Chapter 1 ~ December 17, 18-
This is my new journal, starting my new life as Elizabeth Anne Darcy. I decided to start a new one, one for my married life.
Well being married is everything I dreamed it would be, well not to mention the fact of my dear husband. I love him dearly.
It is so right falling asleep in his arms at night and waking up in them. I am so happy that I get to do that everyday for the rest of my life. I feel truly blessed. Not to mention Liam is so cute when he is sleeping, his hair tousled, and a small smile on his face. He looks almost like a little boy, instead of a grown man.
I am a little nervous though, today we return to Hertfordshire. What will everyone think?
Well I know the answer to that shocked and surprised. It is now late and Liam and me are at Netherfield. After what happen at home Liam thought it was for the best that we stay here. Thank god for that. When we arrived, Hill announced us as Mr. and Mrs. Darcy. Liam kissed me on the cheek and we walked in. Jane, Charles, and papa greeted up warmly.
However, 'mama' was upset, you think she would be happy for me. After all he did have 10,000 a year and a great estate in Derbyshire. But no, she was actually angry with me. She said that no daughter of hers would ever think of doing such a thing. Luckily the only people in the room were Jane, Charles, and papa; the girls must have been somewhere. Charles already, I guess from the look on his face, knew. I guess Jane told him finally. She already asked me if she could, she didn't want to keep any secrets from him.
Anyway she went on and told me that my mother must have not raised me properly. Oh that did it.
'Who do you think you are Mrs. Bennet? You have no right to yell at Liz like that, and her mother was a very respectable lady.' Liam replied angrily.
'It's ok Liam, really I don't mind.'
'No Liz, it's not ok and I do mind.' He said looking at me. 'I will not stand here and let her abuse you or your mother.'
'Darcy, Elizabeth, maybe it would be best if we all return to Netherfield. It is getting late.'
'Good idea Charles. Night papa, Jane, I'll see you both in the morning. Good night Mrs. Bennet.' I kissed papa and Jane good night and we all left.
When we arrived, Charles showed me to Liam and mine's room, while Liam went into the den. Charles was telling me that he was glad that Darcy and me were married.
'He needs some happiness in his life. But, I will say one thing Elizabeth. I am glad that she isn't your mother. Are you sure Jane is?'
'Yes, she is.' I replied laughing. 'Jane is her daughter, she is blessed however, with papa's good will.'
'Good night, dear Lizzy.' He said hugging me.
'Good night Charles and thank you.'
He then left and I got ready for bed. Jane and Charles already brought my things here yesterday. I sit here now writing and waiting for my husband to come. I hope he comes soon, he was very quiet on the trip here. Oh here he comes, I better go and see him.
Chapter 2 ~ December 18, 18-
Oh, the nerve of him. Once again my dear husband has left and the 'king of arrogance' has taken his place. Last night when I went to see him, he was still angry with what 'mama' said.
'By what right can she say that about you, Liz.'
'The right that she is my step-mother Liam, actually to most people she is my mother.'
'Well maybe it would be better if everyone knew the truth.' Liam said looking at me.
'What? Are you serious? Do you realize what problems that it will cause for my father and half-sisters?'
'Yes, but then you wouldn't have to worry about her anymore.'
'Your wrong about that Fitzwilliam, I will. She only treats me like a stepdaughter in private. So it won't change a single thing, well except that she would be able to treat me that way in public. And besides for the past 6 years we have told everyone a lie. And now you want me to tell everyone the truth. Why?'
'I just don't want your life to be a lie Liz.'
'Well in case you haven't realized it Mr. Darcy, my whole life has been a lie. From the moment my mother married that horrible man. I guess after 21 long years that I am just use to it by now.'
'But it isn't right Mrs. Darcy, that is what I am trying to say.' He said stepping closet to me.
'Not right,' I said steeping away. 'I know it's not right! But what am I to do. If I tell the truth, my father and sisters are ruined and that is not how I wish to repay their 6 years of kindness.'
'Kindness? Is that what you call it, is it kindness that Mrs. Bennet treats you with.' Liam said sarcastically.
'No, but I don't care what she thinks of me, I never did. I only care what papa and Jane thinks of me. And I will not ruin them or now dear Charles.'
'But Elizabeth...'
'No buts Fitzwilliam, it's my life and that's how it will remain. I am sorry if you don't approve of it.'
'Your right, I don't approve of it. It's not just you life anymore Elizabeth, it's our life now.'
'I know, I know, but I don't...oh what's the point.' I said throwing my arms up and heading towards my room.
'Where are you going?'
'I am tired, and this conversation has reached a stalemate. Neither of us wants to see each other's ways, so I am going to bed. Good night Mr. Darcy.'
'Fine, good night Mr. Darcy.' He turned and walked into his own room, slamming the door in anger.
I spent the rest of the night crying. Oh Liam, why must you let your pride get in the way? I have been up now an hour and his door is still shut. Why can't he see my point? Why...
Chapter 2B
Well our first disagreement ended nicely, Liam came up behind me as I was writing. He then said that he was sorry and he loves me, he just wanted our children, when we have them, to know the truth about their mother. I agreed and then we promised each other never to go to bed angry. We sealed this agreement with a kiss. And a few hours later we went down stairs.
The rest of the day went fine. I went to see Jane with Charles, and Liam stayed with Gina.
I forgot all about that Gina was here. She said that she was getting alone fine with Kitty. I am glad Gina is a better influence on her, than Lydia.
As I went to see Jane, 'mama' wisely stayed away from me. Jane and me got talking and I realized that I am going to miss her when I move to Pemberley. She is my sister and I love her dearly, well when she marries Charles, she will be able to visit with him.
Chapter 3 ~ December 19, 18-
Well today went great. Today it was just Liam and I, no one to upset us.
We went for a walk, saying we wanted to be alone and we were. It was pure heaven. I was able t be close to him and didn't have to stay a proper distance, if we were seen. We joked and laughed joyously. We stopped and paid a visit to Charlotte, she was shocked. However, all she had to do is look at us and realize that we were in love. After we left we decided to return to Netherfield.
On the way back we discussed Christmas.
'What are we going to do Liam.'
'I'm not sure, maybe we could leave within the next days and return to Pemberley.'
'Oh that would be wonderful. I can't wait to see Pemberley and Derbyshire, and I think Pemberley could use a little Christmas cheer.'
'Georgie and me also, dear Liz. And a happy Christmas it will be with you as the mistress of Pemberley.'
We continued and I was thinking about what Liam said. Will I be a good mistress? I hope so; I don't want to disappoint anyone.
We returned and after dinner, we told Gina of our plans. She was ecstatic.
'I can't wait Liz, decorating will be so much fun this year. Won't it William?'
'Yes, very much so.'
'I take then you want to leave within the next few days.' Charles said.
'Yes, Charles. It will be better if we return to Pemberley within the next day or so. There will be plenty to do and so little time to do it. Also, I don't think it would be wise for us to remain around Mrs. Bennet much longer.' Liam said truthfully.
'And I agree,' I said. 'Besides Liam and Gina have been away from Pemberley to long. And I can't wait to see my childhood home.' It's the truth I can't wait to go.
'Well then, I will help you in making the preparations.'
'Thanks Bingley. Well I am tired, shall we Mrs. Darcy?'
'Yes, goodnight Gina, Charles.'
As we were leaving Charles said:
'Tired huh, I bet. Oh and by the way Caroline is arriving the day after tomorrow.'
'Really? I can't wait.' Liam said with a little sarcasm in his voice and with that we left.
And as I sit here writing and thinking about what Caroline will say, I grin. It will be a most interesting day.
Chapter 4 ~ December 20, 18-
5 days till Christmas. We are planning on leaving tomorrow and I can't wait.
Well today was a frustrating day; none other than dear Lady Catherine visited us. She is really mad at poor Liam.She is most displeased with his choice of wife and to be married in such a way.
'It is not the way of a gentleman Darcy, and to marry such a girl with bad connections. It is unheard of.'
'Aunt Catherine, I love Elizabeth with all my heart. And besides my parents would have approved. My father said so.' Liam said calmly, holding my hand while doing so.
'This is your doing Miss Bennet or Wickham, whatever your name is?'
'Her name is Mrs. Darcy aunt.'
'I will never call her that. She is the child of a man, who married another, got a woman pregnant and disserted her. She's an illegitimate child Darcy, and this is who you choose to take your dear mothers place.'
'My mother would have been proud. She has always respected and loved Liz, as did my father. The only person who didn't approve is you, Aunt Catherine. So it doesn't matter.' Liam said firmly.
'What if I threatened to expose her and her family. What then nephew.'
'Do it aunt, and I will never allow you or Anne at Pemberley again. However, it won't take me away from Elizabeth. She's my wife now and forever.'
'This is your fault girl, I knew you were trouble since the day I met you.' She said waiving her finger at me.
'Like wise Lady Catherine. Look you can threaten me all you want, but I love Fitzwilliam. And no one is going to come between us. So good day Lady Catherine.'
And with that I got up and walked out. I went to where Gina was and started to talk with her, until Liam came in grinning.
'Well done Liz, you are the first to stand up to her. That was great.'
'Really Liam, you are not angry with me.'
'No, why should I be?
'She's your aunt.'
'Yea well, she will get over it. And don't worry she won't expose you. Not if Anne has anything to do with it.'
'Anne? I don't understand Liam.' Gina proceeded to tell me what Anne wrote her.
'She's in love with an officer. Oh what will Lady Catherine think?' I said laughing. 'Do you know who Gina?'
'No, she didn't say, but she loves him and she hopes that you and William are happy together. She also said that she wasn't surprised about you two. She has known ever since William's ball, that you two were meant to be together.' And with that Gina left.
'I wonder who he is?'
'Don't know love, but it will eventually come out.'
Liam and me continued to talk until Charles arrived with Jane. We all ate, played some cards, and listened to Gina play. Afterwards Jane left and we all retired early, for tomorrow Caroline arrives.
Chapter 5 ~ December 21, 18-
4 days until Christmas, we are planning on leaving today. I am both nervous and excited at the same time.
I am still a little angry at what Lady Catherine said yesterday, but hey she will soon have her own problems.
Well we are packed and ready. We are only waiting for Caroline to arrive. I hope she arrives soon, I want to go home.
It's still as beautiful as I remember. It is like it never changed. We are here; we are finally at Pemberley, my childhood home. It is so pretty, all covered in white from the day's snow fall. It is almost magical.
Anyway, Miss Bingley arrived just moments before we left.
We were all sitting in the parlor when she was announced. She walked in and went over to Jane and Charles and embraced them both. She then turned to me.
'Miss Elizabeth Bennet, how nice to see you again?'
'Thank you Miss Bingley, I hope the trip was pleasant.'
'Yes thank you. My dear Miss Darcy and Mr. Darcy, how are you both?'
She either didn't hear or she refuses to acknowledge that we are married.
'We are fine Miss Bingley. Well I hate to be rude but we have to be going.' Liam said standing up.
'Where are you and Miss Darcy going, sir?'
'Home to Pemberley for Christmas.'
'I don't understand why don't you spend Christmas here instead of at Pemberley all alone.'
'Because Miss Bingley, we need to get home and prepare for our first Christmas together as a family. Shall we my dears?' Liam said addressing Gina and me.
'Yes, Jane I will see you soon. I promise.'
'WHAT? I don't understand. Why is Miss Eliza returning with you?'
'Oh I guess you haven't heard; Miss Bingley I would like to introduce you to my wife, Mrs. Elizabeth Darcy. We were married 6 days ago.' Liam said with a grin.
'WHAT? I can't believe it. Since when did this little country girl become an object of your affection?
'Caroline! I will not allow you to speak so of a guest and my future sister.' Charles said in an angry tone.
'And neither will I. Goodbye Bingley, Jane I hope to see you both at Pemberley for the New Year's Ball we will be giving. Until then Merry Christmas, shall we Liz and Georgie.'
'Yes William, bye Jane, Charles, and Miss Bingley.' Gina said embracing Charles and Jane.
Caroline stayed back, not saying a word or acknowledging that we were leaving.
'Bye dearest Jane, I will see you soon. Tell papa that I love him dearly. Bye Charles, take care of my sister.'
'I will, bye Lizzy.'
And with that we got into our carriage and left. When we were at a safe distance form Netherfield, we all broke into laughter.
'I can not believe that she didn't hear.'
'Yes, that was funny when she finally heard me say it. I thought she was going to explode.' Liam said laughing.
And the rest of the journey past that way, all of us laughing and having a good time.
Finally we arrived at Pemberley and Mrs. Reynolds came outside to greet us.
'Master and Miss Georgiana, welcome home. And to you as well Mrs. Darcy, it is good to see you again.' She walked up to me and embraced me.
'It is good to see you again as well Mrs. Reynolds. How are you? You look well.'
'Thank you I am Miss Lisa. Oh pardon me, it should be Mrs. Darcy.'
'No problem, I sometimes having trouble believing it myself.' I said with a glance at my husband.
'Shall we go in.'
We immediately went in and I was once again given a tour of this beautiful estate that I loved and missed. We were then showed to our rooms, I immediately recognized them.
'These are your parents rooms, Liam.'
'Yes I know. I asked Mrs. Reynolds to re-open them. They are to be our rooms now my sweet Lizzy.'
I looked at him with a sad and happy look. 'I love you, Mr. Darcy.'
'And I love you, Mrs. Darcy.'
A little later we went downstairs to eat dinner. Afterwards Gina and me played the piano; we had a wonderful time. We also did some decorating it was truly felt right. I missed this place and these two wonderful people I am now laughing with and plan to spend the rest of my life with. Finally we all retired after the busy, but wonderful day. I am stopping now, with only one thing to say; I love my husband and this place very dearly.