have met with my solicitor, and we have been out to inspect where the river is diverted. This business of flooding and abandoned works is intolerable: it really must be addressed. I have told Greves so; I have had a great deal to do."
Again, she was not sure whether he wished her to speak or no, so she did him the courtesy of listening rather than attempting any reply. It was almost as if she was not in the room at all.
"I will not stand by and see such neglect. They will hear of it, they will not come off lightly in the matter. You need have no fear on that score."
Here Catherine felt he had actually addressed her, though she had no idea what he was talking about. In deference to his feelings she murmured a polite inconsequence, as much to express sympathy as any real comprehension.
"You understand, I see. Even
you
, it is so plain a matter. I am glad of it. They will be made to see reason. And if not, there is always the court of law, though there is nothing I despise more than legalities between neighbours. But if it must be, it must be. I will not have my sons incapacitated, and who knows what else on my land ruined, without mounting a counterattack."
There was a strange disturbance about his features; she had seen harshness there before, yet a something else was also present, and she was reminded of that unguarded look on her approach. She wondered, could the general be
worried
about his family? It did not seem so from his words: he talked on of suits, and countermeasures, and the necessity of seeing his rights enforced, with so much vigour that anyone would suppose his primary concern was the protection of his property rather than his family. A Catherine Morland would have been very perplexed to make out what he was trying to communicate.
Catherine Tilney was not necessarily better informed; but her experiences, both within this very house and as helpmeet in a not too peaceful parish meant she no longer believed matters were always as simple as she had formerly understood them to be. That the general was not a kind man she could not doubt, as much from his children's own admission as her observations; but further speculations as to his character were both unprofitable and unwise, and she did not hazard to guess what he meant beyond the plain words of his speech. Where there was uncertainty as to motive, Catherine had always sought to believe the best, even when so many had proven the reverse of her generosity. But the Gospels did not invite her to examine the ill behaviour of others when governing her own, and besides, she had already decided to grant Henry's father his due that evening.
"I suppose you have entertained yourself?" was the sudden question that caught Catherine out of her musings, and it was a moment before she regained sense enough to assure him that she had lacked for nothing.
"Hmm. I am told you have been offered every courtesy. You will of course inform me if anything is wanting."
"Yes sir."
They lapsed into another albeit different silence. It was almost as if the general meant for her to say something, but Catherine was not sure what it was. Did he wish her to complain? Was he merely looking for her to betray her worst feelings? She had already done that when they last parted. She certainly could not have anything to say about the law, which she little understood.
"You must be glad of the captain's prospects," was the happy remark she at last hit on, for surely he would celebrate as an officer if nothing else.
"Quite," was the short reply. "He has been very lucky." And then, "One is tempted to say
too
lucky, but it is best not to question fate who is so fickle a mistress, like all such women."
This comment was not of a kind to strengthen conversation on the lady's part, and Catherine despaired of finding any common ground between them. Every potential topic was either forbidden or impossible; the usual role she took in her husband's witty dialogue would not do with his father, and she felt her ignorance in attempting to understand what would please. Rather than deplore her position Catherine only considered how amazing it was that Eleanor had endured a similar one for so many years, and how good a brother Henry was to have kept her company as long; it was wonderful to know that after so much patient submission, their sister now possessed a peaceful home and a husband nearly as good as Catherine's. These welcome reflections allowed her to listen without comment to the rest of General Tilney's talk, with insinuations so subtle she could not hope to recognize them, and therefore did not bother trying.
When the meal was done the general stood and she did likewise, wondering if he would demand her company in the parlour. "You must be very tired," was his comment instead, and when she agreed, excused her with a terse command that she be provided with a lamp.
It would have been very easy to let matters rest at that, constrained but civil, yet Catherine must satisfy the strictures of her conscience. "Thank you for your kindness," she said, dropping into as proper a curtsy as she could devise. She did not look up to see the general's reaction, too nervous was she over what might be found, and instead quickly continued, "And for your forbearance, for Henry's sake. He is much improved; the doctor has been so good. I am sorry I have not been more grateful. I will be glad to make amends."
It was not near as pretty a speech as she had planned, rushed and breathless and made looking more at his shoes than his person. She was sure he must be insulted by her lack of refinement.
When there was no response she dared glance up. The general was staring at her with a look she could not name, his eyes more cold and removed than ever. "The carriage will be ready after ten. See you are properly dressed." And with that she was dismissed.
After she had checked to see that Henry was sleeping well and retired to her own room, it occurred to Catherine that she had not actually
asked
the general to take her to church as intended. How clever he was to read into her words, as Henry sometimes claimed to. It struck her that, however little the gentlemen shared in taste or principals, they must have some resemblance after all. This observation explained much she had sometimes wondered about in her husband's manners. What it could tell her about the general's remained to be seen.
Posted on 2021-11-01
Chapter 17
The next morning was fair and cool, removing the last hindrance to her fulfilling the appointment made yesterday. Helped by the maid, she made her preparations without delay and went to check on Henry before going down to the breakfast parlour.
He was awake, and looked so delighted to see her that it was difficult to explain they must part as quickly as greet. "For I am attending morning service with your father. I hope you will not want for anything while I am gone."
He could not mask his surprise upon hearing who she meant to leave with, a feeling that only increased when she described her conversation the evening before. "Even so," he began, and was sorely tried to find an argument
against
anyone of healthy body and willing soul practising their religion, which had previously been the study of his profession to encourage.
"Do not worry: he was not too difficult. I will manage. It is nothing. And I must be prompt."
"Yes, he is a very exacting chaperon. I see you mean to force your idle husband to pray even when he is released from his duties."
"But you would have prayed anyway, as a good Christian. I will come speak to you when I return; I trust you will have a peaceful morning."
She allowed him to wish her the same, then quickly retreated lest her courage falter. Downstairs she ate alone, as rapidly and quietly as possible, so different from how she and Henry normally spent Sunday mornings before driving in his curricle to Woodston's church.
Upon finishing she made her way to the hall, waiting with nervous fidgets, unwilling to risk tardiness by straying from the spot, and so remained at her post a full half hour before the gentleman was seen. He looked her over in silence, then nodded and offered his arm. They were soon in the carriage, and upon their arrival Catherine was immediately escorted in by the general, who held her in so firm a grip she felt nearly dragged into the building.
Sitting in the family pew recalled her to all the sensations and morbid fantasies that had assailed her when originally come to this place over a year ago. At first she was resolved not to look at the memorial to Henry's mother, sure that seeing it again would overpower her with shame. Between the call to prayer and the readings, though, she felt comforted enough to turn in that direction. Contrary to her fears, she did not feel pangs upon seeing it in full; its eyes did not appear to accuse her from their marble placement, nor did she flush scarlet or cry aloud in confession. Catherine, now a rector's wife, and one previously exposed to the vagaries of parish arrangements in her father's home, could appreciate the fine epithets and graceful statuary for what they were. Though it could not be a very joyful thing to see every Sunday; she herself was glad Woodston had no such carvings to haunt its inhabitants. She was sure it had brought no comfort to the lady's children. But then, she decided, it had not been purchased for their sakes. Glancing at the general beside her, she could not discern that he observed it at all, and yet he must have been the author of its design. Catherine puzzled through the homily and the creeds, and as she rose, coming once more into view of the cross beyond their box, thought that generals and soldiers must have a very different view of things than ladies and country parsons, even those who were related to each other.
"For I have never truly seen death; that must make a difference." And she received the benediction with the relief of a Bartimaeus freed from blindness, for now all the oddness she had observed and been so terrified of must arrive at some explanation. It did not fully excuse General Tilney's actions; she did not go so far as to consider want of feeling or threatened cruelty tolerable. But it was rational. It could be understood. It might inform not only her own dealings with these quicksilver relations, but also her husband's lot as a son and brother. Considering how close she had come to gaining their experience with that enemy of the resurrection, she was full of gratitude at her deliverance, and it is probable there was no more heartfelt amen than her own.
As they left the church there were several men who vied for General Tilney's attention. Catherine did not mind being ignored as he commenced into loud conversation, or indeed being forgotten altogether. Rather, the reverse held true: in a removal from his presence, by walking about the grounds to more fully admire their beauty, she was able to retain all the joy and relief the service had afforded her. It affirmed her every notion of what parish life ought to render the obedient. "How glad I am become! How good it is to do what is right!" were her happy thoughts.
Her beaming countenance had not gone unobserved; private as her meditations had been, the evidence of her contentment was so marked the vicar could not help noticing, and he approached as she waited by the carriage. "I believe you are Mrs. Tilney, Henry's new wife?" were his first words, and the lady very prettily accepted Dr. Prewitt's own introduction. "I was glad to hear neither he nor any of the house were seriously harmed by recent events. Is he at his own pulpit today?"
"Oh, no, he is not well enough to travel, his curate is serving. We will probably be in this countryside another week."
This information did not quite concur with the more favourable reports he had received from other quarters, and though not inclined to ever question the judgment of his patron, he could not disbelieve so open and earnest a statement from so excellent a source. For though simply dressed and without fashion, Catherine's youth and manner presented her very fine to all who saw her that day. There had been some talk when she was identified, as rumours were thick regarding the young thing the general's second son was run away with, and one met at Bath besides. But Catherine's inner workings gave her an air of piety, and her smiling countenance was enough to charm most who knew her by reputation only. Certainly the vicar was not immune, as he had seldom beheld any young person so fascinated by the Gospel lesson (including the absent Mr. Tilney).
"He must be comforted by your steady presence," was his politic reply. "as would any man with such an observant wife."
These words might ordinarily have caused Catherine some confusion, for in honesty she was not always so very intent on the forms of the faith. Fortunately she interpreted them quite narrowly to refer to the present circumstances, and was pleased to think she had done Henry credit in his home. "I am always glad when I may serve my husband," was her truthful answer, which for the ageing doctor of divinity confirmed all his morning's observations. The strange tales surrounding Mrs. Tilney were proved in error; this Christian example of principal was exactly the sort of woman any family, let alone one of the general's standing, might wish to claim.
Catherine was ignorant of how good an impression she had made, having no greater ambition than to share her current state of delight. She thanked Dr. Prewitt for his compliments, and had the satisfaction of hearing him say he would pray for Henry before he went on to address other members of his flock. With two clerics offering petitions, she could not imagine Providence would be long in answering. It was with no little concern that she watched the general and the vicar spoke privately; for the former did not look entirely happy with whatever Dr. Prewitt had to say. Catherine hoped she had not given insult in speaking out of turn, without permission or the presence of her father-in-law. As the clergyman had approached
her
, she could not feel guilty, but her newfound respect for the strangeness of a military man's way of thinking caused her to wonder if perhaps he was used to people always behaving as if they were in a regiment of some kind; and if so, any straying from a high concept of command might vex him.
Whether good or bad, General Tilney's feelings did not seem to injure his incumbent's, based on observing that man's still placid countenance when they parted. After allowing herself to be helped into the equipage, Catherine had the space of a moment to admire the church again from the window as the general climbed in, and then they were on their way back to Northanger Abbey.
This journey was much smoother for Catherine's nerves than the one preceding it. She no longer worried the general was particularly displeased with her; it seemed he was merely not peaceable. She recognized her early experience with the kind natures of her father and Mr. Allen had little prepared her for a more bellicose temperament. But it would be wrong to judge all men by the example of her youth. Just as there were congregants at Woodston who tried the patience of her husband and yet were also faithfully devoted to the parish, so she could see the general must serve a similar if grander role in his own domain.
These ideas allowed her to retain her serenity throughout the ride back, and even to brave another shared meal without regret. The cold meats were not uninviting, for Catherine found her more natural good humour inspired a corresponding increase in her appetite, and so busy was she in consuming that set before her that she spared little thought for the silence maintained by the other party.
At the conclusion of this meal Catherine was spared any further attendance by the general's departing for his customary walk. He did not speak as he left, only gave the curtest of nods as a dismissal, and she decided the best method of giving way to him was imitation, offering her own bow in return.
She did not resent his refusal of an invitation, even if her inclination was to employ this newfound energy to range beyond the house. He perhaps could not be warm with her, and she would not ask he be so; it was enough that he was civil. She could therefore entertain the possibility of facing many similar encounters, with the sanguine hope that by the time Henry was able to join them he would be rewarded not only with better health but a peaceful family, exactly as he deserved.
With every pleasant hope for the future urging her forward, Catherine mounted the stairs with a confidence nearly unthinkable the day before. The week no longer appeared vast and empty, but full of promise.
Posted on 2021-11-08
Chapter 18
Though provided with all the necessary articles of a morning study in the form of pen, paper, prayer book, and perhaps most importantly time, Henry found he was unable to marshal his full attention. Writing might have directed his thoughts, but was abandoned after several attempts that were nearly illegible. Without the soothing rituals of a Sabbath meeting he gained little profit reading the text to himself; without the people gathered around to hear, his tongue felt heavy and without purpose. This latter feeling was especially acute as he missed one specific soul in the front pew who normally smiled at his every word and gesture.
It had not always been so of course; any Oxford man must attempt his first sermons as he could, whether speaking to the empty room, another student, or even an animal. Henry had actually been very fond of learning key passages by heart while riding; he knew of a fellow who would not appear before the class until he could safely make recitations to his dog without it wandering off. Then there had been the awful business of appearing before the bishop and attempting to prove that his years of matriculation had not been wasted. Though fortunate enough to receive a living straight away through his family's preferment, Henry had not avoided the new cleric's early career of mistakes: christening water spilled or communion bread crumbled, stuttered names and butchered readings, and learning the importance of refraining from a splendidly clever but ill-timed remark while in council with the parish officers.
Woodston had in that sense been a very good place to begin: established but without consequence, manageably small and yet not confining, and full of good-natured souls who were willing to embrace a young man of extreme confidence with genial complacency. There were still those who remained indifferent to Henry's abilities but none outright challenged his authority or position, as he knew many a new ordinate sometimes faced. For that matter he had always attempted kindness to his own curate, who though nine years older and with thrice the experience as yet had no living of his own, and for no other fault than that the name of Jones commanded little by way of property, money, or influence. It was Henry's habit to supplement this worthy man's meagre income from the tithes for any services led; and to offer a seat at his own table as often as not, a practice he had been pleased to see his wife not only tolerate but encourage.
Reflections on Catherine's merits did little to curb his distraction. Far from it; his mood persisted as the minutes crawled by, with so opposite the rapidity he usually felt them race at the first of the week. Though reasonably certain there could be little
danger
in her attending the Northanger church apart from boredom (the good vicar's ponderous ecclesiasticism having undergone little alteration in the years following his
protégé's
birth), Henry could not make his mind easy over the general's sudden interest in her person. After neglecting her so thoroughly since their arrival, and aside from one brief confrontation, to command her at meals and outings was a step of such marked difference he must wonder at its cause. He felt justified in this concern by his father's past behaviour. Where once he could observe General Tilney's foibles and oddness towards a guest with only detached chagrin, Henry the husband could little afford this luxury: duty, honour, his own tender feelings required he protect Catherine from any new abuse. It was for this very reason he had not wished her to remain captive within the abbey's walls and thus subject to his father's mercurial temper ever again.
Not usually restless, Henry felt all the disadvantage of being unable to give vent to his nerves through physical exertion. He longed for a walk or drive, good company and conversation. Denied these comforts he could only wait for Catherine's return with increasing unease. He wanted to sit with her on the pew, wondered whether she was welcomed, despaired she would not be, then railed against his own absurdity. Here Catherine had left him with the simple belief he would behave as a good Christian, prayerful and guided by the will of Providence, and instead all he had done was fret.
Forcing himself to look on the biblical passage again, he strove to consider the apostle's commendation of the lady chosen by God and the command to love through obedience. That commandment had become a sticking point for him during the past year; it was difficult to remain faithful to the woman of his heart and the patriarch of his blood when the two were in opposition to each other; or rather, when the latter was opposed to the former. Catherine herself was willing, nay eager, to prove herself agreeable. It was quite probable she was motivated as much by some misguided sense of obligation as her own devotion this morning. She continued to believe in the possibility of making amends.
Henry was more doubtful; as the lady was more sinned against than sinning, no penance she could perform would ever quiet the other's invented complaints. He had hoped the general would at least pretend familial concern after sanctioning their marriage, if not actually feel it. As the months passed and no change in attitude was observed, though, Henry gave it up. Never particularly indebted to paternal approbation, he had grown positively indifferent to it during his banishment and courtship.
Or so it had seemed. Now he regretted not exerting himself to find some more reasonable accommodation for his wife than the barest form of consent. A lady should expect public recognition and an invitation to the family's home after her marriage, not kept at bay and then summoned at will like a retainer. Catherine for her part never admitted to any insult, leaving it entirely for her husband to feel on her behalf. Henry had not realized the strength of his own resentment. He could acknowledge some of his displeasure came from confinement and the lingering effects of sickness. Yet here we may observe logic's deficiency as physic: no sooner could Henry rationally explain his state than he leapt to the source of it, namely his brother's intemperate actions, which no doubt sprang from their father's own excesses. At least his sister was spared this latest crisis, in opposition to how she had so often borne the brunt of every choleric outburst.
And yet at least he had some means to relieve Eleanor's past woes. His deficiency toward his wife, who he loved in equal measure, smote his heart, and it was with ever more earnest, if not sacred, reflections that he passed the time.
It would be a very noble picture of long-suffering to imagine Henry's eyes fastened to the shadows cast on the floor, his ears straining to hear the clock's chimes, watchful and waiting for his bride's return. The reader may retain the described picture as a model of the ideal, hung upon a wall or contained within primers for moral improvement. We rarely think worry may assist sleep, since the reverse is a far more romantic notion, and yet habit is a more powerful mistress than all. It had long been Henry's custom to rest at a certain point before evensong, and as he had nothing beyond idle conjectures to tempt him otherwise, soon found himself drawn to this state almost without volition.
He awoke in some confusion at Catherine's greeting, for he did not recall closing his eyes, and this disorientation made him fear a relapse of his mind as well as his body. But he could not remain troubled for long in her presence, especially as she did not appear bothered in the least by her outing but rejuvenated.
"And so you enjoyed the service?" was his own smiling observation, which she affirmed with the same fervour another might have praised the theatre or an assembly. Her words tumbled so fast, and with such eagerness, that he did not try to understand their full meaning, but gleaned enough to believe her present felicity owed as much to a change in setting as divine intervention. If it is not fully to Henry's credit as a parson to employ this scepticism, it must be added to his role as a lover, so recently sullied by repose.
"I am glad," was his sincere reply to her exultations, without reference to his suspicions over their origins. "Now, if you will indulge your poor husband, I would like to attempt a turn about the gallery before you are taken from my side again."
"Oh of course! But I will not be leaving too soon: the general seemed so withdrawn, I would not be surprised if he does not require me until we depart for evening prayers."
Henry was of two minds regarding this intelligence: on the one hand, a certain possessive delight in the society of one so forcibly missed was foremost. Yet a lingering sense of disquiet remained; it was unusual for the general not to speak his mind, and no scheme requiring secrecy could augur well. Then too he noticed that despite her glowing accolades, no words of comfort or concern filled her descriptions. Instead it was all hollow gestures, the coldest forms obeyed without delicacy or even prevaricated feeling. No matter how little antipathy was admitted, Henry was in no doubt of its expression, and could not be as content as his dear wife with the mere absence of reproach.
Yet Henry did not allow these misgivings to rob of him of the present's peace. Instead he enjoyed what he always experienced in his wife's pleasure for life: an awakening of his own. This sympathy between them was fortunately placed, for though Henry had got up in pursuit of necessities, he had not ventured to perform any extended activity, and the attempt was not as dignified nor encouraging as he might have wished. Only rising was a challenge, one he insisted on performing himself, and though feeling quite hale after his lengthy sleep the effort of sitting fully upright was enough to make him pause.
It was a little better when he took Catherine's arm, and he could not help catching some of her own elation at finally leaving an apartment he had grown quite inured of over the preceding days. The first steps of freedom were sweet indeed, as was the novelty of seeing other sights, even those familiar to him: it was enough that they were so recently different. They fell into conversation while slowly progressing along the gallery, of what it scarcely mattered, simply that it was so normal an occupation, so welcome a resumption of their routine, as must gladden both their hearts. So long as they continued thus, Henry could pretend all was well and that their trials were at an end.
The first cough was small, and so innocent as to be scarcely noticed between them; Henry studiously ignored it, and Catherine was influenced by his example to pay as little heed. As if in retaliation for this neglect, the next was stronger, and the third forced upon him so violently that he was required to stop before walking half the corridor's distance, fully dependent on Catherine to maintain his balance.
"We should turn back," was her suggestion when he was at last able to breathe again, and he reluctantly agreed, his fatigue returning with an unwelcome faintness, matched by the languor of his steps. Whatever animation he had derived from the respite ebbed away as it was withdrawn. Catherine attempted to keep up their chatter, and he strove for her sake to respond, but was denied even this consolation by the irritability of his throat and lungs. All too soon they were back where they had started, and he found himself falling onto the bed with shameful feebleness.
"Are you warm? I pray your fever has not returned," was Catherine's next concern, brushing her palm against his skin.
"I do not believe so," was the short reply he managed at last.
She looked unconvinced. "We must not risk it; we should not attempt anything else today. I am afraid we have been too rash."
Protest was hot on his lips, as much from peevish rebellion as actual disagreement, but he did not attempt to contradict the wisdom of her words with the lamentable proofs of his stability. He submitted to her application of a cool cloth, and offer for light reading, without complaint. And though receiving some measure of relief from her nearness and concern, Henry was not so distracted to miss how often her eyes strayed to the window. The diminution of her cheer was a marked change from when she first returned to his side.
Posted on 2021-11-08
Chapter 19
The next day brought little relief to the oppression of Henry's spirits. He woke, he ate, he read, and felt every moment as if he
must
improve. But still his body betrayed him with tremors and pains. When he would compliment Catherine on the excellence of her dress, with a witty observation about the fashion of frugality, the soreness of his throat prevented him doing more than smile and name her pretty. Another experiment at writing brought on a headache and wearied him so that he must perforce leave it off. He was so exasperated that when his wife asked him to pick a novel to hear, he only shook his head in refusal.
At last he pretended to doze, without enthusiasm or success, while Catherine took up her work. The stillness of the room was far from soothing: he was aware of every minute sound, from any furtive step beyond the door to the pulling of a thread in his wife's hands. The phrase "his skin crawled" had always seemed unintelligent and particularly banal till this moment; now he acknowledged it was not only possible but absolutely dreadful to experience the sensation. It was as if all the activity pent inside him were being performed by his idle muscles, out of concert with his will and with irritating irregularity.
If fraternal affection had been tested before, it was currently so impoverished that Frederick owed his preservation in large part to his brother's incapacity; and that though spiritually alike, the desire to commit harm is not equivalent to the actual deed.
It did not help that Catherine remained steadfast in her commitment to attend to the rhythms of the household. He knew he should not begrudge her feeling comfortable enough to join his father at the breakfast table, and in fact was glad she no longer appeared curtailed. Nor, in his better moments, did he covet her frequent excursions to the library; after all, they was largely on his behalf, as she always brought back new selections. He was not unmoved by her relearning to admire a house so long associated with misery and degradation. It was a trial of his forbearance, though, when she looked so eager upon leaving and entering his room, and seemingly grew more forlorn the longer she remained. No word of complaint ever passed her lips, not a note of regret sounded in her tone. But Catherine was an honest soul and could not always help revealing her sentiments. Henry had become even more sensitive to the subtitles of her mood upon marrying her, and felt the cause of her listlessness greatly. It made him even more determined to recover, and yet stubbornly, this achievement eluded his power.
His patience reached its limits when striving to once again rise for a walk. Catherine did not exactly forbid him but was not encouraging, and more than once asked if he would rather continue resting. "No, I would not," was his curt answer, so that she finally put down her needlework and went to help him.
All seemed well until he reached out his arm, putting weight on his sore shoulder, and his nerves hummed in agony. He lost control of the offending limb and only Catherine's firm grip kept him from an ungainly fall. In alarm she began to guide him back down even as he urged her to help him stand, and not insensitive to his pleas, changed course. But in propelling him upward, she did not realize how the action taxed his back, and he could not prevent a loud cry at the sensation. Startled, she let go at once, so that he tumbled back against the pillows, further inflaming his already bruised flesh.
"O Henry, I am so sorry!" was her own piteous cry, and she reached out to take his hand.
He instantly regretted pulling away; no matter
his
suffering, it was not her fault, and even if no better motive had been found, pity would have ruled at the sight of her stricken reaction. Yet he could not relieve Catherine's agony in the throes of his own, so dearly did he ache in every nerve, leaving him without voice or nearly thought. He managed to speak at last, but rather than soothing it sounded stiff and even cold to his ears, "Catherine, for pity's sake don'tâ!"
He only meant to stop long enough to draw breath and explain how she had hurt him, to instruct her better. But the delay stretched longer than it should have, nor could he help a cross exclamation when she begged what to do, unsure himself what course to take and chafing at the admission.
Before he could betray himself further she stood abruptly. "Rest easy, I will call a servant to help you."
So saying, she fled out the door, leaving Henry in very dejected spirits. It was not long before a man came and with efficient, patient effort brought him up. But even with this greater strength assisting him, Henry could only stand and tremble. At last admitting to failure, he asked for his things and dismissed the aid. He forgot to ask after Mrs. Tilney until it was too late, and was not altogether sure he
wanted
to see her again if she were only returned by force of obligation, and with perhaps tears barely restrained. It would be better not to force his perturbation on her. Still, he could not help feeling abandoned even when he was himself the cause of it.
Wrestling between these exacting emotions was not easy for him, as he had no regular practice with such extremes: Henry usually enjoyed a more agreeable disposition and was provoked by his own unwonted distemper, which as anyone may tell you is no way to actually conquer it. In his present affliction he rued even the sun's brilliance, for what right had this week to present fine weather when the last was so awful? Nothing suggested consolation; boredom and malaise poisoned every thought, so that Henry nearly wished he was back in a fever, if only to escape it all.
It took him the better part of the hour before he could find any motivation to overcome his sulk. Reason was sadly against him, for all reasonable arguments pointed to the bleakness of the situation. Sensibility was no opposite champion, though: he had drunk too deep of her bitter cup already. Religion should have been his comfort, but in his weakness he sought what had always been his friend: the absurd, the comic, even the cynic, anything that mocked the caprices of the world. He began flipping at random through the books before him, ignoring grandeur of story or language, seeking instead the dark humour he was particularly in the mood for. No Benedict, Claudio, or even Dogberry for him: instead he sought the sharp tongue of Shylock, the melancholy of Jacques, the perverseness of Iago. Even when his headache returned he did not stop, but neither could he enjoy the speeches he usually revelled in. He found himself skipping between lines, dropping too much of the text to attach himself to any of it, and inanely repeating the most obvious nonsense.
He was not aware of a page slipping from one of the volumes at first; he only realized its presence when he made to shove them all aside, and upon examination that it was not torn from those he had so lately disturbed, for there was no numbering, and furthermore bore his name, written in a hand he had come to know intimately during his courtship's correspondence: it was a letter from Catherine.
The novelty of discovery drew him in where mere existence might have failed. No date appeared but the writing looked new, and the paper was of a kind he had observed her with, the same crisp supply his father always imported from London. Arrested by the thought that she must have penned it here, he began reading, and was as absorbed with its contents as he had been disgusted with that of a far more talented author:
âDear Henry,
It is with little inclination that I take up this pen; I had far rather speak to you, but that is impossible at present. I am fearful lest I disturb you. I know I ought to pray, as a means for releasing the fear that strikes my heart, but I cannot approach the altar of our Lord when my mind is so disturbed, not when I am unable to voice some of that to the husband He has been so kind to give me. You will shake your head to realize how grieved I am. It must rain on everyone, just and unjust alike, but that the latter should so thoroughly drag the other into it is terrible. I am afraid of my anger. If you do not wakeâbut I will not give way to such fears, I am sure you will, I know God would not allow such a thing, not when we have shared so little of our lives together. But why should this place be the site of so much unhappiness! Why must it ever be a torment? I have been so forthright to your father: I should feel ashamed, and though I burn at the memory, I cannot regret it, and in fact wish I had spoken far more in your defenceâbut perhaps you are wisest: a quarter, an eighth even, of my feelings, was enough. For more than the present circumstances, I cannot help suspecting he has done the same to you in the past. I know Eleanor had you to guard and comfort her; but who, dearest husband, protected you?
My
father has been as patient with me in my middling colds as he has the infirm of the parish, and my mother has nursed me so often I blush to think of my ingratitude. But who was there to kiss your head, and tell you stories, and whisper how brave you were? I cannot even speak this aloud, so close as it is to my former suspicions; you will think me foolish! for I cannot bear to think of you so neglected. You must know I am nearby, I will not leave you, you need never suffer alone again."
Here the letter broke off; it had not been finished, there was no reliance on divine Providence or swearing of eternal love, and Catherine had been so neglectful as to not even initial a signature. It was an untidy letter, rambling and without revision, with large block letters that took up far too much space, so that she had been required to fill in the margins to continue her thoughts, forcing Henry to turn the paper now this way, now that to make out the words. Yet such were those words!
Once was not enough: he devoured it again with a hunger he had not known existed, overpowered with the emotions laid before him: anger, remorse, and such abundance of concern as to humble even the proudest heart. Here was the perfect expression of his grim mood, not in common puns or ribald mockery, but the terrible honesty of a troubled heart. Like the person herself, it was untutored in the genteel sophistry he had been forced to endure in the past. Rather it bespoke that rarest of affections which was equally fervent when considering its object's vulnerabilities as its own, uniting a lover's past with their united present and hoped for future, and containing more sincere tenderness than any sonnet despite never mentioning those emotions outright.
She had behaved as true as her words, clinging to him with all the determination of the parable's persistent widow. There could be no better metaphor for the marriage vow: some better phrased might exist, but none drawn with the same heartfelt candour.
Every ill feeling he had nursed now appeared the height of ingratitude. What insufferable idiot would ever resent her efforts or give her grief for them? He, who wanted her protected from the worst of the abbey's influences, had succumbed to them instead. There was no need to hunt for more severe irony in any of the works surrounding him: he admitted to taking more share of it than was healthy for anyone, let alone a man who claimed to serve God or possess love in his heart, and repented it.
Here is a lesson for any of us tested beyond our limits: it is sometimes helpful to find succour through the vicarious example of another's anguish, not due to any derived pleasure but because we may hope to be its cure. Henry was brought very low by this admission of vanity and the accompanying loss of his wife's steadfast attendance. In sinking beyond his own sorrow he found a purpose that superseded hollow fancies or distraction, so that he felt a welcome return of perspective and firmness of mind. He was determined to take the apostle's advice to not let the sun go down on any perceived wrath between them.
Posted on 2021-11-15
Chapter 20
Many a heroine, believing herself cruelly used, has compounded the folly of insulted dignity with equally foolhardy actions. I will refrain from identifying any here; their names are familiar to any reader of the popular literature, or even a certain authoress from this time. How often has a woman's frailty been her own undoing, and equally mortifying is the conclusion that the sex presumed to be lesser is able to bring the mightiest down when in error.
Fortunately, though Catherine knew how often ladies were described as fainting and running to hysterics, she felt no inclination to imitate their example. Never having pretensions to greatness she did not entertain any similar conceit in her disappointments. Even when returned to her parents' home in disgrace, convinced Henry was lost to her forever, Catherine only indulged a sad unsettledness. She had not rejected food, sleep, or her nearest relations and friends: it never occurred to her to behave in this manner for the simple fact that she never
wished
to.
So Catherine did not in the present circumstances prefer death to life. What is more, she did not prefer it for anyone else, least of all a husband whose regardâdespite this most recent difficultyâshe felt the fullest reliance on. Instead, she believed him ill-used, gave him credit for his usual good temper, and was wise enough to seek the assistance of others better equipped to aid him at this time. Once satisfied that Henry was cared for, Catherine absented herself rather than foment further discord. It is always good when simple virtue may be relied upon to direct one's course, and many another character of more knowledge would have been better served to do the same.
Donning her bonnet, Catherine decided to stroll about the grounds. She always enjoyed walking; and as she was restless from her self-enforced retirement, it was glorious indeed to wander the park, feeling the sun's warmth, and without hindrance from any stride or direction contrary to her own.
She wished again for Eleanor; a sister would be the most sympathetic companion, even more one who could appreciate both Catherine's frustration and devotion. But no reply had yet come in answer to her letters, not altogether surprising given the many delays that may have resulted from the storm's disturbance even beyond this county. Her warm felicitude, and that of any others of their acquaintance which might even now be en route, could only be anticipated. How much easier it was to understand her loneliness prior to marriage! Catherine was glad to think that, ignorant as she had been when first becoming acquainted, their friendship may have provided some relief; and that their sorority might be as much a gift to a viscountess as the reverse.
It was with reluctance that she turned her steps back to Northanger Abbey. So loathe was she to go in that she alighted on a picturesque bench as soon as it came in sight, though not truly tired. Everything here was as wonderful and luxurious as she remembered, and at times it seemed even more so. Her previous visit had ended in early spring; seeing the abbey in the height of verdance explained some of the general's former lament that his guest could not fully appreciate the sights. It was all so beautiful. And yet also so isolated.
The Woodston parsonage was a study in contrasts. There was always something to mend or repair, some work to be accomplished, and not nearly as many people to do it. The dogs would bark, the neighbours might call, and the inhabitants of the house were usually occupied over something. Her garden was hopelessly wild in comparison to the exacting neatness of the stalks before her. But she reflected that the Allens had as pretty a lawn even if it was not nearly as large, and besides, it was in her opinion a far pleasanter place to visit. Yet there must be those who enjoyed precise squares and perfectly placed fountains as well. Taste might be as subject to one's own inclinations and experiences as agreed upon standards.
Standing, she surveyed the landscape again with a more discriminate eye, appreciating it without feeling humbled in return. The grounds as laid out must be what the general required. That was right: it was after all his home. Still she could not imagine Henry arranging their home with comparable uniformity, or ever being wholly comfortable in such an environment.
Upon entering the house she realized far more time had passed than she was aware: the clock looked close to four. It would not do to attend dinner with so much dirt about her. Hurrying back to her room she was quick to wash and change. She thought of checking on Henry again, but decided against it: if he had been able to walk he must be resting, and if not, might demand more of her time than she had leisure to give. Instead she asked the maid to offer her excuses, and to say she would see him once dinner was over.
Her father-in-law's habitual impatience did not disturb her nearly as much after repeated exposure. She could not be perfectly easy in his presence, but neither did she expect him to offer more than he was willing to give, which meant they spent the majority of their time together in silence. They had almost concluded the meal before he roused enough to ask after his son's improvement. "He is somewhat better," she answered as truthfully as possible, "but still very weak. I do not believe he has stirred much at all today."
"As opposed to his wife."
This statement held an ominous quality; Catherine could not help feeling there was some accusation in its tone. But rather than dwell on what it could mean she strove to continue the conversation as cheerfully as possible. "I have enjoyed a walk this afternoon. Your gardens look quite splendid: they are very well laid out."
"It is usual for people to
ask
when they roam my property."
Ah, there must be her mistake! Catherine nodded, and said, "I am sorry not to have done so, I had not thought of it. I only wanted to admire them. I did not touch anything."
He gave no reply beyond a cross look, and Catherine struggled to put herself of a mind with him, to better appreciate what she should do. How much easier it must be for the men of a regiment to please their commander, having been trained to it, and how difficult it was for her to know how such authority was to be placated. It must not be mere idle recreation that she requested; surely that was not how things were done in the army. In considering thus, Catherine showed herself more virtuous than she knew: for with the example of Captain Tilney, it would have been easy to reason otherwise. But she instead theorized how a supplicant might act and did accordingly.
"Please, might we attempt getting Henry outside tomorrow? A chair may be required, but I think he could be helped down, and the weather is so fine it must do him good."
This suggestion was met with some suspicion on the part of her listener. "Had Henry asked for it to be done? Why did he not order it himself?"
"He may not have thought to. It is not for those who are sick to always know what will help them. I am sure it would be to his improvement to see how pleasant everything appears and enjoy the fresh air."
What could be said against such an enterprise, so perfectly desirous of pleasing? The general fell back on expostulations regarding the barometer, wondered if there might be too much wind, and even doubted whether Dr. Morton would approve of the plan. All these excuses Catherine listened to without rebuttal. She did not agree: none appeared, to her mind, insurmountable challenges. Here she unknowingly imitated the actions of an experienced campaigner by not rebuking a superior officer, instead gently guiding him to a course of action she had determined he must, eventually, see the wisdom of himself. "If the general believed it unwise, it would not be attempted. But if the weather continued fair, she thought it good for Henry to at least be brought to one of the gallery's verandas, that he might get more sun. It would not do for him to grow too pale."
Nothing was said against this proposal. Whatever the general meant by his silence, Catherine was determined to interpret it as tacit agreement, and so retired from the dining parlour with renewed purpose.
Only when she had gained the top of the stair did Catherine realize she had neglected to recommend a similar arrangement for the family's eldest son. This thought was not welcome: she did not like to extend an invitation to Frederick, nor did she think it altogether wise on Henry's account to bring them together. But it must have seemed so partial, so resentful! A father, no matter his feelings, must be aware of any slight made against one of his own children, and the general had proven how sensitive he could be where matters of pride were concerned. To chide her for abusing her position, and then for her to answer with an insult, however unintended, must have angered him, and just when she had so wanted to be of like mind! It was no wonder he had discouraged her.
Turning around, Catherine did the only thing she knew to do when recognizing an error: she resolved to remedy it at once. No longer the girl of seventeen who might have allowed guilt or fear to dog her steps, she instead found the nearest servant and calmly asked to be shown to General Tilney. It must say something about Catherine's fortitude that the man did not hesitate to bring her to his master, who was still drinking his coffee.
"I am sorry to disturb you: I will not remain long. But I should apologize, I had not meant to neglect the captain. I am unfamiliar with his wants; you must know them better, do you think he would prefer the excursion too?"
This speech, delivered with no more deference than respect, so direct and lacking in subtlety, was enough to stop whatever foul words the general might have originally intended at the intrusion. He set his cup down and stood, so that Catherine must look up to see his full reaction. It was not vile or agreeable; there was little of emotion in his features at all, as if a mask had fallen upon them.
"Captain Tilney is ordered not to move at present. There is no need for
you
to consider him at all."
The note of dismissal was clear, and Catherine was aware of the servant waiting expectantly by the door. "I will gladly leave him in your hands; only, I hope I may always offer the consideration of a sister." Here she curtsied and let herself be led away, satisfied she had done everything possible to demonstrate her respect. If the general would not risk his heir's health, she would not attempt to persuade him otherwise. As to the second son's confinement, though, she was busy formulating how to surmount any and all barriers towards its end.
Her mind was so full that it is not surprising she forgot to look in on her husband. Every thought was on him and yet none pointed her steps beyond her chamber. It was not until she had retired to bed that Catherine realized her negligence: she had not seen Henry, not even asked about him, since leaving so hastily. At first she resolved not to disturb him; it was late enough he might already be asleep, and she was certainly not dressed to go into the hall. But then she remembered they were not at home but at the abbey, that the rooms were connected, and that it would be the work of a moment to slip over and peer in. No sooner did the thought occur than she must do it. She pried open the passage with great care, trying to make as little noise as possible.
A candle by the bed gave her light enough to see Henry was still awake; he looked as if he were studying something intently. She made to go but evidently without nearly as much quiet, for she heard him call her name.
She turned, not quite entering, and explained, "I only wished to see that you were well. I will let you rest."
"Will you stay a moment?"
It was such a plaintive question she could not help coming to his side, forgetting all other considerations in her concern. "Of course, I am here, what do you need?"
He looked well, though whether due to real improvement or the dim lighting, she was not sure. His smile forbade further worry, however, and the strength of his movement when he took her hand was admirable. "I will not tax either my voice or your patience long. But I hoped you might share some of your activities. I trust your afternoon has been well spent."
"Oh: yes!" Catherine smiled herself, and needed little inducement to launch into a description of her walk, and her appreciation of everything she had seen, with so much enthusiasm one might be forgiven thinking she had never experienced them before. Henry listened intently, answering when called upon, and it was only when she found herself circling back around in her praise that she thought to ask how he had passed the time.
"I am much better hearing of your enjoyment. I confess, I have not been a proper companion of late."
She protested, but he held up a hand. "You must allow me some measure of contrition; it is not much, it is not be compared with
your
genial temper. But I should attempt some restitution for the distress I have caused you."
"But you could not help it: you were suffering."
"As much say I could not help it, I was annoyed, or displeased, or inattentive, as I am afraid you must realize your husband may be on many occasions. It is not the woman only who should remember her troth. Have I not sworn to love, comfort, and honour thee above all others? I do not recall any exception based on the groom's deficiencies, and after performing enough weddings, I believe I should know it by heart."
"You have always done those things. I do not see what objection could be made."
"How fortunate the sinner who has so liberal a judge to acquit him: it should encourage him to go and sin no more."
Her heart lifted in hearing him speak so familiarly, and encouraged her to press her position, reassured that his constitution could stand it. "But Henry, the husband is not meant to offer comfort alone. I am sure any sufferer, man or woman, should expect some indulgence on their sickbed. No one could resent such a need. I am glad I can serve you."
Here he grew serious, and gripped her fingers tighter. "And I am glad you can still say so. Gladder still you believe in such general goodness; for I assure you, there are more resentful hearts than are dreamed of in your philosophy. But your charitable nature will not hear me say so; I must content myself with claiming yours is the first of many, when I think there are few who even come close to matching it."
Catherine made no further argument, and expressed her appreciation for his words by kissing his hand. So happy was she that her scheme of going onto the veranda was voiced, causing Henry's features to light with reciprocal joy. "I have already spoken to your father, so that is taken care of."
"And did he approve of this action?"
"He did not forbid it; if he does not like it, I do not see that it matters."
Somewhat taken aback by her resolution, Henry wonderingly asked, "What happened to that sweet little Miss Morland, so timid and mild?"
"She married," Catherine answered, smiling at him and standing to take her leave.
Henry's laughter, and reflection on the boldness endowed by the Tilney name, followed her out of the room, and gave them both the most agreeable expectations for the day to come.
Posted on 2021-11-15
Chapter 21
When Catherine woke to the sound of rain she could not help rushing to the window in dismay. At least there was no thunder or hail, and the wind did not appear too strong. She comforted herself it was but a passing shower.
Here it was unwise to admit optimism, for while there was no great tumult neither did it lessen, and she was forced to tolerate the general's satisfaction when he observed how ill the weather looked. She surrendered the point, but knowing from her education that Pyrrhus might regard such victories as burdensome, did not give up hope entirely. Rather, as they concluded breakfast, she asked what part of the house commanded the best view. A servant was directed to guide her to the recommended parlour, with the added directive that her host not be disturbed further, professing himself occupied with much work. Catherine was not sorry for this parting instruction; it saved her needing to ask any further approval for her plans, and on being led to the spot in question was happy to find in it everything desirable: a spacious, airy room with large windows and a good fireplace. She soon went about giving orders, and when all was ready nearly ran to fetch Henry.
Before he could utter any syllable of regret for the loss of their outing, she presented the happy alternative. "We are going to enjoy a day watching the storm," was her excited announcement as the servants entered behind. Soon enough Henry had been helped into suitable garments and down the stair. When they reached the hall he insisted on crossing the brief distance to their destination under his own power, accomplishing this feat with only the mildest of coughs. Catherine watched carefully, and then throwing open the door displayed her handiwork: a good fire, tables of fruit and flowers arranged for their enjoyment, and all such amusements as she could envision needing within easy reach. "And we may take a stroll about the room at our leisure, and sit where we like when done," was her delighted conclusion as Henry leaned back with answering pleasure in a sturdy chair.
"How charmingly you have arranged to have your will obeyed: so commanding without the air of it at all. There should be a word for it. Martial is too gross. Will minervan suffice, do you think?" And despite Catherine's refusal to accept this comparison, she was dealt further classical allusions with ever more exaggerated solemnity:
dianite
,
venusous
,
junovian
. By the last Catherine was unable to even blush for laughing, and Henry was forced to leave off further embellishments by his listener's inability to mind them.
The rest of the day passed just as agreeably. Catherine's experiences had not dimmed her appreciation of a gale, so long as she and those she loved were safely out of it; and she attempted to practice her drawing, but her pencil and focus alike were unequal to the task. Instead she was distracted by playing at backgammon and cards, assisting Henry in brief turns about the room, and in her own reading, quite apart from that shared with her husband. She meant to continue repairs to his jacket and waistcoat, both torn during the past week's heroics; but they and her thread were forgotten, which aside from her married state explains why
vestal
was never used to describe her virtues. But she was not without industry, and if we consider the food she contrived to always have on hand, then Ceres would surely be glad to recognize her efforts.
The rain, so admired, eventually excused itself like the kind guest it had proven to be, neither overstaying its welcome nor rushing off with exacting fanfare. The happy couple were therefore treated to Iris painting the sky for them long before Luna chased Hemera to her bed, with the evening sun casting the freshly watered world in such warm colors as to provide every assurance of a peaceful night.
Catherine could not help exulting over the progress that had been made over dinner. Henry had hardly shown any shortness of breath, choosing to content himself with light observations at surprising moments. Though unable to hide some distress when they first attempted his standing, he had gained in vigour to the point of enjoying a full revolution by three, with no sign of the dreaded fever's return. So busy was she in pouring over every pleasing remembrance that it was some time before she realized her companion had said not a word, and in fact may not have been listening to her at all. Catherine was determined to continue the amendment a change in scenery seemed to produce, and was on the verge of making her request when a note was handed to the general. It was received with far greater eagerness than he had envisioned for anything or anyone at his table; he was still reading it over when the tarts and custard were finished. This preoccupation, and her subsequent retreat from the dining parlour, both prevented and relieved her from advising him of the preparations she had in store. It was with only a thin misgiving that she commanded a table be setup in the courtyard on the morrow with the provision of shawls and blankets. She did feel obligated to give the general an opportunity to join in the festivities he was, if unintentionally, providing; Henry gave her the welcome hint of writing whatever she liked, but waiting to have the invitation delivered until morning.
No clouds marred the dawn, either from without or within, and it was not long before Catherine and Henry were both without savouring the sweet freedom of nature. As if to make amends for any previous misconduct, the setting abounded with blessings: excellent air, expansive sunlight, and just enough breeze to keep the insects from their cakes. The damp had nearly all gone, so that only the barest trace of mud could be seen in the fields, and it was therefore necessary after eating that they tour the nearest paths.
Catherine felt some trepidation at this idea; while their breakfasting in this manner might be seen as a mere bending rather than complete flaunting of the general's rule, her rambling farther smelled of rebellion. "Perhaps we should wait and see if your father comes out?" was an objection duly considered, but ultimately rejected, by her husband.
"I am under orders to exercise and you will be serving as my aid: unless you mean to sit here all day while I rove alone?"
It was quite easy to convince her that no harm could come of being Henry's companion, and after ensuring his coat was firmly buttoned against any chill, and pulling her own shawl tighter, Catherine eagerly took his arm. They did not attempt great distances: it was a measured pace, with plenty of stops to admire and share observations. Lulled by this languor, or perhaps distracted by her own glories of how well Henry was able to maintain his stamina, Catherine was astonishingly slow to recognize when he shifted his praise from the pastoral to the personal. The following exchange will serve as example:
"Oh, see, I recognize those flowers: how pretty they are blooming."
"Yes, very prettily: the prettiest blooms possible. They are nourished by the benevolence of the appellation, from a source who must know the truth of the matter, being so much in likeness."
"I am sure I have never seen such perfect petals."
"No, I defy anyone to contradict you, perfection should be admired when one is in its presence."
"The rain must have helped open them; they did not appear nearly so brilliant the other day."
"All hail rain, wellspring of life, and cunning mistress of our bliss. How dull must everything look in her absence, and how resplendent is the sight of her admiration. It is a balm to the soul to study she who revels in this blessing."
"Are you speaking of the butterflies? They are very numerous today. I had not noticed them before."
"Alas, no, I did not either, being distracted by a different creature altogether."
"Which can you mean?"
"Can you not guess? Is the paragon of animals so obscured?"
"It must be here in the garden. We have not gone far enough to approach the wood."
Henry continued smiling complacently. "I am in complete agreement with you. There is nothing to like so far away in comparison to that which is here and present. Certainly no nymph or naiad could approach the splendour of a proper English garden's patroness. What envy must those wild ones harbour, when made to confess their subordination."
"But I did not mean that at all! I am sure if we could go further there is as much to enjoy; you know how fond I am of the country."
"I must bow to your opinion. Where Catherine treads, there will Henry never fail to admire."
The latter was too much to ignore, and Catherine unwittingly paid Henry the highest compliment for his speeches by turning a very becoming pink, and forgetting to say anything at all. So there was nothing to discourage Henry from joining the metaphor with its object, plucking one of the very pretty blossoms for her.
They returned their steps to the terrace, and though Catherine was able to regain her tongue to admire other items besides herself, she could not prevent her husband from introducing a handful of other tributes, for which he was rewarded not only with blushes but also smiles, laughter, and even a teasing remark about his taste in return. Therefore the gentleman, though tired by his exertions, gained so light a spirit as prevented him feeling it too terribly. A more selfish creature might have kept the object of his amusement firmly by his side; Catherine was more than willing to spend the whole day in his company again. But when they had reached the little table, now cleared and with a fresh cloth upon it, Henry insisted she continue onward. "I know you must be impatient to venture beyond this area, having so little opportunity; I will be very happy to sit and watch, and perhaps even read this newspaper, like a proper man of the manor."
No protest sprang to Catherine's lips this time, no consideration of the general or his prerogatives occurred to her. "But you are comfortable: there is nothing else you require?" was her parting question. Henry assured her he would be quite well, and would call the nearby servants if in need.
"I will certainly ensure you are made aware if anything runs amiss. But I do expect a full report of your explorations later."
Catherine promised to do so, and only waiting to tie the strings of her hat more firmly, left secure in the peace all good creatures must feel when blessed with youth, health, and the ready fulfilment of their hopes. She wound even farther than she had on her previous excursion; and though careful to avoid any puddles, was heedless of further caution in her current jubilation. With Henry on the mend, nothing could be truly awful. Her joy was not selfish only; it was really a reflection, and the comparison to a flower's bloom was apt. Everything was friendlier, livelier, and more happy, not only because she felt so herself but also because she still believed, despite everything, that the world could not help answering in kind.
Posted on 2021-11-22
Chapter 22
Henry was not sorry when his wife passed out of view. True, he could have chosen to join her, but sought not to test his endurance; and while acknowledging the need for rest, his chief motivation was to allow Catherine the liberty of movement which his company might otherwise have curtailed.
"How lovely she looked," was the happy thought that followed as he leaned his head back and enjoyed the sun’s rays. And how gratifying to feel himself again, able to praise and tease her without fear of a relapse. There was nothing quite so restorative as good humour for Henry, and nothing so pleasing at the moment as the idea that his wife was provided with the same in equal measure to his own. If he also indulged, while sinking deeper into reverie, in frank admiration of her figure or the sweep of her garments as she ran, let us not judge him for hedonism. A young husband so newly regaining his faculties, and with a very trying week's abstinence survived, must be granted some allowances.
So genially was his mind engaged, feet propped up and in the throws of daydream, that he was unaware of much else. Not till the creak of a nearby chair was he cognizant of another's approach. Opening one eye, he was somewhat surprised to find the general in full greatcoat and hat, surveying his realm like Odin over the world. Henry nearly commented about the lack of ravens but restrained the impulse; his father, unlike his wife, did not always appreciate his quips. "Hello sir: I trust you have enjoyed as pleasant a walk as myself."
"Tolerable. I am glad to see you up: it is about time you stopped sulking like an infant."
If the morning's idyll had been fantastic and dew-laden, this admonition washed over Henry with all the abruptness of a cold water bucket, bracing in its stimulation. "I have missed being about, I assure you. There is little I desire more at the moment than honest work."
A pointed look at his relaxed posture was enough to make Henry regret his levity, and cause him to straighten in his chair. Changing the subject, he thanked the general for accompanying Catherine to services. "It was very good for her to be out of the house and in company; Mrs. Tilney is not made for isolation. I am glad for your kind offices on her behalf."
"It has always been our habit to obey the strictures of our religion. Nothing has changed there. Northanger Abbey should always be an example to the parish."
Henry was sorely tempted to make some clever remark over what kind of example was meant, but he refrained from more than a cordial nod.
"Where is she now?" was next asked of him, and Henry was able without irony to explain he had sent the lady in question to explore and thank his father again, thereby assuming rather than asking for permission. "She left in very gay spirits; I have hardly ever seen her better."
"Happy to leave you abandoned, and go out in the wild by herself, without thought for decency or duties owed? I trust you do not present this picture as one meant for increasing our reputation. I am not inclined to see any inhabitant of this house behave so, least of all someone who claims to belong to it."
Henry's smile was no longer natural but kept only by force of habit. "You mistake my meaning, sir; it was not our parting that made Mrs. Tilney glad. Why, she was put to tears at the mere suggestion of removal from this place."
"As any person would, who has designs on a higher position. Do not assume because you have always been so unambitious that others are likewise inhibited."
Henry did laugh here. "Ambition? Perish the thought. I can assure you my dear Catherine has never entertained such notions, would never even dream of any sordid schemes."
A sharp rap of the general's hand upon the table was enough to interrupt further defence, so forceful and emphatic was its execution. "This is what comes of marrying so early: you prove your folly with every word! Was it unambitious to toy with your affections, to draw you into an alliance? Do you expect me to display similar ignorance, when I have the evidence of where it has led you, and by extension, our name? spoken of by the community at large, the discussion of every Tom Cottager to his brethren, not only here but in your own parish? Can you claim to feel any pride at all, knowing how little the paupers in their pews fear you?"
"I do not believe it required my marriage to cure the congregation of any temporal dread in my presence. As to being the brunt of our neighbours' insinuations: if even the gods are susceptible to this abasement, we poor mortals must do our best to weather the same." While intentionally sedate in his accents, Henry struggled to remain calm while his wife came under increasing attack. He had not trusted himself to parry
those
taunts, but sought to distract his father with other objects of ridicule.
"You have always been too ready to abandon sober reflection."
"I admit to seeking amusement whenever possible, but trust I have never diminished the people's respect for our Heavenly Father or mother church. Why, there can be no higher praise for a parson than to think his audience has actually listened enough to discuss what he has said."
"As if that were the only concern: your sophistry is not, in fact, so important as you think, certainly not according to the report which I have just finished reviewing again."
"Ah, but I am very vain of my speech, you must allow that sir," was Henry's near desperate feint, and like all rushed manoeuvrers, deficient in its discharge entirely.
"Not only encouraged in your conceit, but flattered by the attentions of so middling a person, you fail to recognize
her
shameless notoriety. I am told this woman is without restraint: unruly in dress or deed, a busybody and interloper, engaging any rogue who chances by or will admit her. Do you deny it?"
For Henry could not help shaking his heads as these charges were laid down. "I do, most earnestly; there is no one in the parish more scrupulous. I cannot imagine who has been filling your ear with such idle, ridiculous talk."
"It little matters: that my intelligence is sent direct from Woodston should be enough. Or did you think because you were so dilatory about canvassing the district your subordinate should be as well? It is not only as a parent but the trustee of that living, and the chief landowner the other men of property must look to, that I am required to assume the disagreeable role of inquisitor. I
know
these things have been discussed openly; what say you to their accusations?"
A tightness closed around Henry's lungs, his breaths were shallow, and he gripped the chair so tightly he felt his shoulder began to ache again. With great deliberation did he seek to compose himself, mindful of the need to conserve his energy, so that he was able to reply after a moment's pause. "The only words Mrs. Tilney might reasonably excite from any quarter should be complimentary, as indeed they have been when spoken direct to me by nearly all who have met her, including the farmers you are so quick to assume in full agreement with whatever has been written—which, as I am ignorant of the particulars, and only suspicious of its source, I will not endeavour to refute except by an appeal to your own understanding and observations. Your strictures have been honoured, your position upheld, and as you make no complaint of this past Sunday I must believe she was credibly received by those among your own set who may even have had leanings in a different direction. Therefore a canvassing of her detractions must be in service to condemn them. I cannot believe anyone of good sense or character would sink so low as to accept vulgar gossip against a virtuous lady." He could not help expressing more of his disgust than was politic, and was quickly made aware of how this veiled accusation was received.
"Then you deny that it is her habit to go wherever she likes, when she will? Even by the evidence of her own imprudent performance but a week ago?"
"As to
that
, I could accuse someone of imprudence had I a mind, but Mrs. Tilney is blameless."
"You deem it right to traipse about the countryside with only a boy as her companion, making a spectacle of herself? Do I gather you sanction, that you advocate, this behaviour?"
"It is not for a drowning man to disparage the boat that rescues him; nor, I think, was the man beset by thieves critical of the Samaritan for travelling the same route."
"Do not weave your metaphors around me, this is no place for sermons."
"Then I will speak plainly and to the purpose: it is not for you to criticize the author of your sons' salvation, but to thank her, nay, praise her. She has behaved with more kindness and constancy than her treatment could possibly warrant."
His father frowned impressively. "
Her
treatment? You complain, you dare demand
more
consideration? It is not enough I have overlooked your negligence in honouring the least responsibility to your home. Do not expect me to blindly share in your jealous partisanship, not when I consider the damage already wrought and may still be done. Surely you are not so far gone as to ignore the danger to your sister, even if you care nothing for the rest of this family."
"Eleanor may speak for herself, and I warrant already has in a letter to come if not already delivered. Yet even your own arguments betray your thesis: if I am so much to blame, my wife cannot be equally so."
"Enough: I will not entertain lectures from so partial, so subjugated, a judgement."
"But this is nonsensical!" Henry could not keep from exclaiming. "Why, anyone hearing you now would think you
preferred
Frederick and myself dead, if only to satisfy some pharisaic standard of respectability, which cannot be true. It is your right to censure me, but you cannot in the same breath demand juvenile deference while refusing to recognize the daughter you have been blessed with, one of greater worth than you deserve!"
The general rose with so much force his chair was in danger of being upset. "I will not accept more brazen defiance under my roof: you will be gone as soon as you can travel."
Barely aware of his actions or the strain involved, Henry pushed himself up and answered that he would consider it a pleasure to leave, "for he would not accept such disrespect for his wife again, no matter
where
it arose."
They might have continued in this manner, staring each other down, and waiting for one or the other to retreat, had it not been for the cry of "Henry?" that turned the younger man's attention toward Catherine hurrying up the path. The sight she made inspired conflicting emotions: her obvious concern could not fail to move, and though anticipated with a different sensibility in mind, was the embodiment of every cherished vision of her flying back to him. But her dirty shoes and hem, together with a shawl hanging loose and hat noticeably askew, conformed so nearly to his father's accusations that he could not help catching the triumph which lit his features. The general did not say anything further: he had no need. With a gesture of contempt he went back into the manor, ignoring Catherine's greeting completely.
"Are you well Henry? You look so flushed. Was your father going to call a servant? Do sit down, there is no need to wait for one, I am here."
He allowed himself to be seated, his anger spent, leaving him faint and miserable. "Thank you, I was not myself just now."
Catherine took off a glove without hesitation, placing her palm against his brow with such gentleness he had not the heart to stay her. "You do feel a trifle warm. It must be the sun, it is very strong today, I have enjoyed it very much. Perhaps, though, it is not good for you to be too much out at once. I wish I had thought to ask the doctor, it did not occur to me."
"It is not the sun that bothers me, you need suffer no anxiety on that account. I have savoured it as well, I am glad to hear you say the same."
She thanked him absently, still concerned over his condition, and he undertook to regain his temper for her sake. Henry requested she sit and share her adventures, which—though soon complied with—failed to command his attention, and he found his mind snared away from she whom he most prized by another far less deserving.
Unluckily she sensed his distraction, and rather than continuing to speak to empty air, addressed its origin. "I suppose your father came out to judge your recovery for himself. He has asked after you."
"He expressed some concerns," was Henry's diffident answer.
"Did you share an agreeable chat? You must have been glad to talk to someone besides myself."
"Not at all: I find your conversation excellent at all times."
"But you must enjoy speaking with another gentleman on occasion."
Henry caught himself muttering whether there were gentlemen to be had in these parts. He must have been more understood than intended, for she turned a curious eye on him and begged to hear what had been discussed. "You looked very excited by it."
"The topic was your own sweet person, which I am always excited by."
"Oh."
The note of wistfulness comprised in this one word prompted Henry to stop whatever might have succeeded it. However little he preferred to disabuse her of any imagined reconciliation, it would be monstrously cruel to let her hope in vain. "He was unhappy with me, and my choices," he began, temporizing to avoid any depression of her spirits, but on perceiving she was still full of trusting expectation, he could not allow her to be deceived longer. "I will spare you the details; they little matter, and what is more, are completely erroneous. He is still displeased by our union. It is his loss, I may add, and I have told him so."
"And what was his reaction?"
"The truth was not to his liking. So it often is. Does not Scripture say a prophet is not known in his own country?"
"I am so very sorry to hear it! To think I have been the cause of your quarrelling again, when I so wanted the reverse. Please, Henry, what must I do? Did he say what had displeased him? Was he angry over my wandering so far? I will go and apologize at once, I will never trespass beyond the front hall if that is the cause." Here she would have done as she said had not Henry caught at her, urging restraint.
"He will not listen: he is not of a mood for it now, and besides you have not done anything requiring forgiveness. There is nothing you may enact to move him: it is his heart that must be softened, and not yours."
She remained standing, uncertain, with so much anguish that Henry could have demanded the man return and acknowledge her contrition. "But if it is so inconsequential, why did it upset you? If what he said had no justification, how is it you are still dwelling on it? For that is what you have been thinking of, is it not?"
It was so difficult for him to achieve any semblance of serenity when she pierced him with guileless questions. She had always found a way to push past any contrivance on his part, and he brought her hands to his lips in expression of those feelings she stirred now. "It is not reason alone that makes a man hate such abuse. However much I may pretend, I am not wholly ruled by sense or sport: I have my passions too."
She yielded to his pull and sat, eyes still downcast. "Is there nothing that will please him then?"
"Just what will suit us: that we part as soon as possible. I trust I will be ready ere the week is out." He picked up the flower that had fallen from her hat, smoothing its crushed petals, and smiled as much encouragement as he was able.
At last she let herself be placated, smiling slightly and accepting his sad offering. He advised they retire to their sanctuary of yesterday, and managed to enter the room with only slight reliance on his wife's support. There he soon coaxed her into some resemblance of good humour with repeated questions about her ramblings and discussions of their return home. It did not surprise Henry that they were ignored for the remainder of the day, familiar as he was with his father's quirks, and it was a welcome respite not to worry about any further interference up to and including Catherine being excused from the dining parlour at the appointed hour. He spent their evening together distracting them both from any worry save how to while away the hours.
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analyzes some of the family dinners shared in
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.
Posted on 2021-11-22
Chapter 23
The next day was fairer even than the previous, for Henry was able to stand completely unaided when he awoke, and even to make it halfway down the stair before needing assistance. He still experienced a soreness in his shoulder or occasional tightness of the lungs if pushed too far, but felt strong enough to recommend another turn about the garden after they broke their fast.
"Perhaps," was the unusually reserved reply he received. Clearly, Catherine's worries had returned during the night, and it was no difficulty to discern where her abstraction centred as she turned with every minute sound toward the door, no doubt anxious of a violent interruption.
Fortunately too delighted with his own returning health to waste much ire on a villain so considerate as to remain offstage, Henry instead recommended they explore within. "For though I missed your first tour, I can guess it was not so comprehensive as to prevent there being some mysteries of an abbey left to uncover." He smiled kindly, hoping to perk her interest without provoking any painful remembrances.
"Do you think it would be acceptable?" was her next query, and he could tell by her brightening eyes she was not unaffected by the idea. "I mean, we would not be disturbing anything?"
"Not at all: we will keep only to the parts of the house that are oldest, least used, or most related to antiquity. I assure you, they are of no interest to anyone but ourselves."
Catherine agreed far more happily to this suggestion, and it took only a little coaxing on his part to have her choose where they should begin: the chambers that had once belonged to the original cloister. Henry knew the spot well, as it was situated near to the staircase leading to the room he had occupied as a bachelor; and while closer to his father's apartments than he might have advised, was made unobjectionable by the intelligence that General Tilney was out on his morning constitutional.
Their pace was measured, Henry still unable to achieve his former gait, but that did not signify when he was able to respond to all of Catherine's scattered questions. It was soon apparent her previous stay in Northanger Abbey had not afforded her this opportunity, and she was fairly starved for details he was more than happy to supply.
"Here we are: the last remains of the true abbey, a relic of bygone days," Henry announced as they reached the cramped little corridor. "And in more ways than one: it filled me with the greatest horror to pass through this corner alone in times past."
"But why?"
"Because of the spirits of past nuns who were sure to reek their vengeance on me, for robbing them of their home, and throwing them in chains, and who knows what other terrible fates they fell to, all at the hands of whatever rapacious ancestor profited in their dissolution."
"Would not their spirits seek out the owner, or his heir, for mischief? I do not see why they should bother you."
Henry was pleased to hear how sensibly she replied, without any self-consciousness regarding murderous stories, and so felt equally at ease in answering. "Remember that I share the name of that tyrant king who raised himself above the throne of Peter and am therefore liable for all their temporal and eternal persecution. So, at least, my brother convinced me after a week's worth of lessons on the subject, and as he could read better than me I was forced to accept his superiority of knowledge on any number of subjects, including that of ghosts."
"How dreadful!" was Catherine's severe reaction, "to make a child terrified of his own home."
"I was not so
very
awestruck for long, I promise you, and it may have done me some good. I have always been possessed of a ferocious curiosity, and might have become lost in a stray catacomb were it not for his warnings. I confess the one or two times I heard a moan of 'Henry' on the air was enough to forestall any inclination for sneaking out."
"And yet there are less wicked ways to make a child mind; and from a brother too! I am sure I never thought to menace even Sally, though she would forever dog me."
Having experienced a small amount of Miss Sarah's vexing nature to turn up at the most inconvenient moments, Henry admired his wife's restraint aloud. "But girls are expected to do better: Eleanor never played any tricks. It is for boys to be wanton and cruel."
"You would not say so if you had tried to keep Harriet from letting the goat out of his pen after pretending to lay down."
"So the Morlands are not completely perfect: I am relieved to hear it."
"No, of course not, you know full well that is not the case. But we would never dream of intentionally frightening each other to death! There is enough to fear in this world without people
causing
it in others on purpose. I am sorry you were ever subjected to such treatment."
This sentiment was communicated in a manner so solicitous that Henry found his heart strangely touched, and quickly turned the subject to other anecdotes. They admired here a stone frame, there an old beam, and whatever else they could of the house's ancient foundations. He admitted he was rather ignorant of the true history respecting those novices who had once prayed within those walls, but spun what legends he could recall, generously embellished with a ready imagination, while they progressed from one point of interest to another.
After a short respite, during which Henry rested his legs and Catherine explored a hardly used cell he believed dated from the fourteenth century, he asked what else she had a mind to examine. Rather than inquire after priories or tombs, she surprised him by asking if there was anything left of his boyhood. "You have seen all of Fullerton, and our nursery: is that room still intact? or any others?"
"I do not know," he confessed in some confusion. "But they were very modernly equipped: would you not like to see the few memorials left instead?"
She let him lead her to a view of the court, and listened as he pointed out the traces of monument that might still be seen in the grass, but would not give up her request, not even when he offered to show her where a guest had supposedly been felled during the Civil War. "But why should you want to see it?" he finally asked in the face of her continued insistence.
"I would like to understand the family better."
"The Tilneys are not the most scrutable race, to give up their secrets so easily in the mere observance of the past. I confess to knowing less than half of my line's biographies."
"But I would like to try, for is it not my line as well, now?"
There was little he could argue against this logic. "I warn you, there may be nothing left any more," he said as they turned to the back stair and began the climb, Catherine patiently waiting as he must take each step with both feet before continuing.
"I understand. And you must tell me if you become wearied, or find the way too difficult."
"No bounding up to frighten young maidens today?" he asked with self-deprecating irony, and was rewarded with a smile as they continued. On reaching the top he required some rest, and they sat on a nearby settee for Henry to catch his breath. Catherine continued holding his arm, her steady presence neither impatient nor missish while waiting for him to rally. It was strange, for without that reminder, with eyes closed and his abilities so affected, he could almost believe he had crept up that flight as in days far in the past. Everything was different now, of course: the flooring had been replaced since then, and the banister was of a darker hue than he remembered it. But there was something about the air, or perhaps the old familiarity of stealing from some unbidden scramble, that caught him, and perhaps also, for but a moment, stilled his limbs from moving forward.
Inhaling deeply, Henry shook off these fancies, and turning to Catherine requested her assistance to stand. They advanced down the gallery near to where his mother's rooms still remained closed off, but turned before reaching them and instead approached a double door that impossibly still bore the same exact exterior he had greeted a thousand times in the past; down, he discovered, to the chips in the frame made by heedless boys in their haste. Inside he was amazed to encounter a similar preservation. It was not perfect, or rather, it was too much so. When he was a youth there would have been a mess of toys scattered about, books left open or stacked in piles, instruments dropped, and a thousand other signs of disturbance. Now everything was precise and orderly, the model of a children's sanctuary instead of the living embodiment.
"So it is not like at all?" Catherine asked, looking about with interest.
"Not in character, perhaps, but certainly in the essentials. Why, I remember that telescope clearly: I thought I would never be tall enough to look through it, and see, here is every primer we used, even the histories. I am surprised they have not been moved down to the library."
"It must be they were felt to belong here instead. It is a cheerful room: there is plenty of sunlight through those windows."
"As to that, it never made
us
feel cheerful, for it could be blinding of a summer afternoon. There is nothing worse than to be presented with perfect weather for play, and be denied it by strictures or lectures."
"It was the same at home: which is why mother sometimes moved our lessons outside, and we would have picnics where we used leaves to count or spelled with sticks in the dirt. She always said children most wanted movement when they are small, and whenever we grew impatient with being out of doors we would move back in and pick up with chalk."
"Mrs. Morland continues to prove herself a fount of wisdom: I tip my hat to her benevolence. I am afraid our tutor was not so wise."
"Oh, but he must have been far more so: I cannot believe the general would not find someone very knowledgeable."
Henry laughed. "
Very
knowledgeable, I assure you, and nigh unintelligible when we were first introduced. Ten to one he took the position thinking we were older; Frederick, at least, was more of an expected age, though still full young, and as I could not tolerate any lengthy separation my father—with an uncommonly liberal attitude—paid a handsome price for the training of a near infant. No wonder the man was often cross! Perhaps not realizing he was to prepare us for our education rather than serve as its sole arbiter, this scholar failed to understand we had not yet learned Latin. I believe it was a full month before he recognized our ignorance, and a whole morning was given over to describing our stupidity."
Catherine shook her head. "It sounds as if he were stupid as well, not to understand his situation or instruct you better. I do not claim any great wisdom, and yet I did find out if little George had learned his numbers first before drilling him with figures."
"But you were superintended by the good Mistress Morland, who no doubt taught you all there is to know of children and their upbringing. How fortunate the little ones who will receive the blessing of her daughter's experience."
He had not meant anything more than an amusing aside, and was not fully aware of what he said until Catherine turned away her flushed cheeks. The realization caused his tongue to still, bemused both by the heat warming his own features and a very different fire that lit his heart, one so at odds with any lingering nostalgia that he wondered at feeling to any degree boyish. The man no longer had any thoughts to spare for the travails of adolescence.
"I hope it will be so," was the soft admission she finally uttered, so that Henry could not help turning her to face him, handling the blooms before him with the same caresses as he had those growing without.
He ought to have found something really clever or tender to say, like a proper hero would in such moments. Certainly later he would discover the most perfect repartee, and curse himself an idiot for letting the opportunity slip his grasp. At the time, though, he only asked, "How could it not be, given my own enlightenment?"
"How so?" she asked in far too direct a manner for poetry, eyes blinking instead of limpid, a lock of hair slipping from her harried cap, the harsh sun exposing lines of care newly etched amidst the freckles spotting her face, and many other imperfections besides.
But Henry had been trained to ignore all distractions within these walls and did not betray any weakening of that discipline in pursuit of his object. It was a mercy, given his limited strength, that Catherine was taller than society might prefer, allowing him to close the distance between them easily, and she was able to provide as much support from her tightened grasp as he was unable to offer through his. Words proved entirely superfluous to the silent but thorough testimony he shared, epitomizing all this lady had found and excited in himself. The proof of a good understanding is, of course, in the mastery of one's tongue, and even when they eventually left the room and enjoyed a further stroll along the gallery, it was some time before either desired to commune differently.
Posted on 2021-11-29
Chapter 24
After advancing along the full length of the storey, with frequent attention paid to the portraits contained or the scenes which had once passed therein—narrated with an emphasis more on the vagaries than the grandeur of the characters involved—and an additional excursion to an even higher point up a winding stair, Catherine insisted Henry retire, and was repaid her consideration by his acquiescing without debate. While ensuring he had everything within easy reach, Catherine could not help feeling for the absence of fever twice. "You are not too warm? Is there anything else you need?" she asked again.
"Strength to act upon the feelings a pretty lady bent so close inspires." A yawn marred his delivery, though his tired smile hinted at his meaning, and Catherine was kind enough to offer a chaste kiss upon his brow before sternly telling him to rest. Her injunction was little needed, for already his eyes were closing, and Catherine left satisfied as to her husband's faithfully attending her command.
For her part she busied herself in the next hour with writing another letter to their sister, full of reassurances regarding Henry's health and inquires into the lady's own, and then writing the parish, her own parents, and even her old friend Mrs. Allen: she could not get enough of repeatedly sharing the elation of her heart with anyone who might be remotely concerned, and was more conscientious in her general correspondence that day than perhaps ever before in her young life. The true meaning of the psalm's pronouncement "my cup runneth over" was revealed to her, and it had not stopped flowing when she ran out of paper.
Still restless, and careful that no noise should disturb Henry's repose, she took the letters down herself and was pleased to hear they would go out on that day's mail coach. To think so much good news would be shared, over seventy miles and more!
Coming so near the stable-yard made her covet the sight of their familiar dogs and horses, or even Will with the curricle. But she would be patient: the doctor would return soon, and then they would go home. How happy he would be to discover his patient so well, as glad as Mr. Jones receiving them back at Woodston, as the recipient of their efforts both medical and spiritual was able to take his rightful place again.
"But who will tell the vicar here?" was the next thought that occurred to her as she lingered in the hall, looking out a window at the works going on. That kind man had offered to pray for Henry as well, with the concern born of many years' acquaintance. He must have known her husband most of his life, back when he was subject to the same vicissitudes of lessons and frights as her own brothers had been. How queer it was to consider him that way, and yet how readily she could now, thinking of that little room and the history she could imagine based on his description. She even allowed the captain, though despicable in his hateful abuse toward a dependent relation, might have been a nervous little boy too.
Marriage had begun teaching her what men might be concerned with; she felt she was beginning to understand better how they might act on their fears. It must be something awful that had driven her brother by marriage into his recent ill temper, causing all this misery not just for them but himself. But then, was the general ever afraid as well? And what would discompose
him
, who must have seen and experienced far worse through his wide experience in the world? And would his disapprobation prevent his informing anyone of Henry's recovery, or had they like the vicar been misinformed to begin with and never realized the danger at all?
She stifled her preference for a long walk to soothe her thoughts, not wanting to cause any further antagonism. Without Henry she felt no compunction to explore the house further. More than anything, she yearned to be in her own environs again, with far simpler knots to untangle.
With no other employment she went back to her uncompleted mending. Catherine felt some embarrassment at her lack of diligence: surely, with so many servants taking care of all their needs, and with so little expected of her, she might have done more in a week's time! She determined she simply must finish the coat she had been repairing if nothing else, and would not even take out a novel to distract her while it remained undone.
At last the hated sleeve was stitched up, and all the buttons repaired. Perhaps she ought to have been encouraged to finish the rest. But she felt so wearied by the effort that she almost threw the things away from her, feeling silly even as she did so, and when she reached out to keep her thread from rolling away, nearly overturned the chair and upset the basin, so that she must instead lunge to keep it from breaking and landed upon her knees with a little cry. Instantly she clapped a hand upon her mouth, worried she had woke Henry, then worried she had missed hearing him call for her, and then worried anew that she would be found sitting so foolishly in a bundle of skirts and bowl and scattered sewing, proving herself the worthless girl General Tilney must believe her to be.
Tears pricked her eyes and she stood in frustration, silent but shaking, needing release for her pent up anxieties and unsure if there were anywhere in the house or grounds safe to express them. If only Henry were fully better, and she could trust it would not harm him, she would run at once and let him soothe her in his arms; but she had felt his need earlier, with so little of his usual strength, requiring her to keep him balanced, still without the means of holding his own. If she did anything to check his progress now, when he was so close to being made whole!
She gritted her teeth, squeezed her firsts, walked about the room, anything to relieve the painful trepidations that rocked her. It was not
his
fault, she did not blame Henry, never: and yet she could not stop her heart from jealously desiring he might be able to consider her needs, so long kept at bay, as if waiting only for the first sign of his restoration to be unleashed. She repented the feeling at once, ashamed, and yet that only brought more tumult to her spirit, more difficulty in regaining her calm.
The general was so unkind: could he not see how hard she was trying to conform to his dictates? Could he not have entered into a truce, for Henry's sake? Why must he forever torment them? She felt nearly sick with these unvoiced thoughts circling her mind, as if she would die if she could not scream in that instant. And would that not be wonderful, to prove her wretched enemy correct and shew herself very foolish, to fret so without cause? Why must she feel this way
now
: she had not been near so upset when Henry was in real danger. It was vanity, or pride, or arrogance, or any number of other sins she had not suspected herself guilty, to indulge a tantrum like an ignorant child, and just when there was so much to be grateful for.
Not able to stand it any longer, Catherine threw herself on the bed, heedless of the mess left behind, and buried her face in a pillow to hide the sobs she could no longer swallow. She cried so hard her head ached, and still did not stop, even though she must soon have no tears left to spill and her throat hurt from the muffled heaving. She thought of how merry everyone else in the world must be at that moment, her letters going out to further their cheer, and wondered if it was possible to empty one's joy in spreading it too far. It never seemed so before. She had not felt this miserable when sent away in her maidenhood and believing she would never see Henry again, nor earlier when he had reproached her scandalous aspersions against the general, and not even when she was sure the general would never consent and they would never marry and the world had appeared suspended in time, and yet rushing past her so quickly. She had only thought herself miserable before. Now she truly tasted its black bile, not the kind that came from persecution, a guilty conscience, or tenderness of heart, but a wrenching melancholy such as she had never dreamed of, a despair not born of any reason she could name, a horrible bleakness that emptied her of any other feeling, leaving her at last exhausted.
This sort of mood, while it may be commonly understood, was positively shocking for Catherine, who while not as jovial as her husband was nevertheless usually content. Were she of a more contemplative nature, the example of Job's Wife would have explained how circumstances could make even a pious matriarch wretched. A more sophisticated creature might take for her model great personages, such as Catherine's own Tudor namesake, the Norman lady of Aquitaine, or Nero's empress. A truly stupid or low woman would have only considered her own propensities, defying all scruples.
Instead, Catherine felt a great thirst and the beginnings of hunger, and realized if she was to satisfy these needs, she must achieve some mastery over her feelings. It took far too long to make herself rise, and when she did, surveying the disarray of her appearance and the room, she almost threw herself back down. But the idea of someone discovering her folly at last forced her back up, and she set to work tidying up: first the things, then her person, wiping her face and fixing her hair, and in all respects attempting to make herself presentable again.
When at last she felt she could leave the room without dying of shame, she went on tiptoes, all her shyness returned, for she desired under no circumstances to call any of the women who had been attending her. She still felt apt to come apart at the slightest provocation, and could not bear for them to see her so weak. So concerned and mortified was she at the idea of meeting anyone, she slipped to the end of the gallery and down the back stair, retracing the path she and Henry had passed so joyfully what felt a lifetime ago. Her only thought was to find the kitchen and beg for a little something, then to lock herself away from all penetrating looks.
Later she realized that, in keeping her eyes downcast, she must have taken a wrong turn, for she eventually realized she was nowhere near her destination. Instead she nearly gasped on bumping into a large table and recognized the billiard room. In alarm she raced back to the door she had just come through, unwilling to be found somewhere the general might guard as zealously as his garden, but at first could not get it open again, though she pulled with all her might. At last she leaned against the handle in dejection and found herself tripping back into the corridor, and might have fallen had not a steady pair of arms caught her.
"Why, Mrs. Tilney, are you afflicted too?" were the doctor's kind words. Catherine was almost giddy with relief until another much deeper voice spoke, and she looked up to see the general standing nearby.
She sprang up and stammered an apology, but found herself horrifically falling into tears again: "No, no, I will leave right this moment," yet was held by the doctor's firm grip.
"Are you sure? I hope you have not caught your husband's fever." He then led her back to a chair—in the room, the very place she had fled!—and anxiously took her pulse. Catherine submitted, forcing herself to breathe, though all the time wishing she were dead. As the doctor asked after her symptoms she could see the general pacing just beyond, like a lion when it was hunting, she was sure of it, why the tails of his coat were just like that of a great beast. Or rather, that was how the cats in her girlhood comported themselves, so must not a lion do the same?
And just like that, instead of crying or trembling, Catherine could not help laughing. It was only a nervous giggle at first, but the memory of Mrs. Allen's pet prancing about, finicky and neat, never deigning even to touch the mice it terrorized, provoked further merriment, and she could not control peals of laughter at the thought of General Tilney being no more than a self-important Tom. How ridiculous it all seemed now!
When the doctor began talking of hysterics, and calling for her to be taken to bed, she was at last able to restrain herself, and shaking her head, insisted she was not in a fit. "I am sorry for alarming you," she said, calmer and with more sincerity, "I only came down to get something to eat. I had no thought of disturbing anyone." Turning to the general, she bowed her head. "I did not mean to encroach: I am afraid I became lost." That word, with such a double meaning for her state of the past few hours, struck her as funny all over again, and it took great diligence on her part to keep from succumbing to fresh hilarity.
"This affair has been a great strain upon your nerves, I am sure," the doctor commented, still watching her closely. "Have you had difficulty eating? Sleeping?"
She shook her head. "No, I have been very well, I have no complaints."
"Have you been able to distract yourself: are you able to walk, to take fresh air?"
"Oh, I have taken walks," and here she stopped herself, not sure of what might least offend, and so finished, "that is, I did. I have not been solely closeted upstairs."
"But today, for example? What activity have you had?"
Here she might acquit herself better, and while the doctor sent for wine, described eating breakfast, helping Henry walk, making sure he received rest afterward, and writing letters. Catherine then faltered over what to say next. Perhaps it
had
been a fit that came upon her, so alien did her previous feelings appear now, as if she had been someone else entirely. Feeling freed of its power was such a relief she forbore to let it discompose her further, and was able by a perseverance of good sense and disposition, as well as drinking from the glass she was handed without difficulty, to prove she had only been in need of refreshment.
"It appears to have been a mild case, thankfully: but you must not overdo things Mrs. Tilney. You must not abandon your routines or leave off exercise. Why, the general himself keeps in excellent condition with his daily airings. Sir, I think the young lady would benefit from joining you. There is still daylight left, and a small turn might offer as much relief as lying down. Since you have been kind enough to extend an invitation to dinner, we will all have just time enough to complete our labours beforehand—you in the preservation of health, I in checking on the same with the invalids."
It was unclear whether Catherine or the general was least delighted with the doctor's scheme, though she was better able to hide her aversion. "I would not intrude on the general's time," was her objection, seeing the scowl on the other man's countenance.
"Oh, but were you not telling me just now you were set on a walk?" the doctor asked his companion, and when he was affirmed turned back to the lady. "You see, it was already planned, you will not be taking away from anything. Now, let us have your hat and gloves brought down, and you may soon enjoy some recreation. Nothing better for troubled spirits."
Without any return of her malaise, Catherine accepted her fate as the just reward for her silliness. "For I would not be in this position if I had behaved better," she decided, and so acquiesced to the doctor's help standing and the general's leading her to the door with all the tranquillity of a martyr. Yet death was no longer her aim. Catherine instead prayed for a different deliverance, one her husband had hinted required divine intervention: the softening of the heart beside her.
Posted on 2021-11-29
Chapter 25
It was a cool air that greeted them outside. Catherine was concerned to see the return of dark clouds on the horizon, hoping that any new disturbance might wait until she and Henry completed their journey home. She was not allowed to dwell on the future, though, as the general's brisk stride required she devote her full attention to their passage. Nor could she spare much time in observing the scenery, for they were past one landmark ere she fully recognized it, and then trundling off to the next. It was less a walk than a march, speed for its own sake, her steps falling into the same pattern as the general's whether she would or no.
This parade was silent, which suited Catherine, for she had no idea how to placate her companion. It would be in vain to protest she had not connived to have her company foisted upon him, any more than she had already explained her reluctance to trespass on his hospitality in the first place. She knew he did not like her, did not approve of her; he must be furious to escort her about. Why, she wondered, had he agreed to it at all?
Her musings were interrupted by their stopping at a place some distance from the house. She looked about, and realized they were all the way on the other side of the abbey from the main hall and busy kitchen or stable, and with windows from the abandoned rooms overlooking them. They were quite alone, and if Catherine were still a girl she might have been unnerved to consider what the general's anger and hatred might do with no witnesses about.
Instead, Catherine used the opportunity to ask if he desired solitude. He said nothing, only let her go and walked a few steps away, looking out to the woody hills which rose in the distance. She did not observe anything else of note, though, and gave off continuing to stare in one direction to take in more of the country. The increasing breeze made her miss her shawl, but she was not too cold so long as she kept moving, and she circled some shrubs, admiring the careful attention given even out here, so far from the main paths. A bird flew overhead and Catherine watched it soar away, reminded that nothing was truly unseen. She turned back to the general, who still remained at his post, quiet and unmoving. The shadows were lengthening, and she was uncertain how long he was determined to remain thus, or if it were part of his normal routine. There was something in the stern rigidity of his posture that made her suspect he was not obeying custom. Was he concerned about something out at the perimeter of his land? Or, rather, did he wish to be farther away from something behind them?
"I was very surprised to see the doctor so soon," she hazarded a comment at last. "I had not thought he would come until tomorrow at the earliest."
"
I
sent for him."
Catherine considered this intelligence in light of the previous day's events and found she could not wonder at it. The general wished them gone: it was obviously imperative the doctor should return to hasten this departure. "I hope he will be as glad of Henry's amendment as I am."
"And are you?" He did not turn around, so that Catherine found herself still addressing his back, and she came alongside to not appear rude.
"I am very glad," she said by rote, but stopped and wondered if that were altogether the case given her strange conduct earlier. It was not untrue: she was relieved, excited, and beyond happy by Henry's return to health. Could sorrow and jubilance exist together, drawing from the same circumstance? She found herself surveying the same landscape as the general, and perhaps as unseeing, puzzling out this discovery. "I am glad," she repeated finally, "but, perhaps, not without regrets, for my spirits have also been very low this afternoon. Is that not altogether strange?"
She did not expect an answer, speaking as she was more to the open air, so that she was surprised when he spoke. "Only idiots and fools always seek to be happy. It is the folly of our age to make comfort its chief design. Each generation must make every sacrifice to preserve and improve upon the next. Happiness comes in seeing one's purpose carried out, and that is never undivided from pain."
It was a strange speech for this isolated spot, and an audience of one. Catherine wondered if he actually meant for her to hear it. But she considered what he had to say all the same. She could not deny there was a certain wisdom imparted. The duties owed one's family, and the warnings against idleness, were such as she had heard all her life. But the idea that happiness must be painful was new to her. She had not found it to be so in her father's house. And, she wondered further, was not happiness also discovered through serving, not merely commanding? There was surely something to be said for doing one's best, trusting to Providence, and appreciating life's blessings.
Yet had she not felt the opposite so recently? It was very odd, for Catherine did not like thinking she was so capricious or inattentive. Perhaps these moods were part of growing older. If that were the case, she must guard against fostering them in the future. How distressing it would be to feel that way all the time. She wondered if the general, so often dissatisfied with his children, and without a wife to alleviate his resentment, endured this torment. That the captain must as well was obvious from his volatile behaviour; surely, at times, he was a better man, or why would Henry even as a child have clung to his brother?
"I suppose we all have our responsibilities; yet it would be very lonely to do so much with no one to commiserate or lighten the burden," she mused, remembering Henry's fever, and the worry she felt when he was completely insensible, "as if the very best part of life were over, and there was nothing to admire or care for again, even as it continued. All joy might be painful then." She felt the general's eyes upon her and wondered if he was about to turn back to the house. There did not seem to be anything more to see in the fading light. She brought her arms round her frame, turning slightly to escape the drafts blowing in their direction. "I hope it will not storm again," was the next thought that passed her lips, and she could not help shivering.
"Storms will come; it is a fact of life. There is no use wishing them away." The general was still peering intently, so that Catherine began to wonder if there was something the matter with her attire.
"Yes, I would not wish it to never rain again. Still, I would pray it holds off in the present case."
"Are you dissatisfied? You think you are owed something greater?"
His words were so acrimonious she started, and saw that he was frowning with a fierceness that betrayed a great agitation of spirits. "You have nothing to say? No defence, no pretty words? None of that perverse influence to make everyone overlook your ineligibility, heedless of the least symptom of respectable pride? Henry may be inattentive but I am sure the viscount will not be deceived forever regardless of the volume of your letters. His last barely mentioned you, and that only as a common civility to the family; certainly, as my daughter has more important correspondents to attend to, and no leisure to pen any accompanying lines with his, she can have no concern for
you
. Do not think you will impose by that connection again."
It was not the same anger and bluster exhibited heretofore, or rather, there was something more she had not been aware of: a pain or grievance, the sort of snarling a dog might give when nursing a wound. What was more, she saw that even as he towered over her, with a different face and figure, and opposite disposition entirely, she caught the trace of a beloved form.
He
could of occasion grow cross when annoyed, and might tilt his head or raise his brow in the same manner. She had always seen it as arch or pert when Henry did so, a dry commentary on his unease. And though she could not ascribe this motive to the general, the nonsensical threat of his words, the vainglorious bluster, even to pulling in a third party who had only displayed the warmest affection toward her, was too outrageous to take seriously. "This is why Henry laughs," she realized. "It is no use shrinking from such nonsense."
"Indeed," she said with careful deliberation, wary lest her silence sound defiant, "I make no claims beyond what she has termed acceptable. I am sorry you have received nothing yet. I trust it is the fault of the post, though, and that we will hear from her soon."
"You think, I suppose, that it only waits for
you
to order it so, and that like your husband, her Ladyship will take your part?"
"I trust everyone in the family must be united in gratitude for what has been saved; the only privilege I request is being allowed to share it."
"So you are playing the diplomat while pushing Henry into the attack. Then let us hear your terms straightaway: but know, this house will
never
come into your possession, not if Frederick were ten times the benighted fool he has shewn himself."
It appeared that General Tilney was discontented with all of his offspring and not only herself. Which, Catherine considered with increasing pity, was unsurprising: one injured and quite possibly deranged, the other lacking any deference to his command, and the viscountess apparently finding him as beneath her notice as he wanted Catherine to feel of his. He was, of course, reaping as he had sown. Except he was capable of generosity. His care for his dying wife, the accommodation of a younger son's self-professed foibles, even the maintenance of her own dear establishment in Woodston was all at his behest. Perhaps if he understood how contented she was with the latter they might find some means of rapport.
"Truly, I am in no way unhappy with our present circumstances, except perhaps the condition of Captain Tilney and his brother. The parsonage is everything wonderful, we are very fortunate, I am sure there could have been nothing better planned or fitted out for our requirements, I cannot imagine making it over in any way. And it is quite correct to preserve the greater fortune for your eldest: it would be very bad for him to be deprived of what must always have been an expected blessing and comfort."
Truly, her father-in-law had done nothing worse than vent his spleen over every perceived transgression, never actually preventing or punishing them: her earlier sense of persecution, while inspired by his harshness, was owed more to an inability to forget past slights as any of later commission. Perhaps, though surrounded by retainers and of consequence in the neighbourhood, he was a pilgrim on the King's Highway like herself, and as much in need of guidance and encouragement as any Christian.
"It is very good for you to manage things with such vigour. My husband has told me of your conscientious provision, has tried to explain the sincere attachment that has been the origin for so much of the family's security. I must, again, thank you for everything that has been done for him, and your patience in tolerating my ignorance."
Whatever the general's response would have been, he was interrupted by a pair of noisome crows, cackling with frantic delirium, winging in a gust around their persons before sweeping away. The man's ire turned instantly to the birds, and without a change of language or manner lamented his gamekeeper's negligence in letting a nest build so close to the house, cursed the insufferability of the species, and threatened to file suit if he found someone had loosed them apurpose on his land. She listened with a patience now well-formed of indifference to his pique, so childish as to make even the youngest Morland blush, and used the time to consider her next course of action.
When he at last gave off, she took his arm while picking up her skirt. "I am sure you will wish to see to those things immediately: let us turn back," and rather than wait for him she started forward with a confident step, gratified when he moved as well. It was not long before he assumed the lead, complaining heartily about pests and vermin, and the difficulties involved in keeping them out. "And when one has been taken up with the maintenance of the surrounding county, to find an infestation at home! People cannot be made to see the need for constant vigilance."
Catherine, who had feigned concern even if she could not be so affected by the matter, latched onto the latter statement with real interest. "Oh! We have had some pests in the parsonage recently; do you think they will come back?"
The general looked so horrified Catherine felt called upon to defend her servants, explaining it was the first sighting she had experienced since her marriage. She launched into fresh commendation of every fixture and cranny, gracing its modest tidiness with more adulation than even an Italian castle might have received, no less florid in her appreciation for wainscotting and wallpaper as tapestries or turrets. "Any recent failing must be due to my own inexperience. My mother has often chided me to be more diligent, and I do wish to improve: have you any recommendations?"
This line of questioning launched him into a lecture on how best to guard a house from all enemies domestic and foreign, for one could not be too careful where pestilence was concerned. Catherine was not sure how knowledge of rats in the south seas could be applied to the midlands of England, or for that matter if it were practical to perform the elaborate hygienic rituals of an entire brigade with her small retinue. Still, she listened all the same, nodding here and forwarding an inquiry there, so that by the time they regained the front hall the gentleman had worked himself into a positive frenzy. So keen was he to plan shoring up the parsonage's defences, he actually pulled a face in glancing at the time. "We must to dinner first, that cannot be helped, why there is barely time to change. But we will discuss this further!" So saying he turned on his heel and made for his apartments.
Catherine could not help wondering if another attack of rodents might have been preferable to whatever improvements the general was set on making, but decided it could not be helped. "And at least," she comforted herself while climbing the stair, "we were able to get inside before sunset."
Posted on 2021-12-06
Chapter 26
Henry's reaction to being awoken was of more than usual temperance: he felt refreshed and was eager to prove his fitness. It was not long before Dr. Morton agreed, adding that he had no further concerns for Henry's departure. "I should refrain from any hard industry: you will need time to regain your full strength. But there can be no difficulty in returning to your pulpit, provided you continue to rest when needed."
These words were very welcome to hear, and Henry thanked him readily. "I am sure I speak for Mrs. Tilney in saying we could not hope for better news."
"She did appear most troubled when I met her earlier," was the strange reply he received. "I am glad she took my recommendation for a walk: I believe the distraction of nature and movement must give her relief from any lingering worries on your behalf."
Catherine had not seemed upset when she left him; though on reflection, Henry decided she had been at least fussy, which might give way to doubts while they were parted. "I am grateful you encouraged her: I am of the same mind regarding these benefits."
"Would I could give the same relief to all in my care. I am afraid your brother is not making the progress I had hoped. With the plaster set it would do him good to stir some. But, of course, I can only offer my advice, not require it be followed beyond medical necessity. Will you be joining us downstairs?"
It had not occurred to Henry to do so, so habituated was he to the rhythm of trays and bed, but on being asked he agreed at once. The doctor said he would see him then, and departed with another cheerful acclamation of his patient's success.
Perhaps it was silly to become so happy over dressing for dinner but Henry's good mood could not be diminished by admitting its ridiculousness, and he almost found himself humming as he was helped into a fresh shirt and waistcoat. Even when he looked at the mirror and bemoaned his limited wardrobe, he must remain glad, and borrowed a cravat of his brother's without a qualm. He had just finished admiring the result and wondered if he dared hazard the stairs alone, when he heard footfalls in the next room. Without any thought to his carefully arranged attire, he bounded through the door, took his wife in his arms, and kissed her with all the zeal of a new bridegroom.
"Henry!" was the thrilled cry that greeted his ears when Catherine had leave to speak.
"’Tis I: your husband reborn, a knight from Avalon returned hale and hearty. I am afraid I lost my armour so you must accept me in common raiment, without plume or sword, and even my standard is not my own. Will you accept me as your champion at dinner, or be shamed to acknowledge me before the court?"
The outpouring of her mirth prevented any other answer, and he let her escape, taking a seat with a philosophical air. "Alas! I am revealed in my true form, only my lady's jester. She will never permit me to join her now. Not even were I to reveal the wizard has released me of all restraints and I am free to go as I will. But she will not care, it little matters to a great lady who makes her laugh."
"Oh truly: was the doctor pleased? What did he say?"
He would have continued his denials, dragging out the reveal of their hopes and revelling in her amusement, had not the clock chimed, recalling her to her own dress. Henry was glad to observe she did not appear overly fearful or alarmed, only mindful of the time; it did not look as if whatever troubles the doctor had noticed were still present.It was only when they were about to head downstairs, arm in arm, that he noticed anything amiss. "You appear chilled: was it cold outside for your walk?"
"Not terribly, only the wind was strong, and I did not have my shawl."
"Catherine, you ought to have returned for it, or sent someone," he said, shaking his head as they crossed the gallery. "It will not do for
you
to come down sick when I am just recovering."
"Oh I am unharmed, much better actually, for I must admit my spirits were a little depressed. But the walk has done me good. The doctor was very right about that."
"Well I am glad to hear it, but I hope you did not spend too much time among any foul draughts."
"They did not bother me so long as we kept moving. It was only difficult to stand in one place for so long. It seemed very odd, does the general often halt in his processions that way? but perhaps, wearing a greatcoat, it is of little difference to him. I wish I had had my muff."
They were on the verge of the stair and Henry had to pause before continuing, a trip of the foot betraying his surprise. "Do you mean you were out walking with my father?"
"Yes: I would not have gone otherwise, knowing how offensive it has been. Are you well? Should I call someone else to help you down?"
"No, I believe I may manage," he assured her, the energy he was possessed of transforming at her admission. "But tell me, did he invite you? Did he summon you for any conference?"
"It was all the doctor's doing; I would never have asked. Here, we will only take it a step at a time."
He let her guide him, though not full satisfied with her answers. Henry tried to quiz her on what had transpired, the subject of their conversation and the duration of their company, but the intelligence he received offered little to gauge its character. "You discussed mice?" he asked in disbelief.
"Yes, and other dangers we may face besides, I believe he wishes to continue canvasing the subject over dinner. He said he had several proposals we might consider."
"Then he was civil?"
She did not reply at first, only helped him take another step down, and he was convinced by her silence that something unpleasant must have occurred. "He became so," she said at last. "I think he has been very disturbed; and that is not a state of mind that allows for grace."
There were many retorts Henry was tempted to make to this assertion, each more cutting than the other. However, he was struck by the cool consideration Catherine gave her replies. She was never deficient in her understanding of others; if sometimes mistaken about motivations, yet when they became clear his wife was usually candid about her feelings. She did not sound harried or overwrought, as she had the day before when faced with the general's continued disapproval. Instead there was a return of confidence, the kind hinted at when she boldly announced it did not matter what the man thought of their plans. She looked equally untroubled by the idea of attending him now, compassionate but not solicitous, with a firmness of tone bespeaking an equal strength of mind.
"No doubt," he contented himself with agreeing, impressed by her self-assurance. "I see I was not wrong: it is a lady of the realm who serves as my escort tonight, and I a mere knave am flattered by her condescension."
She smiled and advised him to mind the remaining steps over proving any further knavery. It was so nearly arch a reply, so close to teasing him in turn, that Henry must return her smile, leaving off any remaining concerns regarding her jaunt for later.
Their approach to the dining parlour was notable for their being the last to arrive, but Henry forestalled any complaint. "I am afraid I delayed Mrs. Tilney's preparations, and took longer to descend afterwards; the fault is entirely my own."
A sharp look was the only disapproval evidenced after his speech, as the general ordered the table ready. He looked ready to offer his own arm to the one female present, but Catherine held firmly to Henry's, and sweetly begged that General Tilney would lead them in. A firm nod was the answer, after which he formally began the procession as if it were a true dining party and not a mere family affair plus one. Henry's diversion over how easily their host had been managed was interrupted when he felt the man's intense scrutiny turn back to him. Out of practice with the formalities of the abbey he had nearly committed the unforgivable sin of allowing a lady to take her own seat. Instinctively Henry intercepted her progress, and though his strength allowed him to ease the chair out, once she sat down he could not quite move it, but found himself leaning on the back more than affecting any action on the solid wood. Before he could work out what to do, Catherine firmly pushed herself forward and asked the doctor to assist her husband.
It was awkward, having to accept Morton's arm in taking his place on the other side of the table, all under the general's watch. But Henry was not made to suffer the full indignity of silent waiting, as Catherine turned at once to the man at her right and asked that he continue their conversation. "For I explained to my husband the outline of your ideas, but do not think I could convey them properly."
Again the man was led into a behaviour perfectly designed to put him in a good temper, and, distracted by launching into his speeches, he failed to notice Henry almost fall into his chair rather than take it smoothly, nor how imperfectly he unfolded his napkin or reached for his glass. Every time the slightest hint of weakness was betrayed, Catherine covered it through appeals to the general for more household wisdom or the doctor for anecdotes of his trade, and before long the two men were engaged in so many hearty descriptions of country life and their associations as made the room almost festive. Henry little minded the words spoken as his appetite was strong; it was good he was not able to achieve complete mastery of his limbs, for then he might have disgraced himself with gluttony. In between navigating his plate and reacquainting himself with the cutting of meat, though, Henry was captivated by the image of his wife so ably directing the conversation, offering comfort without ever mentioning his name or soliciting his well-being. Though dressed simply and without adornment, she fairly shown with a lunar radiance reflecting all their good humour back among them with true quality, no less splendid for the moderation of her distinction.
"We have been reading too much poetry of late," he decided, but continued to admire and approve, and unbeknownst to him, the esteem of his gaze and smiles offered as much support for the lady as her behaviour in turn provided.
Dinner was over far sooner than he had expected. Henry actually wished he could retire afterward, since after such a large meal he found himself fatigued despite the rest enjoyed earlier; however, the subject of the highway survey had arisen over dessert, and his father ordered coffee for the gentlemen delivered to a sitting room for further deliberation. Rather than debate the point Henry asked if Mrs. Tilney might be excused, seeing as there were no other ladies for her to converse or bide with while the gentlemen met. Here Morton proved his ally, as the doctor encouraged Mrs. Tilney to get some rest with assurances that he would be on hand for any feared lapse, as he would not be leaving until the next morning. With this plan agreed to the general ordered a servant to see Mrs. Tilney upstairs, bowing her out with great solemnity, while Henry—able to stand enough for this ceremony—smiled in encouragement at her look, joining Morton's less florid wish for a good night.
Henry was thankful they did not have far to go once she left, and settled into the nearest sofa with care, grateful for the more comfortable cushion to shelter his back. Unfortunately, as the candles burned and conversation droned on over tolls and pavings, he found himself almost nodding off despite the amount of coffee drunk.
"Will you and Mrs. Tilney depart tomorrow?" was the question that arrested his attention at last, and Henry took a moment to realize it was Morton who had spoken.
"Perhaps, perhaps," the general took advantage of Henry's stupor, "if we can conclude our business. I still have some questions regarding this report from Mr. Wilcox, I have begun to doubt the full efficacy of his observations and recommendations. He may have been commissioned, yet there were certain liberties, an assumption of judgement—then there is the matter of the carriage, which may be unavailable, if as you say Morton there is the possibility of making up even a partial party tomorrow or the day after with the Frasers', it will remain to be seen based on tonight's weather. At any rate there is no hurry."
At first Henry thought he must have been caught napping, sure that could not be his father's true intentions. "I had not realized there might be a delay; if need be, I may send for the curricle. We might be gone by noon."
"Tomorrow is only Friday: I do not see any reason for concern. The carriage will be available well before your presence is required for services, though I did not understand you were to resume your activities all at once."
Henry could not help staring in confusion, even as Morton demurred from the suggestion that Mr. Tilney might not be up to leading his congregation. "I have warned him to precede gradually, of course, but I see no cause for alarm based on this evening's example. Though of course, if there is provision already made, it can do no harm to wait."
"As to that, Henry's curate is a competent man. I am sure given the span of the week he has already made preparations. There is no reason to rush into matters, as you say, so it makes the most sense to fix the start of next week for a return. By then we will have had ample time to establish exactly where to begin the roadworks in October, and the parsonage's needs as well. I will certainly have more leisure come Monday to oversee things."
It was with growing dismay Henry realized his father had not only retracted his order to leave Northanger Abbey as soon as possible, never to return, but seemed instead plotting to mend their breach so far as to actually come to Woodston, a place he had not deigned to visit in over a year. He tried to put together pieces of the evening's conversation and cursed the effects of beef and wine. "But surely we might correspond regarding any of these changes?" he at last suggested, unable to remember anything specific. "There is no need to take more of your time, or abuse your hospitality."
"If I had descendents like the general's I would not think it a hardship to entertain them," the doctor said, "especially with a daughter like Mrs. Tilney. You must not be jealous of sharing her affections, young man: men of your father's age and mine may admire charm and grace as well. Why, I would wager the general's walk was made much easier by having such an agreeable companion." Henry privately wondered if perhaps Morton had not imbibed too much at dinner with that frame of mind, and was only surprised more when the general actually agreed, claiming Mrs. Tilney was a sprightly walker, he had always said as much, and was pleased to observe she maintained her habits. The compliments this line of discussion poured forth were unequal as the doctor's were modest but lively and the general's more supercilious, yet each seemed determined to best the other in their appreciation for the absent Catherine.
"Ah, we have stupefied young Henry, a rare event if I recall: perhaps I was mistaken, and your wits are still addled by fever," were the smiling words turned back in his direction. "If so, we may expect to keep you from parting for some time to come."
It was clear Morton was not serious, though the suggestion was met with some crowing by the general, and the grand pronouncement that he would not mind personally if the couple remained encamped another month, "at the end of which, provided Frederick was deemed fit to travel, it might be expected they could all pay their addresses to his daughter the viscountess."
"I am sure the parish would expect our presence long before then."
"Only of a Sunday and at the occasional meeting. You would not think to hear him talk now, but Henry used to spend the majority of his time here."
"When my sister had need of me," Henry began, wondering how he had fallen into so exceptional a debate. "As a married man I have other responsibilities to consider."
"But of course, Woodston must not be neglected." His father, as always, chose only to hear what he was disposed to. "Quite right: we not waste time. It is decided: we will depart together come Monday. And before you go of the morning, Morton, might you spare time for the perusal of some papers for the club? I think we really must get affairs well in hand ahead of this year's shooting party."
Any further protests were useless in the face of this decisive announcement, as Henry knew from long experience. He ought not be surprised by his father's sudden change of heart: it had ever been his way to do nothing by halves, pursuing as passionately as he fought and loving as oppressively as he hated. Nor was it difficult to see how Doctor Morton, as a respected member of the community, might unknowingly encourage this conversion with his praise for a person connected with the general, who was never immune to flattery. But what could possibly have occurred during the course of a short walk about the grounds to begin it all was beyond Henry's current ken. He was almost persuaded he had fallen into slumber unawares, and more than half afraid of the entire party’s sobriety.
After more discussion of guns, dogs, and local politics, Morton asked if Henry wished any assistance in achieving his room. He agreed immediately, not waiting for the general to countermand the offer. "You see, we know best sometimes," his father said with knowing smiles, watching Henry lean on the other man's arm for support, "and anyone so fagged by a little entertainment is unprepared to get back on his feet just yet. But I think a ride might be in order: there is nothing better to get a man back in form."
As Morton agreed and Henry was eager to be gone before any further proposals were made, the decision was unanimous, prompting the general’s own happy removal to order horses for the morrow. "For an early start is best, and Henry has not been on the terrain recently, there is much to see and discuss.”
As a certain melancholy Dane feared his dreams, so Henry wondered if he had somehow drifted into a nightmarish reversion back to dependent child, subject to the slings and arrows of paternal authority. Or perhaps it was a farce he had stumbled into, and at any moment some contrived denouement would send his father into the arms of an heiress or a monastery, while the long alluded viscount would suddenly make his appearance to whisk the young lovers away to a bower of joy. Though as he continued labouring to catch his breath and followed Morton's lead up the stairs, and no signs of tragic murder or rapturous deity appeared to draw the curtain to a close, Henry was forced to accept his was not a player's fate, to live all the seven ages of man in one setting. Amused in spite of his annoyance, he reflected that a man healthy enough to ride with his father of the morning was certainly capable of enjoying the convivial society of his wife later on.
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post
is devoted to a little silliness: retelling the novel in memes. Come join the fun.
Posted on 2021-12-06
Chapter 27
Frederick's larger frame forbade Henry to appropriate more from his wardrobe even had he been willing to risk it. The good Mrs. Forest, in packing for their impromptu visit, had not thought to equip him for proper riding attire, and so there were only two coats to chose from come the morning, notwithstanding an old thing from his university days that was still found haunting his former quarters. Mindful of the possibility of even more dinners to dress for, Henry was forced to make do with an article far out of fashion. As was his custom, he found comfort in the humour of the situation, recognizing that what he considered barely presentable was still the rule for his brother-in-law's ensemble. While holding the strongest opinion of that friend's good sense and character, Henry once again lamented the viscount’s complete indifference to clothing, a characteristic unmodified by his elevation in any noticeable way. Deciding he simply must arrange for them to see a tailor when next paying a call, Henry savoured the noble feeling of determining to offer a kindness without any pressing need to actually do so.
His spirits were further buoyed by his ability to master the stairs of his own accord, only needing to pause twice to gather his strength. The short walk to the breakfast parlour did not conquer him, and if he directed a servant to fetch the food, it did not diminish his feelings of triumph. He felt healthier, stronger, and altogether more akin to his usual frame of mind, prompting him to greet his father with genial good humour upon his entrance. As per usual when he wanted to be out, the general did not take long to eat, and it was therefore only a short time before the two made their way to the stable.
It was only a little daunting for Henry to approach the horse held for him; his youth had afforded him plenty of opportunities to learn the wisdom of always stepping back into the saddle after an accident. He did not admonish the servant who prepared a stepping block for him with great discretion, hidden until the the general turned to his own animal. Instead he gratefully accepted help in mounting, taking a moment to clear any confusion brought on by the sudden movement before following the his father's lead. As General Tilney liked speed and horsemanship best, their rides had never been leisurely enough to allow much conversation. Unlike on other occasions, though, Henry was thankful for this impediment, devoting his full attention to the task of managing his horse. He fell behind, not wishing to risk too strenuous a canter with the state of his concentration, and was not sorry for it, happy to let the other man clear the way ahead.
Contemplation must intrude, however. He could not help observing a metaphor in his current position: how many times had he demurred, not daring to challenge the way prepared for him, casually accepting the unyielding nature of his father's guidance? Such a course had not steered him wrong: education and occupation alike provided the foundation for his present felicity, and he would never have been afforded as many opportunities for travel and recreation without fraternal license. Henry had played the amiable, dutiful son for so long that perhaps it was unsurprising his father should be shocked he could do other
but
perform obedience in all things, even unto matrimony.
Yet even as Henry guided his animal around a rocky patch rather than leap it like the horse before him, he considered again how little he had ever followed the example set. Where the general valued victory over one's enemies, Henry had pursued a more conciliatory policy, not openly challenging his father's goals so that he was free to manoeuvrer where silence gave him opening. So often the general's bluster led to nothing; it was not worth arguing over, as it blew over so quickly. His brother never had been able to learn the value of waiting for the sun to shine instead of cursing the clouds hiding it.
Really, Henry's open rebellion came as a shock to himself as much as his father: not because he never acted contrary to the other's opinion but because he was usually careful not to draw attention to the fact, preferring to wait the old man out than challenge him. There had never been anything worth the confrontation, not even his sister's unhappiness, or his friend's reluctance to openly address her. Those lovers had suffered in silence, and he—while far from disinterested—had been led by their example. Nothing, in short, had brought him so close to fulfilling his father's continual prodding to take the initiative as when Henry was commanded to abandon Catherine. Nor, he realized, had he quite forgiven his father yet, as his own recent display of temper exposed.
He was quite far behind now, having slowed to a walk to better keep his balance. The general was circling around, and Henry shook his head in recognition of how clearly exultant the man was to prove his superior riding against a younger (even weakened) opponent. For so he had been taught from a young age: ally or foe, all were to be weighed according to the aim of one’s own desire. Even an intimate acquaintance must constantly be proven through competition. Henry had not ascribed to this philosophy; he liked his relationships cordial, easy, and unmarred by superciliousness. It was Catherine's greatest attraction how little she considered rank or superiority, how strong was her capacity for courtesy and forbearance. It was gratifying for others to finally realize her worth, even if he could not help wishing it had come far sooner, without nearly as much heartache for the lady to bear.
A thought struck him unwanted as he turned back, and attempted to guide his way without a leader: was his lingering resentment due solely to aggravation at his father's wantonness alone, or did part of it emerge from frustration at his own passivity? No complaint had ever been hinted at by his long-suffering, gentle wife, but she could not help noticing how often Henry let matters come to a head rather than meet them, that his pursuit of discretion as the better valour sometimes led to overcautious complacency. His brief dalliance with defiance had not erased this tendency, as recent events proved.
If, a week past, he had been firmer with Frederick from the start, rather than switch between lures and threats—all equally impotent—would his brother even now be safely back with his regiment unwounded? Or if Henry left at once to find him the next morning, rather than waiting over half the day, would he and Catherine have been saved their misadventure? He should have brought an entire company with him, rather than worry over what Wilcox might say; indeed, it appeared the man had
still
voiced his complaints, regardless of any precautions taken. Whatever might be the fault of others in this sorry affair, and he was not so carried away as to overlook their part, Henry must admit he had not acted altogether wisely, to the detriment not only of himself but those he loved most. It was a sobering admission for a young man of seven and twenty to make, especially one so used to feeling more than satisfied with his own sagacity.
His ruminations were cut short by the general urging him to race back toward the house; with the way already cleared, Henry did not think twice before agreeing. He might even have gained the advantage of his steed's earlier rest had not the general outflanked him with a better angle, and pushed ahead in the final leg of their ride. The good humour he radiated at this success was infectious, and though beaten, Henry still enjoyed a heady sense of accomplishment from his own exertions, encouraged by his father's open praise of them.
All of this camaraderie prompted him to comment, in as offhand a manner as he could conceive, that he would be glad to discuss the previously mentioned report when convenient. "I am afraid I did not attend well last night, and was very lacking in my replies. Could I, in fact, review it first?"
His father, already instructing the butler about his itinerary for the day, easily added this command to a string of others about his papers. A quick inquiry informed Henry that Mrs. Tilney had gone out for a walk and not returned yet, and he was further cheered when this news was met with only a distracted nod, and the pronouncement that they would meet again by one, ere his father left for his rooms. With plenty of experience with this sort of dismissal Henry went to change as well, determined to enjoy the grounds again with his wife before setting down to read whatever fractious commentary had been sent from Woodston.
He turned out of habit to the nearby back stair, intent on taking up the challenge of yet another journey under his own power, and was so caught up in his mediations that he nearly stumbled into a figure coming around the corner in a hurried bustle. Fortunately
he
was not so preoccupied and stepped to the side, apologizing with a sharp intake of breath. "At ease, Darrow, it is my fault entirely," Henry assured the servant, whose drawn and pallid look was as surprising as his sudden appearance. His brother's valet usually appeared imperturbable no matter the requirement, a necessary trait when serving any Tilney. With chagrin Henry realized he had spared few thoughts for said brother beyond the barest confirmation of his survival. "I take it from Doctor Morton that Captain Tilney is recovering well."
"He says so?" was the question blurted out with a mixed incredulity and exasperation, before Darrow tightened his lips and nodded with a faint "Yes, sir."
This reaction was enough to keep Henry from moving on, and he regarded the man with an equal scepticism. "The past week has been difficult for everyone, though I dare say you shouldered as heavy a load as any."
"Thank you sir."
"I must, if no one else has done so, tender gratitude for coming in search of Frederick last Wednesday; an age and a quarter ago, or so it feels! Playing at might have beens is a fruitless venture, but I at least am thankful you were so diligent, for who knows what may have occurred otherwise."
A bit of colour returned to the man's features, though they remained inscrutable and his posture wary. "God be praised, sir," was the polite reply at last given.
The impromptu conversation was becoming absurd; Henry did not wish to increase Darrow's unease by forcing him to loiter about the corridor, nor linger himself. But he was also growing truly concerned. Abandoning subtlety, he answered, "Amen. But do you agree with the good doctor's opinion of my brother?"
It was a horribly unpolitic inquiry, nearly commanding the man tell tales on a master and officer, and one Henry shrank from even as he made it. Still, he needed to know, if only for his own peace of mind, let alone the ramifications to all if Frederick were to worsen.
Darrow drew himself up, his mouth working but making no sound as he struggled to answer. Taking pity on his obvious anxiety, Henry gestured to the nearest room, and once they were safely out of sight or hearing from any passing attendant, was provided the following advice: "Perhaps it would be best if someone else saw him: there is nothing more a physician may do."
"Someone else? To whom do you refer?"
"I am sure I do not know. It is not something I thought to look for
here—
" his eyes withdrew, and his voice sank lower still—"though Lieutenant Thomas had been relieved at that church near Lisbon, and of a like evil."
"I will answer for Dr. Prewitt, that even were he amendable and skilled enough for the task, exorcism is hardly the Church of England's cure for paralysis, no matter what the priests on the continent may recommend."
"No, of course not sir, I did not mean to imply any of the regiment would consort with Papist devilry." Before Henry could decide exactly how his ordination required him to treat this sterling testimony, it was quickly followed by a statement far more perplexing:
"'Twere a witch that cured him of the ague when nothing else worked."
To his credit, Darrow looked somewhat abashed at this recommendation to a clergyman, but as he had in fact done so
—
after great reluctance
—
Henry did him the justice of his motives rather than belittle or question their expression, even if he could not help wondering to himself whether this malady was more tribute to Venus or Bacchus (or, he almost smiled, perhaps both). Yet for his man to fret so, Frederick must be exhibiting some very queer symptoms, which it was hard for Henry to even conceive of the usually confident, even arrogant captain, who fought troubles rather than fear them. The memory of his brother's odd, almost mad, behaviour at the start of this ordeal arrested Henry. He had put it down at the time to the affects of drink and disappointment, and no doubt that was still true, but had there been a deeper cause for his rashness? His brother, however trying of patience, was not usually so lacking in sense.
"I am sorry sir, I should not have said as much. Though if you were to see him"...
The servant trailed off with reluctance, but whether it was from not finishing or making the suggestion at all was unclear. Henry's own experience warned that an intrusion would not be appreciated; and besides, what could he discover that Morton had not? Then every minute wasted in the hopeless endeavour would be stolen from his reunion with Catherine, who he had yet to see that day and whose company would be far more agreeable.
Catching himself lapsing into indecision, Henry ended both their miseries by commanding what had been hinted. "Once you have show me to the room, please bear word to Mrs. Tilney that I am in counsel with my brother, and that I will see her afterward."
If crossing a full turn of the abbey's court was less momentous than of the Rubicon, it was at least as full of conflicting expectations for Henry. With nothing but idle fancies to guide his conjectures, he was forced to abandon them, and schooled himself in the principals of his college and religion, and what is more long acquaintance with Frederick. Whether his wounds were only physical, or required some other succour, was a question Henry would not guess at, would not make assumptions regarding, without observing the truth for himself.
For anyone who tried comment on my
blog
earlier as part of #MemeMonday, image/GIF uploading is now fixed.
Posted on 2021-12-13
Chapter 28
A loud curse answered his knock, warning Henry not to expect a warm welcome. "I am glad to hear your lungs are recovered enough for such energetic pronouncements," he said on coming into the room. The large cast drew his eye first, and it was evident how little mobility such a huge encumbrance would allow. Next he noticed the number of bottles scattered about in various degrees of emptying, of which none looked to contain the watery wine Henry had limited himself to over the past week. Nor did he see any other distractions as he had been availed of: no books, no pen and paper, no letters or pictures were present to bid the patient consider more than his own fate.
"Are you here to stare, or did you want something else?" were the words that interrupted Henry's abstraction.
"I only wished to check on your progress. Doctor Morton has been concerned it was proceeding slowly."
"That man is a fool and the devil may take him. A common surgeon in the regulars could have done the job as easily, and without all this bother about keeping to a diet or avoiding spirits or johnny may have you."
Henry smiled sympathetically. "It is never pleasant to take one's medicine. But the weather is very fine today, and not at all cool: would you like the window open?" Without waiting for an answer he went to do so, pleased to feel his arms capable of the action. Turning back to his brother he asked, "What about a game? The chess board is in the drawing room: I could have it sent for, you have not enjoyed the pleasure of beating me in some time."
He was met with suspicious eyes and an unfamiliar lethargy rather than a sharp retort threatening him with perdition, as he half expected. Frederick shrugged at last, as if he had not energy to decide, and Henry took that as permission to send for such things as he thought might be pleasant distractions: newspapers, nuts and dried fruit, as well as the backgammon and chess sets. Soon he had the latter pieces set up, generously yielding white to his opponent, and started a one-sided conversation about topics he usually displayed little enthusiasm for. He spoke of horse markets and races, asked after the latest scandals and gossip, almost begged to be corrected in his knowledge of the political sphere.
Whatever bleakness oppressed Frederick's spirits had not diminished his faculties. Henry's initial bold strokes were soon checked by the other's deft use of his knights, and it was not long before the black queen fell victim to the same strategy as her pawns and bishop. Here the other man showed the first signs of life as he swept his prize off the board. "Best keep your eyes open, Henry, or you are sunk in six moves."
"That long? Surely five would do."
"Easy enough; I was offering you a chance, but for a small wager I could do it in four."
"Overconfidence is hardly a sign of good health. I shall not take your money when you are obviously not in your right mind."
"You mean you are too nervous to risk yours; or are you going to plead piety? Because I could tell tales about our chaplain that would make this little game look like child's play. Clear took the shirt off a new recruit before he had even bought his full uniform."
"Well I hope he lent it back, as the sermon on the mount instructs, at least until he earned a proper income. Which, by the by, I must consider, as between this past Sunday and the next I have surrendered a portion of the tithes to my curate, so you will forgive me if I am not eager to lose any more money on that account." Seeing an opening, Henry was happy to at last claim one of the hated white cavalrymen, triumphantly holding it aloft. "You see Frederick, it never pays to gambol a horse ahead," he laughed, unable to resist teasing, but stopped at the sour look on the other's face.
"Why are you still hanging about? I would have expected you to run away soon as you had the chance."
"Believe me, that was my intention," Henry answered, eyeing his brother carefully. "Come, Frederick, your move: still convinced you have me?"
"Of course. Ten pounds and two moves."
"I do not think—"
"Five pounds then. Do not prove yourself a coward, that's as much as a child would bet."
"And childish I would be to take it. No, Frederick, I sense my defeat looming, I feel no desire to prove I am bereft of pence as well as strategy."
"You can take your jokes straight to H—l if you are only here to mock me. It is bad enough you broke my leg! if I had my whip I could show you how we handle wags on the front lines."
"Careful Frederick, you will convince me I am playing opposite our father if you keep talking that way. I am sorry: no more cleverness, on my honour, I shall take my drubbing like a good soldier."
"A soldier!" Here Frederick actually attempted to sit up, the board so delicately wedged between them shuffled so that all the pieces shifted and rolled in the quake. But the cast proved an impediment, and his brother settled for reaching across the scattered battlefield to grab Henry's sleeve in a violent grip. "You, a soldier? You would not last a day, an hour. Do not dare imply otherwise, you don't deserve to even speak of him. He was ten times the man you are, than the general, than half the army thrown together!"
"Who?" Henry asked, startled and alarmed by this outburst.
"Who do you think? And do not pretend like our father you don't remember him, I shall jog your memory myself if I have to."
"Tell me then, only for Heaven's sake please hold still Frederick, I have not the strength to lift us both if you upset yourself further."
"You never did."
"Perhaps not. But I would hate to admit as much to Morton: he would sentence me to another week of the abbey for sure."
"As if you must suffer the same prison as I."
"I assure you I
have
: I barely moved from my own sickbed until two days ago."
The brothers stared at each other, one prone and glaring, the other struggling to keep his composure. At last Frederick let him go, and Henry fell back in the chair, messaging his aching arm and shoulder.
"So you were ill?" was the calm, innocuous inquiry that came next.
"Fairly," Henry returned, prepared to offer the same civility as he was given. "Pneumonia, fever, confined to bed, just the usual; but otherwise, I am fit as ever."
"You always did take it poorly when hurt. Cried your way to Mother's arms and begged to be coddled at the slightest bruise to the head."
"As I recall, I fell from a tree and hit a boulder, but your point is taken." Henry caught himself from arguing further, and turned back to his real concern. "Perhaps, though, you could enlighten me as to whom you were referring? I am afraid I have not a notion."
Frederick continued eyeing him with some penetration, hiding whatever his feelings were behind that black glassy stare. But then he turned away, looking out the window, and pointed to the newspapers. "Read for yourself."
It took Henry some shifting about to discover the correct article, as Frederick refused to communicate further on the subject. But whatever Henry lacked in stratagem and cunning, he more than made up for when presented with a logical puzzle, aided by years spent sifting through testaments for any scrap of meaning. Deducing the offending news had to relate to the military, and of a date prior to his own arrival back at Northanger, Henry soon narrowed his search to a few pages, and from there, it was a matter of doggedly skimming each paragraph till he had found something promising:
"In
Holland
there has been a great deal of severe fighting, and the French have counted every inch of ground with great tenacity. On the 5th, there was bloody action in which both parties suffered much. The want of forage is the real impediment to more rapid advances, as is the loss of the brave Colonel Beaumont, who died leading his men to safety. He will be forever remembered as the proper example of an English commander, loyal to the last."
The name struck him as someone he should know, though the exact identity remained a mystery to him. "Frederick, I seem to recall this Colonel Beaumont. Did we meet with him in London some time?"
"He was in charge of the 27th and fought with our father on the continent, they served together for years. I suppose you never remember him taking us around a garrison, and demonstrating how to light a canon?"
"I recall nearly burning my hand trying to grab at it once, but I had thought that was some time Father toured us around."
"
He
never did. Generals are not to be bothered with such things."
That phrase caught Henry, as none of the other descriptions had, and he seemed to bring to mind a vague picture of black whiskers mouthing the words even as the man smiled and took their hands. "Did he have a star, or something like, on his coat? I seem to remember that."
"The Order of the Bath: he was knighted, we went to the ceremony."
Henry had no recollection of ever attending it, nor could he bring to mind any further details of this individual. "I am afraid he made a firmer impression on you than me."
"Of course. You never really cared for the service or its honours."
He could not argue against this accusation, and looked back at the newspaper for further clues to why this man should matter.
"I went to stay with him and his men at nineteen. Capital season, absolutely bracing. He was past forty and still could shoot of a morning, drink in the afternoon, and dance until dawn. We never came in before midnight. You do not know what you missed, sitting at home reading your books."
That year held very different memories for Henry, who had read books and songs and even advertisements, anything he thought might cheer their thirteen-year-old sister still fresh in mourning, while earnestly praying through his own difficulties when they were separated. He had never considered where Frederick was, just as he had only noticed the general's frequent removals with relief. Obviously, they had been schooled in different methods of consolation, the former of which left Frederick with few options for expressing his bruised feelings now. Nor did Henry believe their father as forgetful as Frederick believed: likely, as with his last great loss, the general was very afflicted by the news, and as unwilling to admit it except by a greater fluctuation of temper than was usual even for him. As with his brother's lacklustre seduction, the germ of his father's belligerence may have been as little connected with either Henry, Catherine, or their marriage: they were all merely convenient targets in lieu of what he was impotent to strike at, and ones he could not escape despite his druthers for seclusion to alloy his gloom.
"It does not say when his funeral was held," Henry remarked, falling upon politeness to fill the silence.
"Of course not, how could there be when he was lost on the French side? He'll have been buried with the rest of the fallen after the battle." Frederick rolled his eyes in disgust at his brother's feeble grasp of warfare.
"Yes, I see. But I have known of some ceremonies to be held even without the body present."
"I have drunk to his health: that is all he would have wanted. Do not go pulling your prayer book out like a ninny."
That was actually the next suggestion Henry had been considering, and though slightly irritated at being so transparent, he was left with little to direct him in helping this difficult ram, so shorn of any flock and in need of a shepherd's guidance. He thought of retiring, but was less than sanguine at the idea of Frederick left for weeks to come, immobile and inconsolable, grieving despite himself, and with nothing to distract him except his servant's harassment.
"Have you heard any news from Vermond lately?" he asked, searching for something they could agree on. "I have been somewhat dead to the world at large, but as far as I am aware, there has been no sighting of a future viscount to make our sister's joy complete."
"No, and I would have heard by now if it had been done, having endured enough predictions on that front to turn the Ace of Spades red. The general's eager enough to do the deed if our brother does not hurry, providing he could make it stick in court." And Frederick laughed aloud with so much good humour that Henry kept any strictures against ribald musings to himself.
"I cannot speculate on that front, but as they are not engaged at present, why not write and see if you might winter with them? It will be warmer at our sister's home, they always set a good table, and you would face a better opponent across the board than my poor offices may provide."
"Perhaps." Frederick shrugged, unenthusiastic.
"Of course you would miss out on the club entirely, or the Michaelmas accounting; I suppose you might have been looking forward to a share in the workings of the estate."
"
You
can help him jig about the countryside distributing pamphlets and overseeing projects, being made for that sort of thing. Spare me entirely. Besides," and Frederick pointed with undisguised relish, "I am injured. Reprieve from active service and all, I shan't be called into the field till the new year at least."
"Shall I write to Eleanor then?"
"Well I should like to face someone decent at chess: lord Henry, you played like a novice. Stepped into your own mousetrap and had your head stuffed with bacon ever since."
"I will admit to not having played in some time; my wife and I prefer cards of an evening. However, if you will allow me to set up the pieces again, we might test whether your boasts were idle or warranted, and I shall even lay a guinea down if you like."
Frederick closed at once with the opportunity to profit from his brother's downfall, and by degrees was coaxed from tolerating the idea of removal, to anticipating it, and finally to adding his own instructions to the letter Henry began penning, even as he mercilessly took every black chessman in sight. I leave it then to be determined if the soldier or the cleric acquitted himself with more cunning; and though it was the ebony king who eventually bowed low, both sides left the game pretty well satisfied with the outcome.
Today's bonus blog
post
: an examination of family in Austen's works, in honor of her birthday this week.
Posted on 2021-12-13
Chapter 29
The trials of the previous day were nothing compared to the solace Catherine received that morning. Breakfast proved not only enjoyable but enlightening: the doctor was a most pleasant companion, with plenty of anecdotes regarding his tenure caring for those in the household. Learning the gentlemen were out riding, and that she was not to leave until Monday, Catherine nevertheless was given every assurance of good will from all; when she boldly asked after walking, the doctor confirmed it as an excellent idea, encouraging her to go as soon as she liked to enjoy the fine weather.
She little needed this urging, and only waited for her hat to be fetched. Soon she was out, and rather than escaping any scene, or fearing lest she should be wanted back soon, Catherine gave herself up to all the joy of a leisurely excursion. Barely a lane or path was undisturbed; nothing was seen that was not admired. It was so good to relax, to need consider no other object than the pleasures of nature, and she roamed to her heart's content.
By the time she returned to the abbey, Catherine felt fully restored, and able to brave any delay in their departure. Indeed, she almost wished they could remain: it would require twice as long ere she might claim the entire property surveyed. But, she happily remembered, now that the general appeared more disposed in their favour, they might attend him at some future date; it remained only to imagine their sister and her husband to complete this harmonious picture. But Catherine would not dare wish it to be; she allowed the hope of possibility to achieve its purpose, without demanding of it ready promises. She would be grateful, no matter how indifferent time was to her own aspirations. Only, she did wish for Henry's sake it might be something in that direction.
When said husband at last found her, Catherine had repaired to the library with a novel, her fingers half-heartedly working at a handkerchief, her eyes far more occupied by the page before her. So absorbed was she by the degradations of the characters' plight as to be wholly unaware of anyone else in the room, till a gentle laugh brought her eyes up to take in the welcome sight of her Henry, no longer brought low by discouragement or infirmity, but watching her with such animated vitality she must say his name and run into his arms, book and work both forgotten.
"A bit gentler, my dear, I am afraid I have been straining my shoulder again," he said, and Catherine moved at once to let him go, but found herself held tight by his power instead. "Fear not, it is only a little pain; do not think I am undesirous or ungrateful of your warm welcome."
"It is a relief to see you so much better. I hope you enjoyed your ride."
"It was very instructive, an admission that would please my father, who by the by is in the best of moods. I believe he is quite satisfied with affairs, which is almost never the case."
Catherine smiled. "How wonderful; do you know, that is just the word I would use to describe my walks? Every time I have learned something new. I have almost begun to feel as if I were grown."
"How distressing a notion: for if you are past youth what hope have I? Beware Catherine: your future is upon you, with an ageing husband in his dotage barely able to care for himself, and certainly unable to keep up with a lively wife."
She declaimed any such notion, declared he would be healthier than ever, "and besides, I am not even twenty yet, so one could hardly consider either of us aged."
"I see you are still so tender as to believe only what is best and good in the world, even regarding our imperfect souls, which must disprove any suspicions of worldly senility. I am glad whatever secrets Northanger Abbey has seen fit to disclose have had no ill effect on your excellent judgment. But I fear I have interrupted your womanly industry, which mars the lesson a little."
"As to that, I am afraid I have not made much progress."
"But how could you, with only two hands, and so much for them to do? And is it for the wife alone to labour while her husband idles? Nay, we must seek a different moral: I will deign to read, that you may stitch and listen."
"Oh thank you!" Catherine said, overjoyed. "It is what I would like above all things."
So Henry took up the pages while Catherine took her seat. Lest any reader think his was the lighter chore, he refused to recline, but instead brought the story to life around her with the vivacity of ten players on the stage. Our heroine, though mightily distracted, still stuck to her own task with such steadiness of will that one whole corner was embroidered by the end of a chapter's recitation, so that toil was pretty equally shared between them.
"You read so very well," Catherine remarked when he had finished, clapping for his performance.
"It is easy to do so, when the listener is apt to be pleased. You are so kind as to make any task sweet to undertake."
"But it is not always so: I am afraid I have been very uncharitable of late."
"Excessively, and never more than now. You place me in the worst position possible: for if I agree, and seek to validate your opinion, I must be accused of uncharity myself, through slandering a noble lady. But if I argue and defend your virtue, you will call me quarrelsome, and I will stand condemned for accusing you of falsity. What philosopher would presume to judge which of these evils be the lesser? Please, merciful goddess, do not force me to sail between their monstrous depths, in such a dangerous odyssey of the soul. Have pity on a poor gentleman of Gloucestershire." And Henry with a pertinent air dropped to his knees, the book outstretched before him in offering.
Catherine could not decide if she should laugh or scold, and so took the volume from him instead. "Perhaps I should read to you next: then there will be no need to choose who is right."
"Fair Athene, thy wisdom is never lacking." Henry smiled from his kneel with such liveliness that Catherine only shook her head as she smiled back, unable to furnish any further objection to this praise. They were interrupted by the arrival of letters, which Catherine received with delight, for the good Mrs. Forest had forwarded every piece of correspondence received at the parsonage that week for her master and mistress. Soon they were both absorbed in happy tidings from all their family and friends, with plenty to share between them.
"Oh Henry, here is a letter from George: see, he has managed to pen the entire thing himself!"
"Splendid: with those large bold letters, he must be understood by even the most short-sighted postal clerk. Ah, our relations from Vermond write at last! It seems they have been away from home and their mail delayed in being forwarded, which on arrival was so affecting they returned the favour by misdirecting the reply. Shall we be generous and accept their laggard commiseration?"
"Yes of course, only I hope Eleanor is not so very sad now that she must know how differently things stand."
"In very many ways, not only respecting our health. It does seem she had received reports from another quarter that matters were not so dire, which we must be grateful for, as she writes with greater composure than might otherwise have been imagined. Hmm, she has been unwell herself of late, which though she will not allow it may have also inhibited her letter-writing to a degree. But our brother furnishes the difference with assurances that she is rallying with admirable fortitude."
"That is certainly good news. Stay, here is a note from Mother, I forgot she may not have received my last, for her chief news is of the chimneys causing no further trouble since being cleaned, with some recommendations if we face similar difficulties."
"I trust we will be spared the need for them. Ha! Here is a very stout letter from the good widow Stanton, declaring the village well cared for in our absence. Jones did not write nearly as many details regarding the parish."
"Likely he is unaware of them, if she felt he did not need to know. Does she tell whether the miller's family is well? I do not find Mrs. Forest has any news in her letter."
"The only mention of Hayes is a brief commendation of his solitude on our behalf at prayers. I believe we may safely assume all were safely preserved, for otherwise Mrs. Stanton’s attached sick list is exhaustive, down to the barest hint of a sneeze. And what else does our housekeeper not reveal? Do you suppose Will has been out riding every day and fancying himself the man of the house?"
"She says he has been a model boy, so well behaved and desirous to help her and Mrs. Poole, and that they are eagerly preparing for our return."
"Well, it would be as wrong to accuse her of falsehood as your own good person, so we must believe it to be true. But I dare say it will be no bad thing for them to learn we are to tarry a bit longer, and offer them a holiday in reward for their faithfulness."
"Yes, we must write to tell them, they will be very glad to hear it."
"Not if I tell them they must also prepare a meal for my father come Monday."
"Oh, does he mean to journey with us?"
Henry looked thoughtful, and began sorting the papers they had stacked between them on the sofa. "He hinted at the scheme last night. I confess I half-expected him to dismiss the whole evening's talk as a mere device, for what purpose who could guess, and yet it has proven more genuine than could have been earlier supposed. He has become almost excited to claim us, where but two days ago he offered only scorn."
"He must be so overjoyed at the progress you and your brother have made." Catherine offered this explanation at last, when Henry fell silent. "I think he has been very worried; when we went for our walk, he spoke of building the future, and ensuring the endurance of the family. He was very upset."
"I can well imagine, though whether it was from the same cause as you so kindly infer I will not attempt to divine. Certainly he feels things very deeply when there is a disruption in his life, too deeply I think: he and Frederick are very alike in that regard. They cannot bear it when they are powerless to act. And I have learned of late that he is not altogether free of regret." He looked up and took her hand. "Will it disturb you, to discuss my brother? I do not wish you pained by it."
Catherine considered a moment, struck by the exceptional seriousness of her husband's mien. It had always been difficult to consider the captain as her kin: he had done so much wrong, and to all appearances cared so little about it. Yet here Henry was, alive and well, with only the request that she let him unburden his heart. There was really no question of what her answer must be, and she begged he speak at once, wanting above all to provide whatever support her husband might need regardless of who or what they discussed. The revelations contained within this conversation were not limited to the captain alone; there was so much to share, so much unsaid between them, as would make this already full volume stretch far beyond the capacity of even the most generous reader to endure. Let it be understood that each were rewarded for their patient struggles and hard-won knowledge with all the appreciation and sympathy they were so deserving of. There is nothing so conducive toward advancing a young couple's devotion as the sharing not only of suffering, but the solace given thereafter.
It therefore cannot be surprising that the day passed for them with such cordial feelings, such unity of spirit, that all other concerns paled in comparison. Henry must eventually attend his father, after a thorough study of a different letter entirely—which merits he was able to appreciate with far greater equanimity in seeing it was written with no specific insult, and only the everyday malice its author seemed perpetually to sink to when ungoverned by any other authority. It was at least, like all Mr. Wilcox's statements, thorough, and provided the gentlemen with plenty to canvass whether appreciatively or otherwise, uniting in shared objectives what might never have been knitted through sentiment or principle. When they were all three together, the younger generation must endure every bragging pronouncement, but as the general did not rescind his olive branch they were content to receive it in the spirit offered. It was closed upon he would accompany them come Monday back to Woodston, but would only stay long enough to see the parsonage before making a complete inspection of his lands before harrying off to meet with his lawyer again.
The suggestion of Frederick's removal was made and considered, and as it might lead to the general himself enjoying a long visit with the viscount, applauded. Appropriate messages were sent out to all parties, and dinner was made the more enjoyable by its brevity: with no outside guest present, the general did not stand on nearly as much ceremony, and was happy enough to resume the satisfying engrossment of his own papers while relinquishing his son to an entirely different form of fascination.
To all these joys was added the happiness Catherine received when Henry was able to not only escort her upstairs without betraying any great fatigue, but also her own chamber. Many may suspect the night was far too short to contain the mysteries they might continue delving together, but it must be confessed that a day of strenuous activity and exhaustive discussions, after so much confinement and repression, proved more taxing than either had realized, and it was not long before both succumbed to the sweet pull of slumber's embrace, safely cradled in each other's arms.
Posted on 2021-12-20
Chapter 30
The last two days spent at Northanger Abbey passed without any further terrors to dispel their comfort. Henry was able to once again ride with his father, in even higher spirits and more strength of body, and Catherine was pleased at table to observe how cordial they appeared conversing with each other. They would perhaps never enjoy the same easy understanding as existed with her own father; yet it appeared they were able to peaceably discuss what subjects pleased them both, and left off those unproductive for this purpose. Had the captain been able to join them Catherine believed she could find it in her heart to accept his presence as well. Since he was still confined by his injury, however, she did him far more justice, and graciously yielded the majority of her husband's spare moments. By this means she afforded herself with the gratification that comes from kindness, without the need to endure the actual means of accomplishing it.
She passed her time in walks, reading, mending, and waiting on the general, who was determined to offer as much paternal advice to his daughter-in-law within the space of their few hours together as had been lacking during the entirety of their acquaintance to date. It is well she did not feel obligated to attend to every word, as sometimes their meaning was not readily apparent. Henry shook his head after one such conversation when his father left the room, and assured her that whatever might be that man's standards, his son possessed no similar proclivities when it came to the arrangement of furniture or especially the scheduling of meals. "He has his ways, which we must accommodate ourselves to while here; but we have ours, and there is no need to confuse the two."
"Yet there may be some improvements undertaken. I am not unwilling to hear him out."
"That is as it should be: listening is a fine art to practice, provided the hearer possesses steadfastness of character. And that I know you have in abundance."
So while Henry encouraged his brother, Catherine exercised her principles by allowing the general to manifest his own. She took to writing things down when they were together, a practice that endeared her to him, though it must be confessed her notes did not altogether conform to what had been said. Oftener they contained questions instead of answers, which might later be applied to her housekeeper or mother. Yet however little she meant to do exactly as she was told, she always paid her instructor the distinction of inspiring her thoughts, thanking him most prettily for his efforts and therefore receiving the approbation that came from a ready assumption of her conformity. If it is unknown for a family to occasionally achieve better harmony by fixing their understanding of each other rather than full disclosure, the compliment of originality must be applied to this arrangement by any of discerning taste.
As further proofs of my premise, their attendance at services the next day was of so marked a change in the performance of this duty as should be remarked on. For the general did not merely allow but urged Catherine to avail herself of any of the viscountess's clothing which was available, and ordered the housekeeper to ensure someone sensible was assigned to see to his daughter's needs. When Catherine tried to claim there was no need for these attentions, she found herself balked by two voices, for though Henry spoke more generously, he nevertheless insisted she give way. "It is only right," he said later, as they went upstairs, "for now Eleanor will feel she has been able to furnish us with some tangible aid."
It still felt strange when Catherine found herself attended by two maids, and presented with an extravagance of dress, after making do with her simpler habits for the past week. Feeling self-conscious, yet also delightedly fresh and tidy, she was soon paid the compliment of inspiring admiration from the two gentlemen, and while Henry was quick to take her arm in leading her to the carriage, the general was no less eager to be seen helping her out in full view of the assembly. There was no rush to enter the church today; they were made to loiter as some of the congregation came to greet them, and Catherine was introduced to so many she soon lost count, deciding she must rely on Henry's superior knowledge if asked a name. Her deference and composure only added to her appearance, and it is debatable whether father or son was more proud of the scene unfolding, even if the latter's sensibilities might be of sincerer expression.
How soothing it was to finally take their pew, and for Catherine to enjoy the rare opportunity to stand alongside her husband as they shared in the familiar litany, bowing heads in thanksgiving, mouthing hymns of praise, and uniting with these newfound friends in a study of holy writ. It passed more quickly than the lesson's fastidious inspection of the apostle's choice of clauses would have suggested. Catherine found herself the subject of even more scrutiny after its conclusion, as all those who had not arrived early enough to be introduced must now have their turn in sharing the honour, and the general was not above approaching those unaware of this privilege who might otherwise have left without it.
When at last it became clear that most of the congregation were departing, and General Tilney safely detained by a group of his usual friends, Catherine asked her husband if he might show her the church itself, as she had not felt comfortable exploring before. They were aided in this examination by the vicar, who had patiently waited his turn to speak to the young couple. He expressed his gratitude at observing Henry's recovery, though admitting to former knowledge of it thanks to the doctor's intelligence. "And indeed, I think he has spoken to a number of people, for we have not enjoyed this large an attendance in several weeks."
Catherine observed that the fairer weather must be as much an inducement as their presence, prompting Henry to offer his own theory regarding whose fairer appearance might inspire worship, so that she could not help answering his pointed comment about radiance with the same colour painted in her own cheeks.
The older clergyman smiled sagely. "Henry has always been very fond of words; it is good to know his wits are unharmed by his experiences, though nothing thus far has seemed able to restrain them."
This observation led to others on the same subject, and Dr. Prewitt was kind enough to indulge Catherine any number of inquires regardless of the gentleman's feelings. Before long they had canvassed not only the church's history but Henry's own within it, from christening to ordination. The vicar ended by thanking the young lady for attending so well, followed by a hint to his colleague that however necessary it might have been to continue his path of sanctification through marriage in another parish, the fruit of that labour would be expected to bless his home eventually. This advice, solemnly delivered, was answered by matching blushes in his small audience, and allowed him to depart with all the dignity of having delivered a final word in conversation with a person who seldom granted him the opportunity before, even at the baptismal font.
In companionable quiet they turned toward the aisle, and Catherine found herself drawn once more to the monument of a very different Mrs. Tilney. Henry followed her eyes, and she saw his attention catch as well. "Do you like it?" he asked.
Standing with her husband, and filled with both a better and measured consideration for the place he sprang from, she could now see some element of beauty that was heretofore overlooked. It was still not her idea of a warm testament, or indeed very fitting with the other architecture of the church. But it was solidly built, and furnished all who looked on it with a reminder that once there was a woman esteemed so highly that even in death, she must be honoured.
"I find it very inspiring; there is nothing else like it here."
"That is certainly true." Henry continued looking it over, for once keeping his thoughts to himself while perusing his mother's legacy. Eventually he added, "And there will probably not be another, since the artist commissioned no longer ranks among the living. It was a great expense, like everything else to do for her."
Catherine nodded, and examining the inscription again, asked if Henry would translate, "For you know I never can make out Latin."
"'Love is in our power, but not to lay it aside.' It is a common enough maxim, of the sort your brothers probably laboured over like I and my fellows did at Oxford."
"It is a handsome sentiment."
"Oh yes, a handsomely carved phrase. Any one who has read his letters will have an idea of its meaning, and by acknowledging the same will distinguish himself as handsome to know, while all those who have not will be impressed by the engraving. A more munificent monument was never before designed."
Here Catherine recognized her husband's habitual philosophy returning, and by this turn in speech perceived he was not overcome with any melancholy remembrances. She therefore took leave to acknowledge, "I am sure it is very correct. But I do not think I should like anything like it at my own grave."
"Oh?" Henry's smiling gaze turned to her. "And what sort of relic are you about to request from me?"
"None at all. For I would hope we neither of us would have need to consider those things, by living so long together. Any memorial must be provided by our children."
"As another Henry said to his bride Catherine, 'That is good English.' I believe we should take our bow, and leave this stage: no better denouncement could be devised." Fitting steps to his speech, he guided her to join their father outside, and so on to their conveyance. As they were about to pass beneath the tall arch of the door, Henry confided, "I must confess I would appreciate any epilogue you might provide on the subject, when we are at last home."
There was not a Catherine written who would shrink from such an invitation; and though the queen of France might need some coaxing to yield to nice customs, our heroine was only restrained by her deference to the present hour, secure in the knowledge that there were but so many left before the fruition of their hopes was accomplished.
From the chronology already described, it must be evident that the conclusion so long in coming was nigh. No further storms blew in to disturb their travel, and no new conflict arose to disrupt their final act. Catherine discovered she was able to bid adieu to the Tilney estate with far different feelings than ever she had anticipated. While providing the setting of her deepest fears and heartaches, it had also served as a place of shelter and provision. The edifice would never be a mere abbey to her again, or indeed only Henry's place of origin: in a very real sense, it now belonged to her as well. She felt as if the carriage ride to Woodston should match these sensations, and stretch so that all the insights of her sojourn might arrange themselves comfortably in her mind. But like many a person before has discovered, Catherine found that a journey long anticipated may be speedily accomplished, and she was barely aware of their turning the corner away from one building before next recognizing the familiar path up to the parsonage. Even the general's commentary could not divert her attention from each well-loved and longed-for sight.
If the trip did not match her imagination, their welcome at its conclusion more than compensated, for all of their retainers and dogs greeted them, and even a songbird heralded their entrance. Well wishes, congratulations, and all due deference to the general were paid, including the wise Mrs. Forest's invitation to enjoy "a very small repast, just something that might be enjoyed on the ride back if he could not stay." This provision was well-received by the man in question, who despite his oft-repeated strict schedule, was inclined to tarry while consuming the tarts and custard. He also spent the interval examining the framework of the chimneys, inspecting the kitchen's cleanliness, and surveying the drawing room, all of which were in such fine order that he congratulated Catherine for already moving in the direction of their plans. It is a mark of her own development that she elected to share credit rather than disabuse him of a notion so firmly rooted in his own sense of self-importance. Only when the gentleman was safely gone away did Catherine praise her housekeeper more naturally, rushing into her arms with a heartfelt embrace and the warmest professions of thanks she could conceive for anticipating everything her mistress had failed to say might be wanted. So strong were Catherine's feelings that she nearly wept, and it was only by Henry's gentle persuasion that she was convinced to allow the other woman to clear the table and quit the room, lest her own answering tears be discovered.
Despite the quality work of their servants, Catherine and Henry still found a great deal to do on their return. She must stroll her beloved yard, and admire its cultivation, while discovering opportunities to prepare a better garden come spring. He must check on the horses and ensure the stable had been well tended during their absence. A nervous Will dogged his steps in trepidation, having been convinced by a week's reflection (not to mention the daily admonishments of the household women) that he ought
not
to have taken Mrs. Tilney out in so terrible a gale. However, his master—little interested in criticism—nearly disconcerted his stable boy as thoroughly as his wife had their housekeeper with earnest praise and gratitude for guarding said lady's welfare.
It is well they took care of these domestics early, for very soon after the parsonage received visitors. Not only the good Mr. Jones, who called at the first moment possible, but many of the village came to pay their respects. Mrs. Poole was kept busy finding ever more creative ways to assist Catherine in entertaining, supported by the former's foresight in pressing some of the apple crop into a vinegar that went very well with anything else served.
By the time the youngest of the Hayes children were carried home, neither Henry nor Catherine felt capable of consuming more than the barest dinner. When they were finished, they retired by mutual agreement to the cosy glow of the study, settling in two chairs before the hearth. They continued thus as long as daylight remained, revelling in the satisfaction of familiar circumstances and surroundings. Catherine was pleased to finally finish the next to last piece of her mending basket, and consigned the waistcoat to some future date. Putting aside her things, she looked about and sighed. "I do not think I could ask for anything else in the world," she spoke her thoughts aloud.
Setting aside his much examined periodical, Henry clasped hands over his chest. "That is a strong pronouncement, and certainly a pious one. I find there is very little I could ask for as well."
He might have spoken with solemnity, and kept his eyes firmly on the fireplace, but Catherine was certain he preferred her to challenge him by the twitching of his fingers. "I hope you are not suggesting we should be ungrateful for our circumstances. It would be very wrong to demand even greater blessings after receiving so much." She was not as successful as her husband in averting her eyes, nor schooling her features, and so he noticed she was very close to breaking into a full smile.
"Perish the thought: may it never be said we are so mercenary. No, you are quite right, we have only to thank God, and accept the rest promised those who depend on the goodness of Heaven." Here he yawned in a grand manner, and dropped his lids with similar affectation.
"I would not disturb your prayers. But if you want something specific, I am sure we might appeal to Mrs. Poole: she is likely still sorting through her jars in the kitchen."
"Nay, I would not disturb our cook with my needs."
"Is it Will you would like? He might still be awake."
"Let the boy sleep; there is nothing to bother him about."
"Then I will go and find Mrs. Forest. She will know just how to please you." And Catherine, barely able to stop from laughing, stood to hide her expression.
Just as quickly did Henry rise, and catching her up in his arms, reveal his own aspect of merriment. "Capable and inspiring as that good woman is, she has done quite enough for today. There is a different woman altogether who I wish to supplicate, and she alone can answer me."
"Then what is it you wish?" Catherine asked softly, for fear she would release her feelings in a rush and miss whatever clever pleasantry Henry offered next.
It was not levity that suffused the beloved face, but a bemused tenderness. Without further words, he gently brought her closer so that they were nearly eye to eye, with only the space of breath between them. Then ever so carefully he bent down, and astonished her by bestowing a kiss on her nose. She could not hold back further and broke into stammers of glee, which he answered with equal fervour, and neither was quite clear of what was said by the other, only that it was in every way right and good, with many cries of each other's names and as many eager confirmations of their mutual impassioned desires. This state of affairs could not remain comfortably within the bounds of their study, and it was imperative they repair to the bedchamber even before the sun quite surrendered its last light. This proof of the time did not dampen their enthusiasm nor cause the slightest hesitation in their mutual admiration. They rather took their ancestors' example when made in the divine image and were unashamed.
Neither was quite aware when the moon rose or the stars appeared, or indeed of any other wonders of creation they had been entrusted dominion of. There was only one command they comprehended and obeyed with earnest fidelity, in like mind and singular purpose, as they cleaved unto each other as one flesh. In considering that they had endured nearly a fortnight's deprivation, amidst trials and adversity, their commitment cannot be wondered at, nor their renewed constancy astound. In short, it is the result that must have been expected from all still pouring over this account. There could only be doubt as to the duration of their efforts, which would be impolite to inquire after, and so will not be related in further detail. Let it be for the reader to determine what sounds most pleasing to relate, and that will be the measure by which this passage may draw to its just and worthy end.
Posted on 2021-12-20
Chapter 31
There is very little to be related next concerning this adventure in the lives of hero and heroine. But what facts remain to be considered are provided within this epilogue, short and concise as all such finales should be.
While the general had expressed every intention of personally overseeing the improvements of Woodston's parsonage and byways, he was distracted in these efforts by two divided interests. One was the lawsuit he brought against his neighbour, as a means to end the danger to his property and progeny. Catherine was at first dismayed to think they had been the cause of this dispute, but Henry advised her otherwise: the quarrel was old, and the resolution likely to take just as long to settle considering the lawyers involved. Whatever the outcome, it was unlikely they would have any further part to play.
The second was the invitation forwarded to both gentlemen of Northanger Abbey for a stay in Brighton with the viscountess and her husband, where the captain might receive the best of care, and the general all the deference of appearing in the company of a title. This scheme was so eagerly accepted and looked forward to that all other projects were either postponed or delegated. Catherine received a lengthy, officious dispatch with his dictates in lieu of his presence, which she read with full deference, and shared with her husband, who found much more between the lines written. Regarding the actual orders, very little was done accordingly, as the Tilneys were agreed on a more gradual policy of incremental adjustments than a full renovation. Fortunately, what rodents had arrived that fateful day were no longer to be seen, though whether this was from any other event than the changing of the weather could not be discovered. With the harvest completed, Henry met with Woodston's farmers to restore their streets to a state deemed acceptable to the needs of the parish over more vainglorious suggestions.
Catherine's own letters bore greater fruit, and the parsonage received a steady stream of mail over the next few weeks. Here it was good she had been so extensive in her correspondence, and they received happy congratulations in ever lengthening instalments, so that every other day provided further evidence of their good fortune and universal good will. Even Mrs. Allen sent two sheets' worth, which included repeated questions on whether Mr. Tilney might need to replace his wardrobe. Her husband's postscript was by comparison restrained but no less fervent in his application for the young couple’s mutual good health, and their attendance when next the Allens might travel, with a sly suggestion about Bath and its appeals.
But the best of these replies came from their sister Eleanor herself, so long absent from this narrative, and yet so often alluded to, she must make at least one brief appearance. It was a month later, and Henry had just returned from a rigorous day surveying the work on the main road. No sign of his former ailments remained, and he recounted his day over tea with good humour and a healthy appetite. As the couple turned to discussions of the approaching winter, and plans to be made for the church, they were interrupted by an express sent by courier bearing the Vermond crest.
"I hope nothing is the matter," Catherine said as Henry broke the seal. "Is there any report on the captain's health?"
"That is not mentioned at all; I must assume he continues as usual. But it is not the fate of any Tilney male that prompts our brother's pen." Here Henry continued reading, and Catherine was surprised when he said no more, only growing more animated with each new line perused, so that by the end his smile was as bright as the new buttons upon his waistcoat. Looking up at last he opened his lips, then stopped, looked back down at the sheets, and finally pushed them into her hands without comment.
She took them up eagerly, ignored the first paragraph full of travel and horses, and at last found the part that had so arrested her husband's speech, for it was written not in the viscount's hand but Eleanor's own. Catherine's reading echoed Henry's as she learned what had so disconcerted him, and she found she must read through all the words again before looking up in wonder. They eyed each other with mutual enthusiasm, each unable to voice the depth of their feelings, until Henry finally asked with great elation, "And how shall you enjoy being addressed by the future heir to Vermond as 'My dear aunt C?'"
"Oh, I care nothing for what I am called, I am so happy for them both! Only think how soon it will be. We will be able to join them when she is confined, will we not?"
"Even were the armies of France to cross the channel and forbid our obeying any rites of the church forever after, I would make every effort for us to attend. To be denied a christening after the loss of their wedding would be the greatest deprivation imaginable. Though Lent shall be very difficult to observe with any solemnity considering the festive event we anticipate."
"Yes, certainly; for if Eleanor has counted out right, it will be as if Easter arrives twice next year."
"Now there is a much better way to view the matter, and I adopt it at once as the only rational means to consider it. And, since it is not the Lenten season now, I propose we begin celebrating at once."
So it became necessary to make the happy announcement to their small household, and to raise a toast of cider toward their sister's continued good health and preservation. The women kindly offered to help their mistress in sewing gowns, while Will dubiously hoped the little one would not be as much trouble as his own sister's children. A short missive was sent in return via the courier, with the promise of longer tidings to follow. After this celebration they determined to enjoy a walk, the house proving too limited a space for the thrill yet passing between them. This removal encouraged them to canvass the subject still further, discussing the relative merits of boys and girls, whether the respective parents of the viscount or viscountess would boast more over this accomplishment, and how perfectly well motherhood would suit so gentle a soul as Eleanor.
Catherine was so warm in praise of her sister's merits, so firm in her conviction that no one could deserve the appellation better, it was a moment before she realized Henry had stopped speaking. "Do you not agree?"
"I must confess, though I always believe my sister worthy of any tribue, I cannot share your sentiments to the same extent. Only I hope you will acquit me of any disloyalty if I reveal my motive."
"Which is?"
"That there must be more than one lady who deserves to be similarly blessed."
"Oh, yes, of course, there are many worthy mothers, even quite a few to be delivered here in the parish. I am sure I would wish all to be so happy."
"To see the whole world pacified and loved is the hope of any devout Christian. But however an increase in baptisms may provide a clergyman with ample employment, I confess those were not the circumstances I referred to."
She considered what he had said, and the tone in which he had said it, a mixture of archness and warmth announcing he was close to offering his own unique form of compliment. "There cannot be too many you would place on par with Eleanor."
"No, there are few indeed I admire so well. Fewer still I will admit to loving with a whole heart. And only one, I find, who may share any privilege with commensurate deserving grace."
Reddening even as she anticipated his hints, Catherine was pleased to accept the profusion of his heart and the firm security of his arm with equal delight, and they strolled in companionable quietude for a time before turning back to the parsonage. "Happiness must be something that grows as it is shared," she commented, speaking on what she had been considering.
Henry nodded. "Nothing can be surer: and we are the beneficiaries, by the generosity our relations have bestowed on us."
"Then, though I know not how it could be so, we must all become even happier in the future, when you are granted the opportunity to share our joy in return, as I know of no one better to perform the office."
This sentiment forbade any rebuttal, and Catherine savoured the rare event of surprising her husband by praise of him. It little signified to these honest hearts that it was not their own nursery to be established yet, just as they had never envied the viscountess the privilege of marrying before themselves. Their recent trials granted them greater appreciation for the blessing of familial accord; and in returning up the path, they found the distances travelled as nothing to their present felicity. It therefore remains to ask whether it might not be best for all those joined in holy matrimony to brave an adventure or two, when character and charity unite to redeem the past's hardships into the present's prosperity.
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