Posted on: 2008-07-12
Has she read it?
Do I have any hope?
I wrote you a letter
Things could be better
Full of promises, every hope and dream
Did you get it
Have you read it
Talks about you and me
And the future, you see
Something no one can do
Is take the place of you
Can't you see you're....one of a kind*
I am in torment.
Harville took one look at my face and told me he would go to the framemakers by himself instead. I am very grateful for his unspoken understanding. I just wish i could see her right now, instead of this fearful waiting. Though it is nothing compared to what I did to her 8 years ago and the disgraceful way I behaved with Louisa. I just hope she can forgive me for everything in the past
Oh... There she is right now. She looks beautiful in this crowded street, like a light amongst the darkness. She is on her brother-in-laws arm. Ah... They're coming over here. What is that nonsense that Musgrove is babbling about. I must have consented to something because Musgrove handed Anne to me and took off in another direction. The look on her face is sweetness itself, and I need no other answer...
It is my wedding day. I am the happiest man on earth. My lovely Anne has been my anchor in the past few months during preperations for our wedding and my first voyage with her. Sophy has been very sympathetic and lifted many of Anne's worries from her shoulders before they started to exert any pressure. Harville and my brother-in-law have given me much advice for married life in the past few days. Its the moment of truth now. My Anne has never looked lovelier.
All I can do is wonder how she can love me, when i've done enough to ruin her opinion of me to last a lifetime. In such moments if we are in privacy she kisses my cheek and tells me very firmly that she loves me because I can calm her when she is agitated (which is very rarely), I attend to all her moods, and because it has always been in her to love me. After such a touching speech all I can do is hold her in my arms, and whisper to her of my love for her. Many of my old friends tease me about my change in attitude about women aboard ship. But she won't be able to come on my next voyage, as we are expecting a child in about 5 months. I just hope the baby is healthy.
My voyage will only be for 3 months and then after the child is born I might stop sailing and focus more on being on land with my wife and child. But who knows? I'm just focusing on my wife now and forever.
* "The Letter" by the Newsboys